How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[HappyKitty]

Happy and safe travels HappyKitty. It's great to hear you've got the bright side. I'm sorry for you dealing with health problems and struggling with the grief. Are you going to watch the Olympics, if it's okay to ask?

hug

you can ask me anything😸
Oh not Olympics but going for my brother graduation for 5 days in London/ Exeter then celebrating it to go holiday in Turkey for 8 days then go back Asia in Indonesia to rest for jetlag before returning back to Singapore.

Also I'm happy Klonopin works better than Xanax when dealing with stress / sleep disturbances. Like half 0.5 of Klonopin if encounter those day time mix with Caffox with hydrocort is yea I got my life back.🤣

Cus I know SSRI takes time and my psych told me to mix witth Benzo 3x / a week.

 

[Lane]

not great. lost 1 dog pass around 6 weeks another last week. now we were told to vacate our property by end of september and a few other things. we started the year great it was definately a peak now in the valley, we will peak again

mike

You got this Mike.

 

[Lane]

Like a failure because I chose to shoot dope for 11 years instead of establishing a good career and learning to drive. Now I have to start all over and get my life together as if I were only 18 years old again. I'm behind in life.

You're still young Aurelia and definitely not a failure. I feel like you do, dancing for a living all those years when I could have applied for a better job with the state or something. Plus, I suspect that's the reason my daughter doesn't talk to me. Sorry, I know this isn't about me, but I do understand regret.

 

[TragicReality]

not great. lost 1 dog pass around 6 weeks another last week. now we were told to vacate our property by end of september and a few other things. we started the year great it was definately a peak now in the valley, we will peak again

mike

I'm really sorry to hear this. Sorry about your dogs. Housing has become almost impossible, here in Canada too... so unfair to have to leave where you live, when it was already upped in price. I really hope you find something affordable. Hugs

 

[TragicReality]

I woke up way too early. I'm having more pain now. I have been told my doctor will never up my opiod. Seems unfair. I wish he could have my body for a while, I bet he'd understand and would like to be able to sleep without pain waking him up too.

 

[Aurelia]

To my therapist:

If I'm telling you I'm trying to get off the Klonopin, telling me to take more doesn't help matters. If I wasn't as determined as I am to get off, I just might have said to myself, "Oh well, she told me to take it, so I'll just take more." Be careful what you say to your clients.

 

[puffymilk]

Just a bit sad

 

[Windhover]

Anxiety has crept up along with depr

you can ask me anything😸
Oh not Olympics but going for my brother graduation for 5 days in London/ Exeter then celebrating it to go holiday in Turkey for 8 days then go back Asia in Indonesia to rest for jetlag before returning back to Singapore.

Also I'm happy Klonopin works better than Xanax when dealing with stress / sleep disturbances. Like half 0.5 of Klonopin if encounter those day time mix with Caffox with hydrocort is yea I got my life back.🤣

Cus I know SSRI takes time and my psych told me to mix witth Benzo 3x / a week.

Congratulations to your brother, I hope you are able to enjoy London and relaxation in Turkey. And, I very much hope you aren't caught up in the IT mess of outage at the airports, etc.

best to you @HappyKitty

 

[AvidFan]

Feeling quite flat. Flat is good, compared to anxiety wave I had earlier. Blood pressure spiked but got it down with calm breathing. Lately I'm feeling anxious before doing any work and exhausted after. I can't afford a full holiday but am going to try to take it easy until September to get well and then hit the accelerator if I'm up to it. At least that's my thinking now. I hope I do get better. Goodnight and love to all on SF ❤️❤️❤️

 

[SillyOldBear]

Anxiety has crept up along with depr

Hope they both run away in a flash.

 

[HappyKitty]

Anxiety has crept up along with depr

Congratulations to your brother, I hope you are able to enjoy London and relaxation in Turkey. And, I very much hope you aren't caught up in the IT mess of outage at the airports, etc.

best to you @HappyKitty

Thanks. 😻 Oh ya the IT outage, my mum was concerned abt that but I had no clue what it means. The news bores me, lol maybe ltr cus I have been downloading netflix hahahaa

 

[1964dodge]

You got this Mike.

thank you

mike....

I'm really sorry to hear this. Sorry about your dogs. Housing has become almost impossible, here in Canada too... so unfair to have to leave where you live, when it was already upped in price. I really hope you find something affordable. Hugs

thank you, we are working on it

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

Just a bit sad

 

[snails]

Vulnerable

 

[1964dodge]

I woke up way too early. I'm having more pain now. I have been told my doctor will never up my opiod. Seems unfair. I wish he could have my body for a while, I bet he'd understand and would like to be able to sleep without pain waking him up too.

i'm sorry that you have to go through this. they won't raise my opioid meds anytime in the near future either and i have a good doctor. i had to try a bunch of other stuff to make up the difference. if interested in talking pain mamagement feel free to use my inbox

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

Vulnerable

 

[puffymilk]

I'm quiet alright I think

 

[Windhover]

Hope they both run away in a flash.

Thank you @SillyOldBear. I am better now, managed to calm down and allow it all to go on its way.

hugs

 

[Neko~boy]

Feeling calm but in a lot of pain.

 

[AvidFan]

Awake. Saturday. 6am. Nothing new there. At least I got 5-6 hours of sleep.

I wake up and feel OK. Then within 30 seconds my mind recalls my situation and I slump in despair. The dream wasn't real. I didn't get up at my parents' house and go to the fridge for a snack, with them telling me I'd be OK. I am not 30. It was just a dream of a different when. Then I regroup and get up, I feel generally positive, there's a bit of optimism, but the weights attached to my mind start trying to pull me down.

How bad will the anxiety get today? Is it inevitable or am I feeding it with a lax mental attitude? Will I recover from this awful fatigue? If I had my energy, I'd likely be OK, I could plough through somehow. If I could have faith in my energy, in my ability to work, even if I have to do more work for less money. My brain is still a bit burnt out, whether from genuine exhaustion or self-inflicted chemical damage I just don't know. I swing from energised to exhausted in the space of minutes, can't rely on how I feel for any length of time as it could swing again.

One thing at a time. Recall all the spiritual traditions, the meditation I practice I have done. Where did all that go? There is a clear mental state there, if only I could remain there and cultivate it, instead of thrashing around in the waters and muddying the whole picture. I have the weekend, nothing is going to get done or change for 2 days, likely. I must rest and recover for the path ahead, whatever it may bring.

It's warm. Feels warm anyway, or is it my busted internal thermostat? Time for more coffee.