How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

I'm told it's not true, but feeling like I am a burden and alienated to everyone.

Sounds like you are loved. I do hope you feel better though.

 

[Lane]

Rubbish really, can't believe the difference between yesterday and today. Yesterday I was upbeat, productive, cheerful and positive. I woke up like that today but soon deteriorated into irritability, low mood, pessimism, low motivation and generally just feeling like non-existence would be preferable. This was despite sleeping through, I must have just got out of bed on the wrong side. Think I'll go to bed, maybe I'll get out on the good side of the bed again tomorrow and have a better day, though I have to go into the office so that always presents risks to my wellbeing! I wish I knew the trigger for such wild mood swings! Goodnight and love to everyone.

You put into words how I feel some days about feeling upbeat one day then devastated the next. I hope you have a better day tomorrow @AvidFan.

 

[AvidFan]

You put into words how I feel some days about feeling upbeat one day then devastated the next. I hope you have a better day tomorrow @AvidFan.

Thank you! I'm listening to my body and taking a few days off. I think the weekend did me a lot of good but even though I only worked about 6 hours in total on Monday it exhausted me again, so I figure I need to recharge more. I have a gig on tomorrow night and was worrying about feeling too tired to go if I worked all day. Simple solution - take the day off! I've looked at the cash situation and I am good until January, as long as I do some work here and there. Next tax bill is still 2 months away so I have time to get into a good position and also have 2 weeks off at Christmas. So I have prescribed a bit of early R&R for myself. Feel better already, my remote job requires intense concentration that takes its toll, I'm better off taking a break than putting in rubbish work and getting fired!

 

[Windhover]

I wish I knew the trigger for such wild mood swings!

Exactly. I have often wished that too, and that I had the power to kick it out of mind before triggering the mood swing. My therapist tells me we store trauma in our bodies, thus our minds cannot be the sole source of healing. This is all so convoluted.
Hope you're feeling better today.

 

[Bergerac]

Exactly. I have often wished that too, and that I had the power to kick it out of mind before triggering the mood swing. My therapist tells me we store trauma in our bodies, thus our minds cannot be the sole source of healing. This is all so convoluted.
Hope you're feeling better today.

That's an interesting theory. How did your therapist say it worked?

 

[Windhover]

Lost respect for someone that showed their true colors. Humanity sucks ass, who tf chooses toxicity over kindness?

I've been wondering this for a few years, due to a personal connection. I felt I had to be true to my self, and I tried kindness toward this someone's toxicity and it did not help, just gave them more power.

 

[Bergerac]

I've been wondering this for a few years, due to a personal connection. I felt I had to be true to my self, and I tried kindness toward this someone's toxicity and it did not help, just gave them more power.

I think it depends entirely upon who you're dealing with and from a religious perspective, how evil they are/how taken over they are. Kindness could indeed work if it was someone suffering from trauma or a mental state, or partially taken over. Someone completely evil, then you're met with the kind of thing you describe latterly. Either that, or they are still putting up barriers and not ready to absorb help and or reform.

 

[Windhover]

That's an interesting theory. How did your therapist say it worked?

hi Bergerac
I will find out more today. It is touched on in the book, The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk. But my therapist is guiding me through somatic exercises. Here is a quote, not very complete but gives a general idea:
"One of the main goals of somatic experiencing is to develop a body/mind connection and increase your ability to regulate your emotions. This can help you manage some of your most distressing symptoms."

 

[Bergerac]

hi Bergerac
I will find out more today. It is touched on in the book, The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk. But my therapist is guiding me through somatic exercises. Here is a quote, not very complete but gives a general idea:
"One of the main goals of somatic experiencing is to develop a body/mind connection and increase your ability to regulate your emotions. This can help you manage some of your most distressing symptoms."

That's very interesting, as an introduction. Thank you. I will look into that further, when I get the chance.

 

[Windhover]

That's very interesting, as an introduction. Thank you. I will look into that further, when I get the chance.

Reading the book I mentioned has helped me to admit to myself I need help as well as point me in the right direction. I wish I could erase trauma but have to either work to live with my experiences or ctb.

 

[Bergerac]

Reading the book I mentioned has helped me to admit to myself I need help as well as point me in the right direction. I wish I could erase trauma but have to either work to live with my experiences or ctb.

I can most certainly relate to that. Good luck on your continued journey.

 

[Astrid78]

I've been wondering this for a few years, due to a personal connection. I felt I had to be true to my self, and I tried kindness toward this someone's toxicity and it did not help, just gave them more power.

I agree in kindness giving more power. Imo it shows them they aren't doing anything wrong, that it's OK to be nasty. I'm sorry you've had to deal with these types as well.
Hugs @seabird

 

[Astrid78]

Irritated, frustrated and anxious. I have to get tires for my car and despise going to the mechanics because how they treat women. God I hate those snarky, patronizing comments.

So this went better than I thought it would. It's a tire place only, which explains why they are so damn nice. Lol

 

[Lane]

I've been continuing to do deep breathing at work as the job changes in intensity. I think I need to compartmentalize better and use my positive thinking, so I don't cry, umm, I won't at work and rarely do unless it's about something serious, in my personal life. Lately I feel like I'm questioning myself and my place in this Earth. I see others so carefree and wish it was me.

 

[Lane]

So this went better than I thought it would. It's a tire place only, which explains why they are so damn nice. Lol

 

[Widowedvegan]

I've been continuing to do deep breathing at work as the job changes in intensity. I think I need to compartmentalize better and use my positive thinking, so I don't cry, umm, I won't at work and rarely do unless it's about something serious, in my personal life. Lately I feel like I'm questioning myself and my place in this Earth. I see others so carefree and wish it was me.

I do understand not wanting to cry at work, there is a chance that it could make you seem vulnerable…
However, in personal situations and on one’s own I feel that crying often offers a good relief…
You have Your place on this Earth!
Also many of those “carefree” people you are seeing may be just putting on a show…

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I've been continuing to do deep breathing at work as the job changes in intensity. I think I need to compartmentalize better and use my positive thinking, so I don't cry, umm, I won't at work and rarely do unless it's about something serious, in my personal life. Lately I feel like I'm questioning myself and my place in this Earth. I see others so carefree and wish it was me.

I found that medication made it difficult for me to cry. Not always a good thing because crying can be cathartic. I've read that scientific studies have identified toxins in tears of sadness, so that crying may rid your body of some toxins. Luckily the same toxins are also found in sweat from exercise. Interestingly the toxins are not found in tears of physical pain, or in sweat from heat. So it would seem that crying from sadness or sweating from exercise may be beneficial.

 

[Lane]

I found that medication made it difficult for me to cry. Not always a good thing because crying can be cathartic. I've read that scientific studies have identified toxins in tears of sadness, so that crying may rid your body of some toxins. Luckily the same toxins are also found in sweat from exercise. Interestingly the toxins are not found in tears of physical pain, or in sweat from heat. So it would seem that crying from sadness or sweating from exercise may be beneficial.

I think the medicine numbs some of my emotions and even reactions. Those are interesting facts @Lady Wolfshead. I hope you're doing well.

 

[Lane]

I do understand not wanting to cry at work, there is a chance that it could make you seem vulnerable…
However, in personal situations and on one’s own I feel that crying often offers a good relief…
You have Your place on this Earth!
Also many of those “carefree” people you are seeing may be just putting on a show…

Youre right @Widowedvegan. I've done my fair share of crying over my choices and my children thanks for your kind comments too

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I think the medicine numbs some of my emotions and even reactions. Those are interesting facts @Lady Wolfshead. I hope you're doing well.

Thanks - I'm okay. Had a really good conversation with a friend today.