How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

Like my life has been a waste of time and needs to end soon.

are you kidding? this must be a joke. i only know so much about you but you have helped so many people and worked hard with your church, not to mention how you help here. your life has been a rewarding one that any christian would be proud of, i know i'm proud of you . as far as dying soon in a way i hope you last 2 or 3 more decades, but when i say prayers sometimes i ask to have your pain will lessen or he does call you home soon. i want you to do me a small favor. write a list of everything good you've done since 18yo. nobody will see it so please be honest. you are a great person

mike....

 

[Lane]

Feeling like I must be a horrible person that my own child doesn't want to talk to me.

 

[1964dodge]

Feeling like I must be a horrible person that my own child doesn't want to talk to me.

you are not a horrible person, on the contrary you are a wonderful person. this is not your fault it is your daughters. all of my kids disliked me at one time or another and one of my boys hated me i mean pure hatred. i think this is a normal development for kids in their late teen or early twenties, some are like that longer. 2 of the kids that didn't really like me it was only a short time, the one that hated me it was for 2 or 3 years.

as they learn life lessons they mature and see why parents did the things they did. i wasn't the perfect father but i tried. i made mistakes, i'm human. now my kids love me more than i could ever imagine. please don't blame yourself. don't give up, keep ttrying. every few months try to have coffee together and send bday gifts, and christmas gifts. this will show her you still care and still love her. i'm sure someday she will fly home again

mike.....

 

[Inastorm]

I struggling again, just feel so worthless as a human being. It's what the people I care about think of me, if this is the case then my perception of myself is completely wrong. I've always thought of myself as someone who has a value system for good, honest, do the right thing. It doesn't seem to have done any good. I think I might have to call the crisis hotline today as I'm feeling so low.

 

[HappyKitty]

My mind is heavily grieving.

Lost of grandparents on both side. As we grew older, we'll lose more so expect isolation.

I was OTing at work last Thursday means doing extra hours to cover up, when I'm done I rush to hospital. Didn't knew that it was late after visiting hours, even if I came, the doc only allow direct children. Not grandchildren. Then on Friday morning, I had my own medical apt, my family rush to funeral and left me cus no time. I didnt get to kiss goodbye but video calls with my cousins.

Its eid mubarak sometime next wk, and I usually kiss my grandparents, now even losing my last grandpa, I didnt get to kiss him goodbye.

The last one. I just gonna miss the frequent visits to his house. Doc failed to resusitate. First time I saw whats low oxygen is like, hes bodg get even more bruised till his last breath. Didnt sleep that day, the doc kept interrupting.

My minds is grieving but I didnt want to cry.

 

[Lane]

you are not a horrible person, on the contrary you are a wonderful person. this is not your fault it is your daughters. all of my kids disliked me at one time or another and one of my boys hated me i mean pure hatred. i think this is a normal development for kids in their late teen or early twenties, some are like that longer. 2 of the kids that didn't really like me it was only a short time, the one that hated me it was for 2 or 3 years.

as they learn life lessons they mature and see why parents did the things they did. i wasn't the perfect father but i tried. i made mistakes, i'm human. now my kids love me more than i could ever imagine. please don't blame yourself. don't give up, keep ttrying. every few months try to have coffee together and send bday gifts, and christmas gifts. this will show her you still care and still love her. i'm sure someday she will fly home again

mike.....

Thanks for sharing your story Mike. I appreciate it and it gives me hope.

 

[AvidFan]

I struggling again, just feel so worthless as a human being. It's what the people I care about think of me, if this is the case then my perception of myself is completely wrong. I've always thought of myself as someone who has a value system for good, honest, do the right thing. It doesn't seem to have done any good. I think I might have to call the crisis hotline today as I'm feeling so low.

You're not worthless, though I know that's easy for me to say, not so easy to believe it when you're feeling low. I hope the crisis line helps if you call and hope you can feel better very soon.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m alive. Overwhelmed so I procrastinate. Then I fall even further behind, and I feel more overwhelmed. I’m in a slump.

 

[Inanimate]

There's always hope. I can't say how long this is going to go on for you or if it will improve, but even if it doesn't, at the very least, there is always hope for acceptance, and the tools to bear it as it happens.

What I can’t get over isn’t the way things are but the fact that I’m okay with this. It pains me that I’m comfortable living like this.

 

[Windhover]

This topic is simple. Post how you are right now. It could be what your thinking, doing, listening to, writing...whatever! Because you know what they say:

"Get out of the past, stop dreading the future, and worry about now!"

Lonely and hurting, but distracted from the thought loop with a an audio-book, and some shows I am watching.

 

[puffymilk]

I'm doing okay

 

[puffymilk]

Lonely and hurting, but distracted from the thought loop with a an audio-book, and some shows I am watching.

I'm sorry I hope you feel better soon

 

[AvidFan]

Lonely and hurting, but distracted from the thought loop with a an audio-book, and some shows I am watching.

❤️❤️❤️

 

[AvidFan]

I'm fairly relaxed. Just trying to get rid of my morning headache before I do my weekly half hour of housework. With luck I'll catch up and be able to make small inroads into the backlog. But will see!

 

[Lonely dude30]

I’m alright I got paid at work today

 

[Inastorm]

I'm struggling on a daily basis, not all the time, but most of it. I feel so sad and alone.

 

[Empress00]

Yeah I also feel quite lonely. My parents are on holiday this week, at least I know they are coming back, worried for when they pass x

 

[1964dodge]

I struggling again, just feel so worthless as a human being. It's what the people I care about think of me, if this is the case then my perception of myself is completely wrong. I've always thought of myself as someone who has a value system for good, honest, do the right thing. It doesn't seem to have done any good. I think I might have to call the crisis hotline today as I'm feeling so low.

i'm sorry that you feel so low. the truth is everyone and i mean every last person on earth has times that they feel worthless which is never true, and everyone has times that they are extraordinarily useful, but usually we are someplace in the middle. the only useless person is one that completely gives up and doesn't try at all.

i have been useless because i gave up completely at one point, but like most people i got up to fight again eventually. in my opinioin you are far from useless you are a good person and a valuable asset to have on this planet.

as far as what others think especially close people go take it with a grain of salt. if they just criticize you ignore them. if they say i notice you do this or that listen and if the advice is sound try it if not say thank you but i like it this way. remember anybody giving advice has their own baggage , even me lol. i hope today was much better for you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

My mind is heavily grieving.

Lost of grandparents on both side. As we grew older, we'll lose more so expect isolation.

I was OTing at work last Thursday means doing extra hours to cover up, when I'm done I rush to hospital. Didn't knew that it was late after visiting hours, even if I came, the doc only allow direct children. Not grandchildren. Then on Friday morning, I had my own medical apt, my family rush to funeral and left me cus no time. I didnt get to kiss goodbye but video calls with my cousins.

Its eid mubarak sometime next wk, and I usually kiss my grandparents, now even losing my last grandpa, I didnt get to kiss him goodbye.

The last one. I just gonna miss the frequent visits to his house. Doc failed to resusitate. First time I saw whats low oxygen is like, hes bodg get even more bruised till his last breath. Didnt sleep that day, the doc kept interrupting.

My minds is grieving but I didnt want to cry.

losing grandparents is an awful thing for people to live with. i'm so sorry that you lost your last grandpa. i hope you have others to help you grieve

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Thanks for sharing your story Mike. I appreciate it and it gives me hope.

you're welcome @Lane

mike.....