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AvidFan

AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
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#108,184
#108,184
LumberJack said:
A good night’s sleep can do wonders for your outlook. I used to have my method in a little box that I hid from everyone else. Eventually my therapist persuaded me to give it to a friend for safekeeping. He really wanted me to throw it away, but I wasn’t ready. Fast forward a year and I have lost touch with said friend and I don’t know if she still has it. So I might have well just tossed it, but giving it to a friend was easier.

Which turned out to save my life. I would have used it this year if I still had it, and I am confident it would have succeeded.
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A good night's sleep is something I don't think I'll ever have again. It's 4am, I did drift off for a few hours but when I woke up it was 3.34am. I haven't slept for weeks. Maybe 7 hours out of the last 3 weeks. It's causing me to feel absolute despair. Right now the knowledge my method is there is the only thing to cling to. I will need to use it sooner or later. I am getting old, incompetent, poor, in debt, work is going wrong, house is going wrong. I can't cope with any of it any more. I have nobody except SF to talk to, nobody gives a flying fucking shit about me. Not a flying fucking shit.
 
1964dodge

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#108,191
#108,191
AvidFan said:
Not doing well. I actually got my hands on my method today and started sobbing feeling like I'm not a million miles away from using it. I put it back in the cupboard.

All I can say is I won't do it today. I'll go to bed and pray I sleep and pray I wake up feeling a bit more able to cope tomorrow.
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is it possible to give the method to a friend for safe keeping. i'm not saying to get rid of it but get it out of the house so you don't use it on impulse

mike....*hug*shake
 
1964dodge

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#108,192
#108,192
AvidFan said:
A good night's sleep is something I don't think I'll ever have again. It's 4am, I did drift off for a few hours but when I woke up it was 3.34am. I haven't slept for weeks. Maybe 7 hours out of the last 3 weeks. It's causing me to feel absolute despair. Right now the knowledge my method is there is the only thing to cling to. I will need to use it sooner or later. I am getting old, incompetent, poor, in debt, work is going wrong, house is going wrong. I can't cope with any of it any more. I have nobody except SF to talk to, nobody gives a flying fucking shit about me. Not a flying fucking shit.
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*hug*console*shake
 
1964dodge

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#108,193
#108,193
i'm still fighting for a place to live. we are more optomistic and my wife and i are working together as a team. my doctor came through and increased my lorazepam from 5 to 30. same stipulaton only when i have to, and next month he will subtract what i have left which is fair. my wife had an emergency visit with her doctor and got an anxiety med. we also have an agreement with both our doctors that it's temporary until we settle into a new home

mike
 
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