How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inanimate]

Whether it be tomorrow, a decade from now, or in this moment, I persevere only to discover how much more time on this earth I can take.

 

[mosaic hearts]

No need for sorry.

Your posts are not upsetting, other than folks feeling empathy and wanting to help.

You really aren't alone, there are other members here with DID and C-PTSD. Some with only C-PTSD, some with both. I have both myself.

Let me encourage you that, as you work through the healing process, it WILL get better. At the time of the healing it feels like one will die it hurts so much, but you (and me) are strong and a survivor, and much more than surviving, you will eventually thrive.

Keep posting, you are welcome and cared for here.

@Angie, all I can say is thank you for such a kind & caring post. I'm feeling somewhat better today but still a little shaky, achy, & mildy suicidal. Took extra-strength Tylenol for my bad headaches. My new therapist isn't available to me, so I emailed my retired therapist & asked him if I could talk with him on an emergency basis. The thought behind that is that'll keep me out of an emergency room. He agreed. I talk with him at 5:00 pm over the phone. I really need to talk with someone who knows us very well. So, yah, that's where I'm at right now. Thank God I'm done with work now until after Labour Day. I don't have to worry about responsibilities & I can rest & do other things I need to do for my physical & mental/emotional health.Hugs.Thank you for helping us feel not alown. I share my teddy ber with yu.🐻

 

[Angie]

@Angie, all I can say is thank you for such a kind & caring post. I'm feeling somewhat better today but still a little shaky, achy, & mildy suicidal. Took extra-strength Tylenol for my bad headaches. My new therapist isn't available to me, so I emailed my retired therapist & asked him if I could talk with him on an emergency basis. The thought behind that is that'll keep me out of an emergency room. He agreed. I talk with him at 5:00 pm over the phone. I really need to talk with someone who knows us very well. So, yah, that's where I'm at right now. Thank God I'm done with work now until after Labour Day. I don't have to worry about responsibilities & I can rest & do other things I need to do for my physical & mental/emotional health.Hugs.Thank you for helping us feel not alown. I share my teddy ber with yu.🐻

I'm glad your therapist is available for you.

Thank you for the bear

 

[AvidFan]

Home and hungry. Ordered pizza from the bus. Limiting myself to one takeout per fortnight, but I deserve a treat after the last few weeks. Just waiting for delivery 🍕🍟

 

[AmberMarie]

Home and hungry. Ordered pizza from the bus. Limiting myself to one takeout per fortnight, but I deserve a treat after the last few weeks. Just waiting for delivery 🍕🍟

Is it technically take out when it's delivered?

 

[AvidFan]

Is it technically take out when it's delivered?

😂

 

[mosaic hearts]

Is it technically take out when it's delivered?

Nope. Someone is delivering your take-out so it's not take-out.

 

[mosaic hearts]

Home and hungry. Ordered pizza from the bus. Limiting myself to one takeout per fortnight, but I deserve a treat after the last few weeks. Just waiting for delivery 🍕🍟

That pizza sounds good, @AvidFan. You've inspired me to order a pizza for delivery, too.

 

[AvidFan]

That pizza sounds good, @AvidFan. You've inspired me to order a pizza for delivery, too.

Enjoy! 🍕🍕🍕

 

[AvidFan]

Nope. Someone is delivering your take-out so it's not take-out.

But when my delivery guy arrives, he takes the pizza out of the thermal bag and hands it to me. So in that sense it is takeout 😂

 

[AmberMarie]

But when my delivery guy arrives, he takes the pizza out of the thermal bag and hands it to me. So in that sense it is takeout 😂

However... he took it out... not you. soooooo......

 

[Tor]

hugs back, things sound tough for you too. And I'm sorry my likes do mean i'm listening and care, but right now haven't slept much lately and might forget what I read but i care because other's know the pains of life

I totally understand. No worries I hope you’re feeling better

 

[Tor]

I totally understand. Medical system really sucks. Doctors are cold and impersonal. Its hard to get appointments. Insurance is a major hassle. Sometimes it doesn't even help to see a doctor. Hope you get some relief to your issues soon,

Thank you so much! I very much appreciate you

 

[Tor]

Sounds like a Big situation for you, not being able to work, or feeling safe driving. The medical care out there is hit or miss these days, I get it. And you still need to know what is happening if you don't know what the diagnosis of the issue is that you are having that feels impairing. And job jeopardizing. I hope your friend or Uber can get you to an appointment to find out what's going on....

Thank you so much! I appreciate you. I am so discouraged by medical care, primarily bc of what you said: it’s so hit or miss. I haven’t gone anywhere for care. I feel so used to suffering, I suppose. Saw y psych, and she made things so much worse. Now I might need to start seeing a new psychiatrist. This never ends

 

[TragicReality]

so tired. I cant get any sleep. Where I live I hear my landlord with his gf, you know what I mean. They also get up at differnt times, and I'm just tired of interrupted sleep. So I booked a motel. Forgot my laptop cord but whatever. I'm really sad about a man I love who cant say he loves me back. But, it's as good as it gets.

 

[AvidFan]

so tired. I cant get any sleep. Where I live I hear my landlord with his gf, you know what I mean. They also get up at differnt times, and I'm just tired of interrupted sleep. So I booked a motel. Forgot my laptop cord but whatever. I'm really sad about a man I love who cant say he loves me back. But, it's as good as it gets.

😢

 

[Livelife]

Thank you so much! I appreciate you. I am so discouraged by medical care, primarily bc of what you said: it’s so hit or miss. I haven’t gone anywhere for care. I feel so used to suffering, I suppose. Saw y psych, and she made things so much worse. Now I might need to start seeing a new psychiatrist. This never ends

Thank you Tor. I appreciate you too. Gotta show up and try anyway to get some kinda help. I hope so for you. That's just incredibly sad about the psych making things worse, it's bad enough all they do is write prescriptions now, I hope that's not one of the challenges with her. Is there a way to find a new psych to see? Keep us up with it......I just had to fill out paper forms today to get assistance with a new med I need that the neurologist prescribed 2 weeks ago that came to $700 a month out of pocket. I can't do that and I let her know. How many people can afford these kind of prices? Let's see if I qualify financially for it. I agree, It is hard to believe that all this medical ridiculousness will or can ever end.

 

[AvidFan]

I am absolutely worn out, so am going to go to bed and hope a) I sleep and b) I don't wake up at 3am or 5am or 6am and c) I don't wake up at any time with water on my face and see stars/clouds when I look up.

 

[Livelife]

I am absolutely worn out, so am going to go to bed and hope a) I sleep and b) I don't wake up at 3am or 5am or 6am and c) I don't wake up at any time with water on my face and see stars/clouds when I look up.

god I hope not. we are storming here too right now. finger crossed for you get some good sleep....

 

[TragicReality]

I am absolutely worn out, so am going to go to bed and hope a) I sleep and b) I don't wake up at 3am or 5am or 6am and c) I don't wake up at any time with water on my face and see stars/clouds when I look up.

I hope you sleep and don't wake up in the middle of the night or early. Losing a lot of sleep is making me feel rattled and anxious, so I know and empathize with you. hugs