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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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hi @zuzu
It sounds to me that you are so lonely you need help. My suggestion can only be to go in patient in hospital. Sure hospitals can suck in Canada but it's a roof, meals, and the help you need to see a psychiatrist to deal with your pain, your feelings etc. We cant encourage suicide here. We are a pro life forum. I know what it's like to not have someone romantic in my life for that long, like not even a kiss. It is hard in those times to see couples, and think ''well they look happy, i wish i had that''..... but looks can be decieving. THey may be arguing at home, or putting on a mask like a lot of people do before they go out the door in the morning. We only see the best of people (my thinking... idk) when they go out amongst others.
If you need to talk, we are all here to listen. I'm sorry you're feeling this much pain. I don't know what else to say. I hope you have a roof and food, if not please go inpatient. If you cant do that, there are shelters. Please realize I don't know anything about you or your situation, just trying my best. I really think everyone deserves good health care, and someone who 'gets' them. A lot of us here are in pain, emotional and physical too. hugs
It sounds to me that you are so lonely you need help. My suggestion can only be to go in patient in hospital. Sure hospitals can suck in Canada but it's a roof, meals, and the help you need to see a psychiatrist to deal with your pain, your feelings etc. We cant encourage suicide here. We are a pro life forum. I know what it's like to not have someone romantic in my life for that long, like not even a kiss. It is hard in those times to see couples, and think ''well they look happy, i wish i had that''..... but looks can be decieving. THey may be arguing at home, or putting on a mask like a lot of people do before they go out the door in the morning. We only see the best of people (my thinking... idk) when they go out amongst others.
If you need to talk, we are all here to listen. I'm sorry you're feeling this much pain. I don't know what else to say. I hope you have a roof and food, if not please go inpatient. If you cant do that, there are shelters. Please realize I don't know anything about you or your situation, just trying my best. I really think everyone deserves good health care, and someone who 'gets' them. A lot of us here are in pain, emotional and physical too. hugs
I can try to understand. I'll let you in on a secret, I catch myself talking out loud, because of loneliness or just not realizing I can think inside my head. I'll say I'm praying if someone comes in while I do this. I do think it's praying. Sometimes I'll get in the car that I thankfully can still drive, blast the radio or go out into country and scream and cry and let it all out. I'm here if you ever want to message me. 
Not well. My husband trashed my car and bought himself a new one. I filed for divorce because my son said I could use his car for work etc as long as I put gas in it. I'm fine with that. Now however he throws a fucking tantrum when I ask to borrow his car for work and to run errands. We'll I don't want to be spoken to like that so now am s.o.l I did have public transport set up but canceled because my son said he would help. It's too late to set up another bus. I lost my chance and that's just how things work here. So now I have to quit my job I guess, have no idea how I'm going to even get to court, much less get my babysitter to my house. (She can't drive for a specific reason) or how I'll get to the grocery store. Nothing will get better. It's always going to come down to me not having one person in this world I can actually trust. Much less depend on. Everyone turns, it must be how terrible I am as a person. All those years I wasted putting everyone's needs ahead of mine. I give up. I'm worthless. Nothing. I wish it wasn't so damn hard to leave
@Astrid78 - Let me know if there's anything I can do. :^) I'm sorry all of these bad things are happening to you! You definitely deserve a break in life. On the Son. At that age, things can . . . I don't know? I lost my thought~ but basically, it could have absolutely nothing to do with you (even though it doesn't feel like it). He may be, or seem, all grown-up. But there are still times when he may not always act it. And there could have been some other reason why he'd needed it. And he didn't feel like disclosing it to you. Who knows? I'm sure there's a good reason. And that reason may just boil down to him (still) being a young man. I know, or I can remember, and only imagine, what it must have been like, for my Mother & others, when at that age & what-with the myriad of moods I'd gone through sometimes in a single 24-hr. window. And if you hung around me often; or long enough, chances r~*//> U were going to "Experience," All-of-them! Ha Ha Ha ... we can look back at it & laugh now: because--we're all still alive-somehow, don't ask me how? But there you go & now you know. 'The more you know!' ;^)
thanks. i sent another message saying i was his brother and not a scam and if he didn't reply i would never bother him again. we have had a lot of bad issues in the past. he did reply and we caught up a lttle. it was SF that made me break the silence. when others have brothers and sisters and my only sibling not talking to. i will be cautious but we are going to meet in person
mike.....
mike.....
Thanks for getting back to me. I cannot go to the hospital as I will be abused and give me lot of medication which will not help, I only need love and support, I need to go back to work this will help as I will feel productive I do not need the charity of the government. If I do not have money for food I do not eat, I do not go to food banks it is disgraceful that a G7 country has food banks and they promote it. Giving people things for free they get used too and they think that they deserve. I am extremely pregidist with whom I associate with. I am an educated person not only for post secondary education, mainly because I have manners I treat people with respect. which I am not, everything they ask me where is your accent where are you from now I refuse to answer that instead I tell them I have been living in Canada for over 30 years and I am a fan of ice hockey and I love the snow. By doing what I do I can demonstrate society and the system that I do not need their charity , I can still work age is a number I can work until I reach 90 if I am giving a chance, I know I am writing a lot . Later I will share the good in me . Thanks for your reply.
thanks. i sent another message saying i was his brother and not a scam and if he didn't reply i would never bother him again. we have had a lot of bad issues in the past. he did reply and we caught up a lttle. it was SF that made me break the silence. when others have brothers and sisters and my only sibling not talking to. i will be cautious but we are going to meet in person
mike.....
mike.....
Not well. My husband trashed my car and bought himself a new one. I filed for divorce because my son said I could use his car for work etc as long as I put gas in it. I'm fine with that. Now however he throws a fucking tantrum when I ask to borrow his car for work and to run errands. We'll I don't want to be spoken to like that so now am s.o.l I did have public transport set up but canceled because my son said he would help. It's too late to set up another bus. I lost my chance and that's just how things work here. So now I have to quit my job I guess, have no idea how I'm going to even get to court, much less get my babysitter to my house. (She can't drive for a specific reason) or how I'll get to the grocery store. Nothing will get better. It's always going to come down to me not having one person in this world I can actually trust. Much less depend on. Everyone turns, it must be how terrible I am as a person. All those years I wasted putting everyone's needs ahead of mine. I give up. I'm worthless. Nothing. I wish it wasn't so damn hard to leave
rk and to run errands. We'll I don't want to be spoken to like that so now am s.o.l I did have public transport set up but canceled because my son said he would help. It's too late to set up another bus. I lost my chance and that's just how things work here. So now I have to quit my job I guess, have no idea how I'm going to even get to court, much less get my babysitter to my house. (She can't drive for a specific reason) or how I'll get to the grocery store. Nothing will get better. It's always going to come down to me not having one person in this world I can actually trust. Much less depend on. Everyone turns, it must be how terrible I am as a person. All those years I wasted putting everyone's needs ahead of mine. I give up. I'm worthless. Nothing. I wish it wasn't so damn hard to leave
