How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Aurelia]

Awww I love the kitty. I am sorry about you meds, I had to come off mine about two months ago (an anti-depressant and a mood stabilizer) and it was very sudden one day I just had no choice so no tapering off or anything. And for the first two maybe three weeks where hell, I could not close my eyes without violent flashing images, I could not sleep and It was a nightmare. But then the sysmptoms went away and I was okay, I am still not back on them, and I am doing alright.
So just stick too it Lady and you will pass this rough this patch and if you need support SF is always here for you and I am as well

When you say violent flashing images, can you give any sort of example? I only ask because I have them too. Doctor diagnosed me with psychosis for now--I have a feeling it might be schizophrenia, but haven't gotten that diagnosis yet. Do you think the sudden med taper was why you had the images or were you having them before that also? I'm on risperdal (an antipsychotic), myself, but never really considered it causing something like that.

 

[Aurelia]

my mind works so slow 😂 maybe its just been me. my parents came bck for a while and is helping and planning to move house before Nov. The search for it yano, since inflation is getting absolutely high in a way its $6K/month to stay here so we gotta move out. I argued that they denied we stayed in the west cause my fav cousins and friends are there- I know I can help them- In the end.... I dont care and just let them do their job. My energy burst out quick. Cant catch myself.

I would say to focus on your mental health first because if you're not well and you're overly stressed, you won't be able to help them either. I also think it would help them automatically to know that you are, in fact, well. If you feel you can focus on a job of some kind or need it during your daily routine, that's different, but don't exhaust yourself. I will pray for you.

 

[Aurelia]

Its just weird. I bet its my grieving that doesnt let me be randomly angry at someone. Prolly be thinking "do I mean what I said? is that jealousy mean anything?" Just felt my aunt wouldnt want that in a way. It confuse me.

Jealousy of what?

 

[Aurelia]

I'm tired. But I got my son to the doctor. He wont go inpatient but at least he got a prescription for an antidepressant. I'll be having him back in my car for the next couple weeks, because things can get worse when you first start on them. I can't suggest what antidepressant I think would help better, so I'll trust my docs judgement and hope this gets him out of his anxiety and depression a bit with time. It's mainly situational. If he wouldn't refuse help it would be easier. This is a huge accomplishment though, I've tried for years to get him to the doctor and accept some form of help. I'm hopeful. Then hopefully he'll either want to work again or if it doesn't get better, I've suggested some help from the govt but it's not easy to get. I know the system, if he went inpatient he'd have a psychiatrist and be better diagnosed. One step at a time. Hugs to everyone. I don't like using the like thing, but it's my way of saying I read your post and I wish you better days ahead.

Can I ask what is going on with him that you think he needs to go inpatient? Is he a danger to himself in some way? What sort of things does he occupy his time with?

 

[Aurelia]

I'm tired. I've been working 2 jobs and it's great from a financial perspective but the circles under my eyes and general feeling of trying to push through a brick wall suggests I need to take a step back. I got kicked from the project I was enjoying (or it stopped, they never tell you!) so I guess the time is right to pull back into coast mode rather than full speed ahead. I'm planning/saving for a full 2 weeks off at Christmas. It's usually a rubbish time to take a break because all the taxes are due shortly after, but this time I hope to have the taxes banked ready and enjoy the time off as I really need it, it's a good few months off but will be here before I know it - the Christmas stuff is already in the shops, it will be replaced briefly by Halloween stuff and all that, before every self will probably be tinsel and biscuits.

I'm sorry that you feel so overworked. I'm glad you're taking the time for a vacation, though. Maybe consider some ways you can help yourself not become too exhausted. I recommend prayer. I've already prayed for you.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm sorry that you feel so overworked. I'm glad you're taking the time for a vacation, though. Maybe consider some ways you can help yourself not become too exhausted. I recommend prayer. I've already prayed for you.

Thank you. It's a hangover from last year I think, even though I have a financial cushion now and have all my taxes etc in order, I'm still a bit haunted by the situation I was in last year (when I joined here) when I was in dire financial struggles and almost lost the house. I guess I keep imagining I'll feel better if I have a bigger cushion but it's hard when I can jump on to something and start earning money all hours of the day - tempting to do too much. I'll attempt more discipline and make myself rest and I will try prayer! Also I need to meditate more anyway. Thank you for praying for me 🙏

 

[HappyKitty]

I would say to focus on your mental health first because if you're not well and you're overly stressed, you won't be able to help them either. I also think it would help them automatically to know that you are, in fact, well. If you feel you can focus on a job of some kind or need it during your daily routine, that's different, but don't exhaust yourself. I will pray for you.

