Anyway just sayin. Of course, on the other hand there will always be hard time. And its the same old thing, yet I just don't wanna stay that way. I don't want to stay miserable. Like when I deal with my feelings, I don't fear them yet I don't wanna stay with them. I don't have to react so much to it or let it control me so and so. I quite had enough actually. I just sit in and let it be.
Doing work, hobbies, socialise and even socialising someone in the same situation as me is always the first step moving forward whenever I'm trying to stay hopeful, I had enough of self-isolating and self-sabotaging. I'm so cheesey with this but this long story short yea. Just know, not moving forward will only have consequences on yourself. Which is what I don't want.
Money is happiness on the other hand. π