How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[HappyKitty]

why is it whenever I feel bad I keep second guessing myself

 

[Ju]

After a few days where I have felt really low (which is when I joined) I actually feel pretty good right now. I hope it lasts for awhile

 

[HappyKitty]

oh ya drinking black coffee does help with migraine for a bit☕️

 

[TragicReality]

Not good. I saw a ''friend'', we rarely see each other. She had 2 sisters pass away last fall. I had made it to one visitation. I love her, she just has a busy life in a big city and a full schedule. I had wondered now for almost a year what had happened to her one sister who was also my friend.. She was only 1 year older than us. I shouldn't have asked, it made her cry. I didn't know she was the one to find her sister. They don't know the exact cause but I have my suspisions which I cant say.

Also, she made me excited, I had left my last pet in her family's barn. Just a few weeks after I left my cat, she told me I couldn't go look for him because they didn't see him for a long time. That's a year ago. Today, she quickly produced a blurry picture of a cat and told me my cat is fine in the straw. I just about cried with joy. Until later, after driving home, I looked again to see this isn't my cat. I had already texted my son that our cat was fine. He noticed the front legs were not like my sweet cat. So disappointed and sad. He was my last pet, I had him for 10 years.

 

[Baywasp]

Worried that nothing I can ever do will make a difference and everything is useless.

 

[Angie]

Tired of my life altogether.

 

[Gonz]

Been ruminating on past negative events. Can’t seem to stop myself. It’s stupid and pointless; only brings back old pain and, worst of all, frustration that there’s nothing to be done about any of it.

There’ll never come a time when wrongs are acknowledged, apologies are offered and things are made right. People live out lives of comfort and peace, not understanding (nor caring even if they did) the devastation they’ve caused and, in the end, you’ve just gotta suck it up and find a way to live with it.

But there comes a point where there’s no space left to put all that anger and it becomes overwhelming. Sometimes I think it’s for the best that I’m so isolated, because I sure as shit wouldn’t want to inflict this kind of mood on anyone else.

 

[HappyKitty]

Been ruminating on past negative events. Can’t seem to stop myself. It’s stupid and pointless; only brings back old pain and, worst of all, frustration that there’s nothing to be done about any of it.

There’ll never come a time when wrongs are acknowledged, apologies are offered and things are made right. People live out lives of comfort and peace, not understanding (nor caring even if they did) the devastation they’ve caused and, in the end, you’ve just gotta suck it up and find a way to live with it.

But there comes a point where there’s no space left to put all that anger and it becomes overwhelming. Sometimes I think it’s for the best that I’m so isolated, because I sure as shit wouldn’t want to inflict this kind of mood on anyone else.

On point. Thanks, I dont have to write about mine. 😂 Its just hard to not being able to expect apology from these assholes honestly and they expect us to be kinder back with them in return.

 

[Pebble mouse]

It's 1pm and I am having an episode in full flight. This is hell on earth.

 

[nicktheundoer]

It's 1pm and I am having an episode in full flight. This is hell on earth.

☹️☹️I'm sorry..I wish there was a way for you to not feel this..idk what to say..hoping that it would pass soon..Hugs🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Been ruminating on past negative events. Can’t seem to stop myself. It’s stupid and pointless; only brings back old pain and, worst of all, frustration that there’s nothing to be done about any of it.

There’ll never come a time when wrongs are acknowledged, apologies are offered and things are made right. People live out lives of comfort and peace, not understanding (nor caring even if they did) the devastation they’ve caused and, in the end, you’ve just gotta suck it up and find a way to live with it.

But there comes a point where there’s no space left to put all that anger and it becomes overwhelming. Sometimes I think it’s for the best that I’m so isolated, because I sure as shit wouldn’t want to inflict this kind of mood on anyone else.

Thich nhat hanh, a buddhist master told that everytime we replay those things in our mind.. we're getting hurt again..

Maybe you could try to forgive and love them from a distance..it's possible right?
I hope your suffering subsides..hugssss🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Worried that nothing I can ever do will make a difference and everything is useless.

