Pretty anxious. Not feeling great to start with, I had a little walk to the shops, usually a walk perks me up a bit, but didn't. I have the dentist for check up and hygienist shortly and am very nervous. I don't mind the dentist, it's the hygienist and the water torture, feels like I'm going to drown and my nervous system goes into overdrive and I feel totally trapped and my swallow reflex starts going crazy. I nearly fainted last time, but then I was going through benzo withdrawals as well at the time, total adrenaline overload, also nearly fainted when I got up from the dentists chair for the check up. Hopefully I will get through it, the amitriptyline withdrawal is going on in fits and starts, I was 100% fine from about 3pm yesterday, a little tired but that was it. Went to bed feeling fine, and woke up feeling like complete shit again. Also am going to have to check my emails sooner or later, which is filling me with dread, though I know after it's done I'll likely wonder what I was worrying about (hopefully it will be "there, that wasn't so bad" vs "Oh shit, I knew there was a good reason for avoiding all this").