How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Ash600]

Anxious. I noticed one of my pupils isn't dilating properly so is always tiny while the other changes. I'm frantically flicking through old pictures to see how recent, but I think it's a change in the last few weeks - combined with chronic migraines and pain around the affected eye.

It's likely fine/something easy to fix according to doctor interwebs but not being able to see someone til the 30th is a bit anxiety inducing (which apparently can be a cause).

I can fully understand how stressful this all can be. You mentioning the chronic migraines does make me wonder whether this is what's causing anisocoria. particularly if it's a cluster headache that's localised behind the affected eye.

As an option while you wait for the 30th to come round, you could perhaps contact Moorfields Direct : 0207 566 2345 . It's staffed by opthalmic nurses who will hopefully be able to provide you with suitable information and support.

I'll drop further info in the following link :
https://www.moorfields.nhs.uk/ae/nurse-led-helpline

All the best B

 

[cymbele]

Oh God, I'm so sorry. I have an 11-year-old Maine Coon Cross kitty named Abby but have lost other kitties in the past. Please take your baby to the vet. If she can't be saved, then she can be put down so that she doesn't suffer. I'm so sorry. I really am. I'm still grieving over the loss of my kitten Bella that I lost 12 years ago because of a vet mistake. Hugs & love coming your way if okay.

Sorry you lost Bella. My cat I guess has a belly of fur and can't eat because she is so full. They got the fur out and she still won't eat. She lost a pound in a month! But the expense! If she doesn't eat, it's an ultrasound. Yikes. What I do for the cat! I can't complain she has been relatively inexpensive over the years but I won't let her suffer either way.
Hugs back.

 

[Livelife]

Anxious. I noticed one of my pupils isn't dilating properly so is always tiny while the other changes. I'm frantically flicking through old pictures to see how recent, but I think it's a change in the last few weeks - combined with chronic migraines and pain around the affected eye.

It's likely fine/something easy to fix according to doctor interwebs but not being able to see someone til the 30th is a bit anxiety inducing (which apparently can be a cause).

How about getting on a wait list if possible with the doc/group in case there's a cancellation......

 

[mosaic hearts]

Sorry you lost Bella. My cat I guess has a belly of fur and can't eat because she is so full. They got the fur out and she still won't eat. She lost a pound in a month! But the expense! If she doesn't eat, it's an ultrasound. Yikes. What I do for the cat! I can't complain she has been relatively inexpensive over the years but I won't let her suffer either way.
Hugs back.

I totally get it. Vet care is expensive! I used to have pet insurance but then the monthly cost went up so high I couldn't afford it. What I do now is put away a little money each month for emergency vet expenses. It helps to have a little safety net. I hope things aren't as serious as they seem for your furbaby. Ultrasounds are expensive. But they'll get to the root of the problem & help figuring out medical next steps. I hope your kitty improves. Please keep us updated? I know very well how stressful it is when our furbabies are sick. Last January my Abby had an accident at home resulting in her loosing her balance & falling over. I almost lost my mind with worry! I cancelled work & immediately took her to see the doctor. Thank God she was fine after recovering. An overnight stay at the veterinary hospital for observation, x-rays, blood & urine work were expensive. But she was fine at the end. Sending healing thoughts & hugs!

 

[mosaic hearts]

How about getting on a wait list if possible with the doc/group in case there's a cancellation......

Agree. Or going to urgent care or a walk-in clinics? Just some thoughts...

 

[JMG]

Stressed, worried, uncertain and…I dunno, uneasy is maybe the closest word I can think of to describe it I guess.

Stress is mostly about savings going down so much in the last year (monthly expenses have gone up a lot though).

Worry is cos of lotsa things (too many to list here, this post would probably go on forever if I were to even try to “list them all” lol).

Uncertain and uneasy are mostly cos of those things and not knowing how/when they’ll get better. Just wish there was a fairly quick/easy/legal and non-shameful way to get $1000, wow would that ever take away a huge amount of the stress and worry at least. As it is, it’ll definitely take me at least the rest of the year (with NO extra stuff which will be very hard) to build my savings back up :/

 

[Aurelia]

I totally get that. I don’t believe in a god that hands down rewards and punishment. This is not a flippant rejection, but rather I have studied theology, ethics and religion so deeply that I can no longer accept the idea of a god that is involved with human affairs.

Which is not to say I disagree with your underlying point about forgiveness and moving on. Trust me, I have been trying. I desperately want to forgive, but it’s been 7 months and I’m still unable to release my resentment. I have similarly put significant effort into moving on. It is not in my nature to be so stuck on events that turned out badly for me, but this individual event keeps coming up for me, and nothing I have done has so much as mitigated my anger.

So I would love to hear any suggestions about what I could physically do to come to forgiveness.

You could try to recognize that all people are flawed and all simply try to do their best. I was able to forgive someone for a sexual assault even before I believed in God by trying to look at it from her point of view. I confronted her and reminded her of what she did to me, hoping for an apology, so I could forgive her. That didn't work because she said she "didn't remember" such a thing. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized it was probably on her conscience. If not at the forefront, then buried deep down. She did remember. I was almost sure of it. And the fact that she said she didn't made me realize she did feel guilty, and ashamed (hence the lie), and regretted it. So even without the apology I hoped for, I was still able to forgive. Most people do feel guilty when they mistreat others one way or another.

Also, when she died, I was there at the hospital with her and my heart no longer held this grudge. And I'm quite sure she knew this. Therefore, it helped us both move on. My forgiveness helped her move on to another life and me to the rest of my life here on earth.

