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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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This is just my personal experience and I'm only sharing it with you because I hope the same feeling of freedom for you someday as well. God helps me answer all my "why" questions about existence, and even though i still struggle in other aspects (a belief in God isn't going to make everything perfect), but its still freeing to finally have answers to the "whys". Why am I here? For the glory of God. Why should I do this or that? For the glory of God. Who am I in this world? God's child. Why continue to suffer and not just die? Because it would utterly break His heart, and because suffering builds a stronger character and always has purpose behind it. And someday, it will be gone and only joy will remain.
Just sick. I look at food, and I’m compelled to vomit. I look at a task to keep me busy, and I’m encouraged to destroy it. I try to rest, and I’m driven to run. There is a pit in my stomach where there was once nourishment but is now a bottomless well of dread. How much longer until I catch a break? How much longer until I feel the least bit human again?
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Great. And weird. Bored crazy so I stayed home today to "work" and the boss calls up to give me an unexpected raise. We talked about workload and I'll be busy finally starting next week! Here I am doing nothing and I get a raise! I figured having a job doing nothing was good enough. My suspicion is that the raise was designed to keep me interested in the company because the company has been losing employees at a high rate. But I will enjoy it while it comes and look forward to retirement at the end of next year (that's the plan).
On reflection I thought the boss was calling me to lay me off. What a surprise!
On reflection I thought the boss was calling me to lay me off. What a surprise!
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Not well. On top of everything else, I'm starting on an asthma flare. I notice for the past two days that I'm suffering multiple attacks during the day & night. I live with severe persistent asthma. So, I have an asthma action plan that tells me what to do at every stage of acute severity from mild to the bad stage. (Everyone with asthma should have an asthma action plan, not just people like me who are severely affected. Right now I'm at a moderate stage with my attacks. So, what I'm doing is increasing my daily maintenance inhalers & using my nebulizer via a mouthpiece for acute symptoms rather than my inhalers because the medication particles are smaller & get more deeply into my lungs & the dose is much stronger. Hopefully this'll keep us out of urgent care or the emergency room. The last time I was in the ER with severe, acute asthma was last February. So, six months ago. Going to the hospital for asthma treatment is scary for me because I'm very afraid of doctors. I actually dissociative, that's how bad my fear of doctors is. If I would be the kind of person who believes in conspiracy theories, I'd say God is playing a cruel joke on me, putting worsening asthma on top of flashbacks & suicidal thoughts & impulses. 
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Not well. On top of everything else, I'm starting on an asthma flare. I notice for the past two days that I'm suffering multiple attacks during the day & night. I live with severe persistent asthma. So, I have an asthma action plan that tells me what to do at every stage of acute severity from mild to the bad stage. (Everyone with asthma should have an asthma action plan, not just people like me who are severely affected. Right now I'm at a moderate stage with my attacks. So, what I'm doing is increasing my daily maintenance inhalers & using my nebulizer via a mouthpiece for acute symptoms rather than my inhalers because the medication particles are smaller & get more deeply into my lungs & the dose is much stronger. Hopefully this'll keep us out of urgent care or the emergency room. The last time I was in the ER with severe, acute asthma was last February. So, six months ago. Going to the hospital for asthma treatment is scary for me because I'm very afraid of doctors. I actually dissociative, that's how bad my fear of doctors is. If I would be the kind of person who believes in conspiracy theories, I'd say God is playing a cruel joke on me, putting worsening asthma on top of flashbacks & suicidal thoughts & impulses. 😥
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Not well. On top of everything else, I'm starting on an asthma flare. I notice for the past two days that I'm suffering multiple attacks during the day & night. I live with severe persistent asthma. So, I have an asthma action plan that tells me what to do at every stage of acute severity from mild to the bad stage. (Everyone with asthma should have an asthma action plan, not just people like me who are severely affected. Right now I'm at a moderate stage with my attacks. So, what I'm doing is increasing my daily maintenance inhalers & using my nebulizer via a mouthpiece for acute symptoms rather than my inhalers because the medication particles are smaller & get more deeply into my lungs & the dose is much stronger. Hopefully this'll keep us out of urgent care or the emergency room. The last time I was in the ER with severe, acute asthma was last February. So, six months ago. Going to the hospital for asthma treatment is scary for me because I'm very afraid of doctors. I actually dissociative, that's how bad my fear of doctors is. If I would be the kind of person who believes in conspiracy theories, I'd say God is playing a cruel joke on me, putting worsening asthma on top of flashbacks & suicidal thoughts & impulses. 😥
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thank you @AmberMarie i'm sure things are going to be ok. so stressed but otherwise doing well
mike.....
mike.....
@nicktheundoer is always a kindly and caring one to all. Very refreshing with how the world is. 
Not well. On top of everything else, I'm starting on an asthma flare. I notice for the past two days that I'm suffering multiple attacks during the day & night. I live with severe persistent asthma. So, I have an asthma action plan that tells me what to do at every stage of acute severity from mild to the bad stage. (Everyone with asthma should have an asthma action plan, not just people like me who are severely affected. Right now I'm at a moderate stage with my attacks. So, what I'm doing is increasing my daily maintenance inhalers & using my nebulizer via a mouthpiece for acute symptoms rather than my inhalers because the medication particles are smaller & get more deeply into my lungs & the dose is much stronger. Hopefully this'll keep us out of urgent care or the emergency room. The last time I was in the ER with severe, acute asthma was last February. So, six months ago. Going to the hospital for asthma treatment is scary for me because I'm very afraid of doctors. I actually dissociative, that's how bad my fear of doctors is. If I would be the kind of person who believes in conspiracy theories, I'd say God is playing a cruel joke on me, putting worsening asthma on top of flashbacks & suicidal thoughts & impulses. 😥
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mike....