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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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unfortunately, suffering is a part of life and for most people so is joy. try to fight through your pain and also look for joy any joy
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i hope your asthma attacks get better. asthma is very serious so please take care of yourself
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i'm sorry that your heart hurts today i hope things get better for you soon
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P.S. I was getting allergy shots from my allergist to help with my symptoms when I was with her.
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It does, doesn't it? Or going canoeing on a calm lake. I love that!
Yes it is, @1964dodge. Thank you for saying that. My respirologist reminds me often that asthma can & does kill & that I need to seek emergency care sooner rather than later. Sometimes I've played Russian Roulette with my life by delaying going to the hospital only until my breathing got so bad I could barely walk (having to hold on to furniture, counters, & walls for support), feeling very tired from working hard to breathe, & feeling like I was about to pass out. I had to get paramedic help by that point. My respirologist gets really mad at me when this happens. He knows I'm a trauma survivor & hate hospitals. And I've done this when I wasn't battling suicidal thoughts. Not consciously, anyway. Thank you for your care & kind thoughts. They help a lot.
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@nicktheundoer is always a kindly and caring one to all. Very refreshing with how the world is. 
Not well. On top of everything else, I'm starting on an asthma flare. I notice for the past two days that I'm suffering multiple attacks during the day & night. I live with severe persistent asthma. So, I have an asthma action plan that tells me what to do at every stage of acute severity from mild to the bad stage. (Everyone with asthma should have an asthma action plan, not just people like me who are severely affected. Right now I'm at a moderate stage with my attacks. So, what I'm doing is increasing my daily maintenance inhalers & using my nebulizer via a mouthpiece for acute symptoms rather than my inhalers because the medication particles are smaller & get more deeply into my lungs & the dose is much stronger. Hopefully this'll keep us out of urgent care or the emergency room. The last time I was in the ER with severe, acute asthma was last February. So, six months ago. Going to the hospital for asthma treatment is scary for me because I'm very afraid of doctors. I actually dissociative, that's how bad my fear of doctors is. If I would be the kind of person who believes in conspiracy theories, I'd say God is playing a cruel joke on me, putting worsening asthma on top of flashbacks & suicidal thoughts & impulses. 
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Thank you @1964dodge. I lost my 11-month-old muted calico kitten Bella to a veterinarian medication mistake (incompetence).exactly 12 years today. I was devastated. I cried constantly for almost a year after loosing her. I still miss her today. I wanted to have his license revoked so that he couldn't do that to another family & an innocent furbaby. But, I didn't have the energy to go through with all the paperwork, etc. So, I let it go. I regret that decision. Loosing my beautiful girl was one too many victims. Here she is at 2½ months old:
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P.S. I was getting allergy shots from my allergist to help with my symptoms when I was with her.
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P.S. I was getting allergy shots from my allergist to help with my symptoms when I was with her.
I WANT TO DIE RIGHT NOW. I HAVE A WAY TO KILL MYSELF. HOWEVER, I PROMISED MY PSYCHOLOGIST THAT I WILL BE SAFE UNTIL I SEE HER AGAIN. I SEE HER AGAIN TOMORROW AT 12 O'CLOCK NOON. I WILL TELL HER WHEN I SEE HER TOMORROW I WANT TO DIE AND THAT I HAVE TO DIE. I THINK ABOUT DYING CONSTANTLY. IT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME. I CAN NOT LIVE WITH MYSELF ANYMORE. WHY DOES SHE NOT UNDERSTAND THAT? WHY? IT IS NOT DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND. MY LIFE IS INTOLERABLE.