Fairly buoyant. I am overloaded with work on both my income sources so have a choice, and can work on higher paid stuff up to Christmas holidays now and turn lower paid gigs down. I'm still tired and overworked, but at least I am not tired and overworked and completely and utterly broke, for the time being. Being able to afford to live is so key to my mental health!
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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I'm really not happy with the medical system right now. I've been in pain for many months. I have cramping and bloating in my abdomen every time I consume something. And sometimes I'm not even able to tolerate eating and drinking when I have another Crohn's flare up, which seems to be happening more and more often as of late. I've been in the hospital twice in the past 2 months. I was told that I probably have inflammation and a narrowing of the intestines which may be causing this. This means it's possible I might need surgery. Nevertheless, the hospital let me go without getting the necessary tests done (a simple MRI). Instead, I have to get it done in an outpatient setting, and my appointment isn't until December 13th. In the meantime, while I wait, things could get worse for all I know. I could end up in the hospital again, not being able to eat or drink. I feel it's ridiculous that I have to wait this long for this appointment just to figure out what's wrong, and then who knows how much longer it'll take for them to actually treat it. If anything happens to me, God forbid, I feel as though this would be the very definition of malpractice/negligence. But I don't know what else to do, aside from signing myself into another (larger) hospital and hoping that they do the MRI sooner, which is no guarantee, and I'm not even sure my situation would be considered an emergency since for now I am able to eat and drink. Those are my options, and I'm worried about what could happen in the meantime the longer I wait.
On another note, my stepdad has been drinking almost daily, and my mom has grown to resent him for it. He lies to her about his drunkenness all the time, hides his booze, drives drunk, and they argue about it constantly, but that hasn't seemed to stop him. Every time he leaves the house, he buys more. She's ready to throw him out at this point, but he won't leave on his own and she doesn't want to deal with the cops if they were to get involved, which I do understand, as I don't like dealing with them either. He got into a car accident yesterday evening, and my mom saw him drunk again earlier that morning, but for some reason the cops didn't find any alcohol in his system so he got off scot-free., My mom says she would have been thrilled if he was finally locked up and out of her life. And I'm just worried about her because this is extra stress that she doesn't need. She already has high blood pressure. I just wish he'd either stop drinking or get out of our lives. He was never my favorite person, but if he were to stop drinking at least, and my mom was happy, I'd deal with him being here. But he clearly doesn't want to stop, and I feel bad for my mom that she doesn't know what to expect from him next.
I feel glad yo’re here @SillyOldBear . I understand wanting to not wake up, wanting release.
Hugs.
I feel bad.
Hugs.
I feel bad.
Geez. Your therapist evidently doesn't know too much about only children who are also called super first borns. I'm an only child & I'm definitely not entitled &/or look down on everyone. Horrible stereotype. I'm not angry just shocked that a therapist in 2024 would hold a belief like that. Just my 2 cents.
Sounds like late stage alcohol use disorder to me. I am not qualified to diagnose, but as a former problem drinker, I can see that addiction follows a fairly consistent trajectory regardless of the demographics of the person drinking constantly. And that guy may not be able to quit even if he wanted to. He is probably well past the point where medical attention is needed to detox. I wish he doesn’t end killing somebody, but that bad of a dependency is unlikely to end without severe consequences. I’m sorry that someone you love is having to put up with that.
I’m still not in a good place. I’m fighting against the thoughts. They are not my thoughts, but echos of things that were said and the way they were said to me. I’m taking a news break, and will likely add social media to that. I’m not thinking about, but when I start up, I refocus on the present. Holy shit. I am painfully sad.
Right. Nobody can get another person sober. There’s no one right way, and I think that everyone who has long term recovery has found out on their own what works, through trial and error. I know that when I was in my active addiction, I wanted to recover without doing any work. I only had to swallow some booze to get drunk, so why wouldn’t I be able to quit in the same way?
It took me a long time and dozens, if not hundreds of relapses to get sober for a year +. It wasn’t until the addiction got more painful than doing the work to change. I can’t say that this is true for everyone, but I know from peer support that I am one of many.
It took me a long time and dozens, if not hundreds of relapses to get sober for a year +. It wasn’t until the addiction got more painful than doing the work to change. I can’t say that this is true for everyone, but I know from peer support that I am one of many.