It doesn't matter..as long as you're in the mind of doing service to other people..that's the only purpose..I'm sorry it's just what I believe..

 

[nicktheundoer]

After a few days where I have felt really low (which is when I joined) I actually feel pretty good right now. I hope it lasts for awhile

I hope you feel good even more...😄😄🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

and yes I do miss them very much.
my uncle died last two years ago, then my aunty this year. 🥺

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Hugs🫂🫂you will heal..

 

[nicktheundoer]

I'm not having an episode now, but I'm feeling terribly sad. Life seems so pointless to me right now.

I don't want to be here, dealing with the same crap constantly.

☹️☹️same..I've been dealing with these things for more than a year..idk what to do..I hope we could be freed from these things..🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Severe anxiety. Woke at 6am and can't get back to sleep. It was hot last night so I couldn't get to sleep until after midnight.

Very worried about finances at the moment. It's complicated but a stressful time as my former employer is anything but transparent about our pension plans and how the money is invested. A friend of mine quit a few years ago so I do know the process thank goodness. We can withdraw our plan directly into a locked-in RSP (tax sheltered plan that we can't withdraw until retirement age), and manage it ourselves. I know what to do with it - that's not the problem. It's that everything is shrouded in secrecy. Our yearly pension statements only tell us our contributions over the years and not what our plan is currently worth. We are allowed to withdraw a small percentage in cash (and pay taxes on it) and that should allow me to live while I finish my 8 month college program, rather than having to get a student loan. I'm obviously anxious to know the amount since our current income (between my husband and I) is a thousand a month. We are in debt from home repairs.

Argh! I have never in my life had the luxury of not being worried about money. I know I'm very fortunate to even have a pension plan. But it could take them 90 days for this process and for me to even know how much my plan is worth. I was part-time so it's not as good as it probably sounds. Meanwhile we are stressed about spending anything. My husband needs to go to the physiotherapist often, and since we no longer have coverage we are paying out of pocket. He didn't even want to go but I insisted - health expenses are not optional and it affects his mood as well as the functioning of his body.

So that's what I am dealing with. Just a waiting game until I know where I am. But I really can't start school until 1) my health is confirmed okay and 2) I know how much freaking money I have.

The lack of transparency does bother me a lot.

I wish you find peace amidst this burdens..hugs🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

I feel utterly hopeless as I often do these days. In total despair. Hate myself, hate the world, have nothing to live for. All the greatest hits.

I hope that your situation could change..maybe you'd like to say what's making you feel that way?

 

[nicktheundoer]

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.

☹️☹️

 

[nicktheundoer]

Not good. I saw a ''friend'', we rarely see each other. She had 2 sisters pass away last fall. I had made it to one visitation. I love her, she just has a busy life in a big city and a full schedule. I had wondered now for almost a year what had happened to her one sister who was also my friend.. She was only 1 year older than us. I shouldn't have asked, it made her cry. I didn't know she was the one to find her sister. They don't know the exact cause but I have my suspisions which I cant say.

Also, she made me excited, I had left my last pet in her family's barn. Just a few weeks after I left my cat, she told me I couldn't go look for him because they didn't see him for a long time. That's a year ago. Today, she quickly produced a blurry picture of a cat and told me my cat is fine in the straw. I just about cried with joy. Until later, after driving home, I looked again to see this isn't my cat. I had already texted my son that our cat was fine. He noticed the front legs were not like my sweet cat. So disappointed and sad. He was my last pet, I had him for 10 years.

That must be heart breaking..I'm so sorry..☹️☹️🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

My doctor called me with the results of my uterine ultrasound - they found a 1 cm lump, and I need to follow up with a gynecologist for a biopsy. Ones in my city have a 6-month wait for an appointment so I will have to drive into the bigger city. I don't want to wait obviously. It will still be 3-6 weeks.

This is freaking me out - my brother had a 1 cm growth in his bowel that turned out to be cancer. He's now had surgery and is recovering, and they said they got it all.

I know they can just take out the uterus, but if it's cancer it could spread. Ugh.

No mam..don't worry..Praying that everything goes well...