How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

Still feeling tired from doing some sort of general cleaning earlier. My legs have probably stretched a bit from trying to reach almost unreachable places, removing, and putting my things back. It was all worth it though.

 

[1964dodge]

I have felt less alone since I accepted Christ. Doesn't mean I don't get lonely at times or that I don't want someone special in my life. My friend likes to mock people who believe in God and I finally told her to knock it off. (last night). I have felt more confident and a sense of being loved since I re-decided to follow a Christian lifestyle. It works for me.

good for you. i honestly believe people should respect other peoples beliefs. i am a christian as well, i don't believe in religion for many reasons but my wife and i pray to god and christ at least once a day. i don't understand some religions or agree with atheism but i respect all because even though i believe in god i could be wrong and we don't find out for sure until we pass on.

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

just want to listen to post slow core and feel sad to just FEEL

i hope you can feel at least a little joy soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Comfortable

 

[1964dodge]

I absolutely refuse to allow people to mould me in to how they want me to act and be, I also refuse to let anyone’s opinion of me bother me whether it’s negative because of how there perception of me to them alone is there own thoughts from there own mind that is there’s alone there thoughts alone and that does not mean it’s the truth cus they say so and I will not let it effect me. I refuse to be a selfish person or negative doesn’t mean I do have to follow there destructive path and mindset and be like them and do the wrong thing just because someone else does something doesn’t mean you should be a blind sheep and be like them or let there thoughts effect you I do not have to explain myself to anybody it just doesn’t matter to me and it holds no weight at all with me whether I choose to vent here my thoughts it is my choice and I’m not doing it to prove to anybody whether people choose to say or vent or write down there thoughts or how they feel is nobodies business I will not be bullied by people in real life by simply posting my thoughts or posting how I feel as human I don’t write anything but how I feel and follow good choices in life whether somebody chooses not to try to change for better is completely up to them I have no time for it. I have feelings and find it sometimes beneficial to post my thoughts here just like anybody else here and whether if anybody else does it is up to them and to me if I do so. I’m not being bullied by people

you should always try to be true to yourself. listen to what people say and listen to any advice, but weigh in on what people say and do what you feel is best for you and dismiss the rest. you are a good person just as you are

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

was feeling better but somehow managed to ruin my day and change today to be kinda of ok to worst

 

[1964dodge]

Sorry to others posts I’ve not read not been here recently until I posted not that long ago I hope everyone’s well as can be

thank you @TreeShade17 i am well

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Awful but OK. Am really feeling the burnout as the holidays approach, just trying to keep my focus and get through. A pile of work came up last minute so I was supposed to have a very light day tomorrow, but now it's full again so I don't finish until late. Am going to bed early as feeling exhausted but the insomnia is kicking in. Last night was awful, went to bed early as I was shattered, had a brief bit of REM/dream sleep and then was wide awake at 4am. I really had to fight myself not to get up as I am working late today and getting up at 4am would have been disastrous but lying there was making me want to scream. The last time I checked the clock it was getting towards 7am before I finally somehow went off again, leaving 3 hours of staring through the ceiling while my body and mind sabotaged themselves out of my control. Insomnia is so counterintuitive and pointless, it serves no useful purpose! At least I did get back off again, though I'm not sure I've had much deep sleep lately (even my 12 hour stint in bed the other day only yielded some 45 apparent minutes of this most precious of all sleep cycles!). Then again my watch claims I only spent 8 minutes awake in bed so am not sure these sleep monitoring claims are accurate. Sure, I didn't move much for 3 hours but I was awake a lot longer than 8 minutes. I'd say 8 hours in bed, awake for 4 of them.

 

[1964dodge]

Still here in life opinion generally invalid in life bar few good people in my life feel like a walk in Matt a ghost everyone’s got an excuse but don’t care anymore won’t let it drag me down I don’t mean people here I mean In life generally I just give up trying

please don't give up. life can suck but a few precious moments can make a difference

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Relations of mine. They are very unpleasant, to say the least. I won't go into it more, as it's not the place.

 

[Bergerac]

Thank you, Mike. I like the middle one of those, where the mouth just suddenly droops in sadness, lol.
Hope you're alright

 

[1964dodge]

I find myself jealous of how I see people forming relationships with one another on TV and movies. Everyone always has friends to talk to, family. But the problem is, when they show the ways that these people met one another, it's usually something unrealistic. No one talks to random people sitting by themselves at bars most of the time. They're typically sitting at the bar with friends they already have. No one meets their best friend by coming just in the nick of time to save their life most of the time either. The best ways to meet people are school and work, realistically speaking. Still, I wasn't lucky enough to have done so even then.

you never know when you will meet that someone special. i used to talk with random women especially in bars and always had someone at home but none were meaningful. my wife and i met in a very strange way, we were both volunteering at a home for developmentally disabled people.

mike......

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you, Mike. I like the middle one of those, where the mouth just suddenly droops in sadness, lol.
Hope you're alright

i'm doing great thank you. as always you are more than welcome to use my inbox to talk or vent.

mike....

 

[Bergerac]

i'm doing great thank you. as always you are more than welcome to use my inbox to talk or vent.

mike....

Thank you. I think it's coming to the point where I will need to, given I'm really struggling and stuck in it. I'm really grateful.

It's lovely to hear you're doing so well.

 

[1964dodge]

i'm actually doing great right now.

mike

 

[AvidFan]

i'm actually doing great right now.

mike

Great!

 

[1964dodge]

Great!

thank you

mike...

 

[AvidFan]

Just a flyby post, I now have to handle a bunch of calls until 20.15 then I'm done for the day and then only 4.5 hours of the things tomorrow... The countdown has begun but It's a slog, even with the end in sight! Not even thinking of what I need to do for the remote job by weekend!

 

[1Lefty]

Relieved

The appointments with my therapist and psych doc went ok
The doc and I came to an agreement of how to proceed with my meds

peace

 

[Windhover]

Better than the last few weeks.

I've pushed some of the worst thoughts away. The ptsd shows up when I'm asleep even on the days when I thought I was better. Either nightmares, or I wake up after having bitten a hole in my tongue and it's bleeding. The Dr said that's extreme anxiety and I need meds, but I can't handle the side affects.