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Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
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My drug test came up positive for fentanyl, but I never did any illegal drugs at all for a long while now. Over a year, I think. And I haven't done any opiates in several years. She (my counselor) says she believes me but there has to be some doubt there too which makes me feel as if I'm being judged for something I didn't do. But oh well, I guess. People can think what they want. What's important is I know the truth.
 
My drug test came up positive for fentanyl, but I never did any illegal drugs at all for a long while now. Over a year, I think. And I haven't done any opiates in several years. She (my counselor) says she believes me but there has to be some doubt there too which makes me feel as if I'm being judged for something I didn't do. But oh well, I guess. People can think what they want. What's important is I know the truth.
Can you retake the test? Maybe they got your results mixed up with someone else’s results
 

AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
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My drug test came up positive for fentanyl, but I never did any illegal drugs at all for a long while now. Over a year, I think. And I haven't done any opiates in several years. She (my counselor) says she believes me but there has to be some doubt there too which makes me feel as if I'm being judged for something I didn't do. But oh well, I guess. People can think what they want. What's important is I know the truth.
That's crazy. Fentanyl is everywhere it seems, maybe there's some in the water or food supply. I hope you can retake the test, something isn't right.
 

AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
SF Supporter
I wish I was dead. There’s nothing left for me here. Only grief, failure, and disappointment. I’m shit at everything a human is supposed to be. I can’t run a relationship, although I’m terribly lonely. I must be a real jerk since no one wants to be around me. I’m probably going to end up drinking myself to death, and maybe I will be better off then. FTW
🥹 You are not shit at everything human. You are not shit supporting other people, your words have meant a lot to me when I was going through tough times in the last few months. I wish you could find a way to be kinder to yourself.
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
My drug test came up positive for fentanyl, but I never did any illegal drugs at all for a long while now. Over a year, I think. And I haven't done any opiates in several years. She (my counselor) says she believes me but there has to be some doubt there too which makes me feel as if I'm being judged for something I didn't do. But oh well, I guess. People can think what they want. What's important is I know the truth.
There’s also such a thing as a false positive, meaning the test shows a positive when the substance in question is not in the sample.

The interesting aspect of a test that may have a false positive or negative is that the probability of the sample itself being positive can be determined if we know how common the test should be positive if given to the entire population. This gets technical from here, but if you’re interested, ask your favorite search engine or AI bot about Bayesian Probability and test results.

If you just want to clear your name, check with your treatment provider about a retest or second order test of the original sample. The second test is fairly common and more accurate, but also exponentially more expensive. Usually the second test is used to rule out a false positive caused by a legal drug appearing to be a street drug metabolite.

I have a friend who is in recovery from meth, and at one point he came up positive for amphetamines (pre-employment screen), despite having been clean for 3 years plus. The job was pretty sensitive, so the company did the more sensitive test and it turned out to be bupropion giving the false positive.

okay, sorry for the novel. I hope something is useful there.
 

SillyOldBear

Teddy Bears Rule! 🐻
Staff Alumni
Struggling. My mum is dying, has only 3-4 weeks to live. Doesn’t feel real atm, trying to get my head around what’s happening. I can’t imagine her not being there.
Losing a parent is very hard. I am an old lady and lost mine many years ago. My suggestions would be to just be with her as much as possible. Build some more memories. The memories you have built up over a lifetime are so very precious.
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
🥹 You are not shit at everything human. You are not shit supporting other people, your words have meant a lot to me when I was going through tough times in the last few months. I wish you could find a way to be kinder to yourself.
I know. I’m glad to hear if I was helpful. I hear often that I am too hard on myself. I get it. I hate when people around me beat themselves up, because hey, they’re being mean to someone I care about! So why do I do it to myself? It’s possibly a way to deal with the pain. Thinking that I deserve to suffer lessens the sting of it, in a twisted way.
 

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
There’s also such a thing as a false positive, meaning the test shows a positive when the substance in question is not in the sample.

The interesting aspect of a test that may have a false positive or negative is that the probability of the sample itself being positive can be determined if we know how common the test should be positive if given to the entire population. This gets technical from here, but if you’re interested, ask your favorite search engine or AI bot about Bayesian Probability and test results.

If you just want to clear your name, check with your treatment provider about a retest or second order test of the original sample. The second test is fairly common and more accurate, but also exponentially more expensive. Usually the second test is used to rule out a false positive caused by a legal drug appearing to be a street drug metabolite.

I have a friend who is in recovery from meth, and at one point he came up positive for amphetamines (pre-employment screen), despite having been clean for 3 years plus. The job was pretty sensitive, so the company did the more sensitive test and it turned out to be bupropion giving the false positive.

okay, sorry for the novel. I hope something is useful there.
She did say it could be some medication I'm taking that caused it. She's sending it to the lab, which should be able to disprove the test result, I hope. I just know that I didn't do it, and I don't want anyone looking at me as though I did.

I had another similar incident once when I went to the psych hospital during a psychotic episode (I heard voices and was delusional). I had taken a drug test which came up positive for meth. And they all believed I was on meth it seemed, regardless of my denial of such a thing. I hate when this happens.
 
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LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
She did say it could be some medication I'm taking that caused it. She's sending it to the lab, which should be able to disprove the test result, I hope. I just know that I didn't do it, and I don't want anyone looking at me as though I did.

I had another similar incident once when I went to the psych hospital during a psychotic episode (I heard voices and was delusional). I had taken a drug test which came up positive for meth. And they all believed I was on meth it seemed, regardless of my denial of such a thing. I hate when this happens.
The lab test is the second order test I meant. I’m guessing the first one was a paper strip.

Regarding the meth positive, the molecule known as methamphetamine is relatively simple, which means that many other substances could look similar to it, or to its metabolites. I’m not a testing expert, but I know enough organic chemistry to know that I am not fit to be an organic chemist.

That said, I would be extremely surprised if anyone on staff in an inpatient setting would have ever heard of the concept of a false positive, conditional probability, or chemical analogues. The people who can’t find any better job than acute psychiatric care seem to often have worse disturbances than the average patient *rant
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
Struggling. My mum is dying, has only 3-4 weeks to live. Doesn’t feel real atm, trying to get my head around what’s happening. I can’t imagine her not being there.
Holding my breath I'm sorry. If she's conscious, I hope she is not in any pain. I lost my mom 10 years ago and it was a turning point in my life. A light went out. Tell her you love her. Sending you love and understanding.
 

Sassy Cat

SF hugger
Safety & Support
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Struggling. My mum is dying, has only 3-4 weeks to live. Doesn’t feel real atm, trying to get my head around what’s happening. I can’t imagine her not being there.
*hug10*console I am so sorry. I hope she is still well enough to have some good quality time with you give her plenty of hugs and try and take in every moment you can.
 

From_Venus

Well-Known Member
I’m grateful that the issues at home between my mom and I have cooled down, and that we can talk normally again.

Just feeling kind of down because I feel so ugly, even uglier than usual. My hair has been looking quite bad for the last week or so, I’m going to cut it on Saturday but I feel nervous about how it will turn out. My eyebrows are growing in and they look worse than they did when I shaved them off completely 🤭 And my stubble… gosh I would do anything to make it disappear.

One thing I’m excited about though is signing up for driving lessons. I’m just scared that I’ll be denied a license due to my mental illnesses. Over the weekend, I’m going down to the driving school I enrolled in and fingers crossed I’m allowed to take the classes.
 

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