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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Awful but OK. Am really feeling the burnout as the holidays approach, just trying to keep my focus and get through. A pile of work came up last minute so I was supposed to have a very light day tomorrow, but now it's full again so I don't finish until late. Am going to bed early as feeling exhausted but the insomnia is kicking in. Last night was awful, went to bed early as I was shattered, had a brief bit of REM/dream sleep and then was wide awake at 4am. I really had to fight myself not to get up as I am working late today and getting up at 4am would have been disastrous but lying there was making me want to scream. The last time I checked the clock it was getting towards 7am before I finally somehow went off again, leaving 3 hours of staring through the ceiling while my body and mind sabotaged themselves out of my control. Insomnia is so counterintuitive and pointless, it serves no useful purpose! At least I did get back off again, though I'm not sure I've had much deep sleep lately (even my 12 hour stint in bed the other day only yielded some 45 apparent minutes of this most precious of all sleep cycles!). Then again my watch claims I only spent 8 minutes awake in bed so am not sure these sleep monitoring claims are accurate. Sure, I didn't move much for 3 hours but I was awake a lot longer than 8 minutes. I'd say 8 hours in bed, awake for 4 of them.
Most kind of you. Thanks. 
I find myself jealous of how I see people forming relationships with one another on TV and movies. Everyone always has friends to talk to, family. But the problem is, when they show the ways that these people met one another, it's usually something unrealistic. No one talks to random people sitting by themselves at bars most of the time. They're typically sitting at the bar with friends they already have. No one meets their best friend by coming just in the nick of time to save their life most of the time either. The best ways to meet people are school and work, realistically speaking. Still, I wasn't lucky enough to have done so even then.
