How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

I have faith today that God will heal me in time if I stay patient. He will help me cope with my sorrows and obstacles in the meantime and help life feel more enjoyable. I talked to Him and He gave me a message that He will heal me in time. I have to remember that the suffering I am going through right now is temporary and I have to get through it to get to the other side and feel His light shine upon me. Every time I find myself crying and praying, He sends me a similar message. He gives me hope. Everything is okay today.

 

[1964dodge]

When you want to talk, and people can only say basic statements. Put your back in.

if you ever want to talk feel free to use my inbox to talk or vent about anything

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

i'm having a great day. of course a little stressed for christmas, which is normal. but my mood is great and depression so light i can't find it, and i don't want to find it lol

mike

 

[Bergerac]

i know that feeling i can relate, i have been there many times. sometimes it seems like there is no chance to get better so why try. i will tell you from experience it is worth trying. as you fight hopefully you can find ways to feel better. in my opinion you are doing a good job fighting so far

mike....

Thanks, Mike. Since writing that, I am making a renewed effort. So, I will see.
How are you

 

[luminance]

nostalgic songs can bring on all kinds of emotions good and bad. i have one song i listen to when i'm very depressed and it makes things worse, my wife worries if i play it more than once, for me it's 50s, 60s, and 70s.
try listening to nostalgic music that makes you happy within your year range, sometimes we can look back to better times when listening to music from our past

mike.....

To be honest, those songs that used to make me happy when I was younger, makes me feel sad and happy now at the same time. My long-time partner loves to sing. We were both almost the same age, so we grew up liking the same music. Then I got my daughter to like those 70s to 90s songs that we love. So like everything reminds me of them.. except maybe those songs that my dad watches on YT lol.

Mike, you should listen to happier songs when you feel depressed. Don't make your wife worry. Maybe listen to her favorite songs. :P

 

[1964dodge]

Thanks, Mike. Since writing that, I am making a renewed effort. So, I will see.
How are you

you're welcome and thank you for asking. i'm glad that you are making an effort. i am doing very good right now. of course always stress for christmas but a good stress if you know what i mean.

mike....

 

[Bergerac]

you're welcome and thank you for asking. i'm glad that you are making an effort. i am doing very good right now. of course always stress for christmas but a good stress if you know what i mean.

mike....

Yes, I do know what you mean. I hope you all have the best Christmas you can have. I wish you a peaceful and happy new year.

 

[1964dodge]

Yes, I do know what you mean. I hope you all have the best Christmas you can have. I wish you a peaceful and happy new year.

thank you. i hope christmas and new years is good for you as well.

mike....

 

[Bergerac]

thank you. i hope christmas and new years is good for you as well.

mike....

Thank you.

 

[PrincessPure]

I feel so blue.
The university cafeteria and library will be closed and my roomies went either traveling or back home. Everything is closed and everyone is spending time with their families yet I got no one and nothing to do here.

 

[PrincessPure]

On the bright side I got tickets for Milan but only in March. Duh.

 

[Searchingforhope]

Feeling absolutely dreadful right now. Completely over it all. I’ll keep fighting because I have to, but today I wish I didn’t have to.

And why is it that even though 90% of the day is good, it’s the 10% I will fixate on, that makes me want to sh. That drives to desire to escape?!

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you.

you're welcome

mike...

 

[cymbele]

Feeling absolutely dreadful right now. Completely over it all. I’ll keep fighting because I have to, but today I wish I didn’t have to.

And why is it that even though 90% of the day is good, it’s the 10% I will fixate on, that makes me want to sh. That drives to desire to escape?!

For a while I thought that my ideation was merely an attempt to control a situation that I had no control over. Don’t harm yourself. It’s one of those things that is deceptive. Try to keep in the present moment and let a lot go. Easier to say than do.

 

[UrbanRose]

Thanks for the posts above. I wish I could believe that I can get back to feeling okay again. I guess the trick is to act as though you believe things will get better, even when you don't believe it.

 

[luminance]

5 more days and it'd be exactly 2 years. It still feels like it just happened yesterday. Can't believe this'd be my second Christmas and New Year without them. It would have been a lot easier if we just broken up and that she's just busy living her own life. Sometimes, I like to think of it that way. LIke she's just away and does not want to talk to me. It would've probably been easier if we didn't have a child. If she wasn't with me almost half of my life, (like maybe just 1, 2, 3 years) it would be a lot easier. I've dealt with lots of heartbreak and emotional pain since I was a teenager, they all seemed nothing compared to this.

 

[1964dodge]

5 more days and it'd be exactly 2 years. It still feels like it just happened yesterday. Can't believe this'd be my second Christmas and New Year without them. It would have been a lot easier if we just broken up and that she's just busy living her own life. Sometimes, I like to think of it that way. LIke she's just away and does not want to talk to me. It would've probably been easier if we didn't have a child. If she wasn't with me almost half of my life, (like maybe just 1, 2, 3 years) it would be a lot easier. I've dealt with lots of heartbreak and emotional pain since I was a teenager, they all seemed nothing compared to this.

 

[Windhover]

@luminance
We're here for you. Sorry that the emotions are spiking at this time. hug

It's certainly understandable. Is there something you do to acknowledge the anniversary? I find doing some little special thing, a private recognition of his passing, to help with my grief for my brother. It doesn't go away, but shifts and changes over time.

 

[luminance]

@luminance
We're here for you. Sorry that the emotions are spiking at this time. hug

It's certainly understandable. Is there something you do to acknowledge the anniversary? I find doing some little special thing, a private recognition of his passing, to help with my grief for my brother. It doesn't go away, but shifts and changes over time.

Thank you. Hugs back

Your brother is lucky to have you, and I'm sure he's smiling wherever he is now seeing how you remember and do special things to commemorate him. I can relate to that part when you said "it doesn't go away, but shifts and changes over time". I don't think about these things as much as I did last year.

And if I'm being honest, I don't acknowledge or do something special for her during bdays or special occasions because I'm still having mixed, confusing emotions, like I miss her sometimes and I recognize that she was the only person who truly loved and cared about me, unconditonally. But she was also the reason why my daughter isn't here with me. I really don't know what is true or not, and probably would never know. I miss and think about her sometimes, but that's just it, I guess.

 

[1964dodge]

Thank you. Hugs back

Your brother is lucky to have you, and I'm sure he's smiling wherever he is now seeing how you remember and do special things to commemorate him. I can relate to that part when you said "it doesn't go away, but shifts and changes over time". I don't think about these things as much as I did last year.

And if I'm being honest, I don't acknowledge or do something special for her during bdays or special occasions because I'm still having mixed, confusing emotions, like I miss her sometimes and I recognize that she was the only person who truly loved and cared about me, unconditonally. But she was also the reason why my daughter isn't here with me. I really don't know what is true or not, and probably would never know. I miss and think about her sometimes, but that's just it, I guess.