Jealousy of what?

hey how are ya, miss ya! 🥰

been into a lot of fights with my parents over a house over a 2 weeks, i told them not to move near my cousin on the east side, the fact they have been listening to my brother more than me felt really betrayed. it confuse me if being jealous is what im angry about…? or the fact Im constantly being dismissive and doubted, this is the third time they have done it to me. whenever my dad talks to me, he always ended up yelling somehow. its childish af, i told my mum to tell him “i dont have a father anymore since he always continues.” something abt yelling make me look at him like a whole differnt person and i quite agree, sth abt being overly stressed cause me to have migraine attack again like three times this week. i gotta becareful abt painkillers or sth- i would know grieve and this cause it, mainly its my parents. 🫠

 

[Harrow]

When you say violent flashing images, can you give any sort of example? I only ask because I have them too. Doctor diagnosed me with psychosis for now--I have a feeling it might be schizophrenia, but haven't gotten that diagnosis yet. Do you think the sudden med taper was why you had the images or were you having them before that also? I'm on
risperdal (an antipsychotic), myself, but never really considered it causing something like that.

Of course, but I only have Aspergers and Bipolar so I do not know if it will be relevent for you, I am sorry my friend, and the only time it ever happened was the first few weeks off my medicine never before.

It was basically just white flashing lights that seemed to violently clash with other lights, everytime I closed my eyes

 

[TragicReality]

Can I ask what is going on with him that you think he needs to go inpatient? Is he a danger to himself in some way? What sort of things does he occupy his time with?

He's homeless. I rent a room. He had called the police a couple weeks ago? or so here, where I rent, because I didn't get out fast enough to the car to get his things. He doesn't respect me or my car, but he's been suicidal.. The cop that showed up the day he called on me, siad it sounds like manipulation. He's depressed, he's a father who's gf manipulated him into having a baby and she has moved on to another man which is devastating. He's tried several jobs, he did have disabilities as a kid, so I thought getting him inpatient would fast track him on the root to a better diagnosis. He's always struggled at jobs. I'm letting him back in my car because nights are cold and antidepressants can have a negative effect when you start them. But he's almost 23 and I can't force him to do anything or go to a shelter.

 

[Harmony]

I'm positive for COVID and feel like hell. Happy days ahead (sarcasm).

 

[foreverforgotten]

At the cat vet specialist. My kitty is miserable. And scared.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I'm positive for COVID and feel like hell. Happy days ahead (sarcasm).

Oh no. I hope you can beat it soon - give yourself lots of time to recover. Watch movies and drink soup and take baths or whatever comforts you when sick. I hope it's not too bad. I hate Covid.

I feel horrible too and it could be a virus but I think it's just withdrawal from Pristiq/desvenlafaxine. Haven't been able to sleep and had to cancel a trip into town because I was afraid I would vomit. That feeling has now passed after a few hours but I now have a runny nose and body pain, and I don't feel like eating (this is unusual for me). I'm drinking water but craving cold hibiscus tea with a dash of lemonade and that's all I want. I'm brewing the tea strong and will add ice cubes to cool it. Will force myself to eat something healthy later and take a multivitamin.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I didn't know you had a nephew that young. That's awesome.

Yeah, I love spending time with him, well and the older one too. But it is fun to see the younger one going through all stages of life. I didn't meet my older nephew until he was almost a year old, so I missed the newborn part.

 

[KM76710]

At the cat vet specialist. My kitty is miserable. And scared.

I hope that all goes well for your cat family.

 

[Gonz]

My head has been full of all kinds of shit but when I’m like this it’s like my ability to communicate shuts down and I freeze every time I try to let any of it out.

 

[Aurelia]

Yeah, I love spending time with him, well and the older one too. But it is fun to see the younger one going through all stages of life. I didn't meet my older nephew until he was almost a year old, so I missed the newborn part.

I bet it's exciting. Children are so innocent and you just want the best for them.

 

[nicktheundoer]

All my sufferings
I wish someone would share with me..
I'm alone,lonely,dying of the emotional pain and anguish
But it's better if I let people be and not get them involved in my sorrow..
Til the day I die,I'm gonna just walk this road
I'm gonna die with pain and accepted into heaven with huggings from God..it's worth it..hopefully not fall into purgatory after I do and I get to heaven directly..

 

[nicktheundoer]

All my sufferings
I wish someone would share with me..
I'm alone,lonely,dying of the emotional pain and anguish
But it's better if I let people be and not get them involved in my sorrow..
Til the day I die,I'm gonna just walk this road
I'm gonna die with pain and accepted into heaven with huggings from God..it's worth it..hopefully not fall into purgatory after I do and I get to heaven directly..

After I die*

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Terrible day, Day 4 of withdrawal ("discontinuation syndrome") from Pristiq. I've never come so close to vomiting without actually getting there. It feels like I have the flu.

-intense body pain
- sweating/feeling hot
- dizziness. Nausea
- headache/jaw ache
- fatigue - had to spend the day in bed. Could not stay awake or concentrate
- slightly elevated temperature
- lack of hunger. Forced myself to have a homemade strawberry/yogurt smoothie and a bowl of cereal (not at same time). Also a piece of dry toast when I was really nauseated.
- runny nose (no sore throat or I would think I have a virus).

Good things: my sleep wasn't riddled with nightmares today.

No other med was this difficult to withdraw from - I'm really glad I at least took a few Prozac capsules to lessen the effect.

One thing I haven't had is "brain zaps" - hopefully won't get them.

 

[HappyKitty]

Its a good pmdd relief with NSAIDs and benzo. 😺 Feels great.