 

[Aurelia]

Left my phone in an Uber today 🤦

But thank God, I got it back. Also, for the first time in a long time, work went well and I made it past the first day without wanting to quit.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. Listening if you want to talk about it. Sitting with you if you don't. 💕

Thank you. It's just one thing after another at a time when my brain is overloaded and giving me a narrative of absolute doom. It feels like it's becoming impossible, I have to stop or something has to stop at some point, I can't go on like this. Last night I really thought I'd turned a corner and today I realise the corner is still a way off, if I can ever reach it. If I could just bloody sleep, for one night, even if it was every other night, but my stupid body and brain will not cooperate, they're running on empty and won't do what they need to get better.

9.25pm and I'm cooking my evening meal. My entire life is organised around an evening schedule because I've always been a night person, now I'm waking up at 8am, spending the day pottering about and then going to work in the afternoon. It's not sustainable. Have my one to one with manager tomorrow, which I am dreading.

Sorry, needed to vent, I was almost in tears on the bus home.

 

[PrincessPure]

Little rant:

Spoiler

So I went to the dermatologist today because I felt the acne medicine which I was taking (accutane) was the reason im not getting my period which used to be always regular. I went in to ask the question and immediately it felt like he was ridiculing me or just not taking what I said seriously "really???because you took accutane for one week you got such huge problem"? I was expecting an explanation, why this has happened? Is it REALLY because of accutane? Could it happen because i took accutane for a week? But instead it just seemed as if he was galighting, just one sentence. "Quit it" And pretty much kicked me out his room.

I was indeed mad when i cameback home and talked to my mom about this. My mom said the last time she went to him, she had complained about there being no air conditioner and way too hot in his office. "I feel a bit miserable" said my mom.
And the doctor dared to say "what made you think you are important?"

Istg I was shocked to my very core to hear that. Who even says that??? Im not sure why doctors have such god complex. Some of them are indeed the most disgusting creatures i have ever seen. And as I have heard from my friends before, medical school really DOES attract worst type of people. (coming from someone in med school). With doctors in Asian countries having such god complexes and feeling like they are above everyone, no wonder almost everyone wants to be a doctor.

 

[MisterBGone]

Little rant:

Spoiler

So I went to the dermatologist today because I felt the acne medicine which I was taking (accutane) was the reason im not getting my period which used to be always regular. I went in to ask the question and immediately it felt like he was ridiculing me or just not taking what I said seriously "really???because you took accutane for one week you got such huge problem"? I was expecting an explanation, why this has happened? Is it REALLY because of accutane? Could it happen because i took accutane for a week? But instead it just seemed as if he was galighting, just one sentence. "Quit it" And pretty much kicked me out his room.

I was indeed mad when i cameback home and talked to my mom about this. My mom said the last time she went to him, she had complained about there being no air conditioner and way too hot in his office. "I feel a bit miserable" said my mom.
And the doctor dared to say "what made you think you are important?"

Istg I was shocked to my very core to hear that. Who even says that??? Im not sure why doctors have such god complex. Some of them are indeed the most disgusting creatures i have ever seen. And as I have heard from my friends before, medical school really DOES attract worst type of people. (coming from someone in med school). With doctors in Asian countries having such god complexes and feeling like they are above everyone, no wonder almost everyone wants to be a doctor.

 

[Lane]

Saw a FB post of my ex-husbands wife of my daughter with her baby, my son's and his wife's grandchildren. I should have perspective on it, but it feels like a punch in the gut.

 

[snails]

Saw a FB post of my ex-husbands wife of my daughter with her baby, my son's and his wife's grandchildren. I should have perspective on it, but it feels like a punch in the gut.

I'm sorry. Take care of yourself @Lane

 

[mosaic hearts]

I don't feel good. I am remembering the bad things that happened to me. It's not just the pictures but feelings & how my body feels. I want to not be real right now. I want to not be real right now. Too much hurt. Too much hurt. When will it stop? I rock back and forth to help me feel better. Crying helps too. I wish I could talk to our new therapist. We have to wait until Thursday.🐻

 

[mosaic hearts]

I don't feel good. I am remembering the bad things that happened to me. It's not just the pictures but feelings & how my body feels. I want to not be real right now. I want to not be real right now. Too much hurt. Too much hurt. When will it stop? I rock back and forth to help me feel better. Crying helps too. I wish I could talk to our new therapist. We have to wait until Thursday.🐻

The flashbacks triggered an asthma attack. Took my rescue inhaler to feel better. Decided to lay down for awhile to rest.

 

[snails]

The flashbacks triggered an asthma attack. Took my rescue inhaler to feel better. Decided to lay down for awhile to rest.

I'm so sorry you're suffering @mosaic hearts

 

[snails]

Very uncertain, panicked, worried. But safe.

 

[MisterBGone]

Saw a FB post of my ex-husbands wife of my daughter with her baby, my son's and his wife's grandchildren. I should have perspective on it, but it feels like a punch in the gut.

I don't think you should have to feel anything other than what you automatically, or normally do - right now @Lane . . . That's human nature, and it's a Mother's instinct. So don't be too hard on yourself, for how you naturally, organically & automatically feel. You have the reaction that you do. And it is a response that is genuine. And not to be judged, or harshly critical over (judging, the judgement, so to speak). I'm sure I'd be in a daze, too if I were you~*/> So, just hang in there, as best you can & try to take care!

 

[TragicReality]

nvm

 

[mosaic hearts]

nvm

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