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How Are You Feeling Right Now?

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
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I’m feeling better. Less than okay, but tolerable, which is a mile better than yesterday. I had gotten too far behind on sleep and last night I got 9.5 hours, and Monday night I got 13 hours. This is after several nights, maybe even a week of 4-6.5 hours of sleep nightly.

Last two nights I had no choice but to wind down at 6:00; my body started shutting down. I normally feel like I have to rip myself out of bed in the morning, but today I woke up and started my morning routine without desperately wanting to return to sleep. I just hope that lasts.
 

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
I’m feeling better. Less than okay, but tolerable, which is a mile better than yesterday. I had gotten too far behind on sleep and last night I got 9.5 hours, and Monday night I got 13 hours. This is after several nights, maybe even a week of 4-6.5 hours of sleep nightly.

Last two nights I had no choice but to wind down at 6:00; my body started shutting down. I normally feel like I have to rip myself out of bed in the morning, but today I woke up and started my morning routine without desperately wanting to return to sleep. I just hope that lasts.
I just wanted to say, you seem like an intelligent, caring person, and someone who's friend I'd definitely want to be in real life. I hope that brightens your day and you feel better.
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
I feel such utter despair. I can’t do anything. I’m so exhausted that I’m flailing at work. I’m so screwed. If I tell my provider how it’s going, they might have to call in a wellness check (where the cops show up at your door to take you to the psych ward).

I could probably talk my way out of it, but that’s taking a big risk because the cops may decide to put me on a hold out of an excess of caution. They don’t face any consequences for involuntary holds that are unnecessary, while it would be a problem for them if they left me at home and I chose to end myself that night. So they have no incentive to balance pros and cons, and I really doubt that anyone who would take a job in public safety is sympathetic to the mentally ill.

Ma in rare exceptions, but I cannot afford those odds. Ironically it’s the trauma from being inpatient before driving the majority of my distress. It’s been 10 months and I’m still so angry every day that I get a stomach ache from the adrenaline that has nothing to do.

I’m not going to be able to try a med change as a result. I’m doing what I can with self help, and I’m running out of patience. I’m not upset about anything outside of my thoughts, although I recognize that there is a lot to be upset over. I’m aware that my moods fluctuate, but I’m worn down over feeling like I am doing badly most of the time. I’m losing my fight.
I just want you to know that I read your post and hope things will improve for you. You are a deep thinker and maybe that can be your strength to feeling better. When you feel like you're losing your fight, please know that you have me and others here rooting for you @LumberJack.
 

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
So I decided to get off most of my medication hoping I'd sleep better, and guess what, as of the past couple days, I've been sleeping better! It took several weeks, depending on which medication was causing the constant waking, but it seems as though it worked. I'm now sleeping about 6-8 hours straight without waking. Thank goodness. I finally feel more rested.
 

HappyKitty

Works during the day, doodles at night.
@AvidFan Thanks 😸 I was rushing to work Tuesday morning, I was too tired to head to another traffic light was quite far... So I panicked and Jaywalked, I probably blacked out. Abt 5 mins probably, dunno how long cus I dont know how a car hit me in between. The nurse told me I didnt fling, probably fell on my butt. When I regain conscious, my lunch bag and spec flew apart slightly far like that and I asked the driver helped to pick up my stuffs. When I opened my eyes, 3-5 drivers surrounding me. So even if I were to complain, I dont know which driver hit me or how one of the cars headlight broke.

My knee just swollen but luckily no fracture. I just cant remember how it happened but then I went to work, my boss is too stunned to speak😂 I arrived on time despite all that, but feel the pain later and went emergency room at 4pm.
 
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Atreides

Staff Alumni
SF Supporter
@AvidFan Thanks 😸 I was rushing to work Tuesday morning, I was too tired to head to another traffic light was quite far... So I panicked and Jaywalked, I probably blacked out. Abt 5 mins probably, dunno how long cus I dont know how a car hit me in between. The nurse told me I didnt fling, probably fell on my butt. When I regain conscious, my lunch bag and spec flew apart slightly far like that and I asked the driver helped to pick up my stuffs. When I opened my eyes, 3-5 drivers surrounding me. So even if I were to complain, I dont know which driver hit me or how one of the cars headlight broke.

My knee just swollen but luckily no fracture. I just cant remember how it happened but then I went to work, my boss is too stunned to speak😂 I arrived on time despite all that, but feel the pain later and went emergency room at 4pm.
glad you went to the ER. can never be too careful.
 

Bergerac

Well-Known Member
@AvidFan Thanks 😸 I was rushing to work Tuesday morning, I was too tired to head to another traffic light was quite far... So I panicked and Jaywalked, I probably blacked out. Abt 5 mins probably, dunno how long cus I dont know how a car hit me in between. The nurse told me I didnt fling, probably fell on my butt. When I regain conscious, my lunch bag and spec flew apart slightly far like that and I asked the driver helped to pick up my stuffs. When I opened my eyes, 3-5 drivers surrounding me. So even if I were to complain, I dont know ehoch driver hit me or how one of the cars headlight broke.

My knee just swollen but luckily no fracture. I just cant remember how it happened but then I went to work, my boss is too stunned to speak😂 I arrived on time despite all that, but feel the pain later and went emergency room at 4pm.
Good Lord, I'm so sorry. I hope you're feeling ok now, both emotionally and physically. That's very traumatic, I'm sure. It's something we all do at times, cutting corners, and it's horrible it resulted in this for you, this time. I'm just so pleased it wasn't any worse. *hug
 

HappyKitty

Works during the day, doodles at night.
glad you went to the ER. can never be too careful.
yea i almost died lmao im so greatful rn.

cus the fact i blacked out. the nurses reminded me i blacked out and everyone like "did you look at the guy plate car number?"

i told them "thats not my reaction when i regain conscious, my reaction was "bro is your car okay?"

everyone is too stunned to speak😂
 

HappyKitty

Works during the day, doodles at night.
Good Lord, I'm so sorry. I hope you're feeling ok now, both emotionally and physically. That's very traumatic, I'm sure. It's something we all do at times, cutting corners, and it's horrible it resulted in this for you, this time. I'm just so pleased it wasn't any worse. *hug
thank you. 😸 i still dont know how to react but i had no choice to call my mum and my parents flew down here immediately and im glad they flew so they can help me walk home and do chores. hopefully the swelling will just go away 1 week but some abrasions take time. if only i remember how i got hit but i rly cant.
 

Bergerac

Well-Known Member
thank you. 😸 i still dont know how to react but i had no choice to call my mum and my parents flew down here immediately and im glad they flew so they can help me walk home and do chores. hopefully the swelling will just go away 1 week but some abrasions take time. if only i remember how i got hit but i rly cant.
Don't worry yourself too much about that and hinder any recovery. This has really upset me to hear, I am so sorry you've been through this. Let your parents do as much as you need.
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
thank you. 😸 i still dont know how to react but i had no choice to call my mum and my parents flew down here immediately and im glad they flew so they can help me walk home and do chores. hopefully the swelling will just go away 1 week but some abrasions take time. if only i remember how i got hit but i rly cant.
Sorry that happened. As a veteran of a few concussions, I know that “out of it” feeling. Hopefully it has subsided by now. Did the ER staff check you for head/brain (god forbid) injuries? Just sounds really scary that you blacked out after being hit. Hope your knee is better soon.
 

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