I do not know how I feel to be honest. I feel stupid and tired and alone. But I think that is a univeral truth that most guys are idiots and I am no exception. I actively try and I think I am doing alright. But I also push people away and sabotage myself constantly latley.
I find it hard to go to sleep and I find it hard to wake up and I just find myself constantly tired and exhausted. I cannot concentrate, and I keep thinking I should be kind to myself on that one, because I have been working incredibly hard for a few months now and it probably just exhauted me. But still it annoys me.
Also one thing that really is getting to me lately is I give so much, I kind of want a little for myself and I think that is incredibly selfish and I hate that I feel like that.
I guess that is how I am feeling.