How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[LumberJack]

I feel lost. I’m not hurting, exactly. It’s more like I don’t know what to do, but I know it’s not this. I’m losing time trying to figure out wth to do with my life that I never expected to last this long.

 

[puffymilk]

Feeling a bit better now. Last night before bed I collapsed and by that I mean I was looking up my ex again and was kind of frustrated that I couldn't really find anything. Today I realized that I probably miss the old version of him, who probably never exists anyway and he was just faking it.

 

[chiastic_slide]

My noodles are ready, but lost all appetite.

I’m feeling cold. If I sit here perfectly still and with a blank mind I should cease to exist, I think. But it never works.

 

[Inastorm]

So as I've gone on about it in previous posts, I've had a relationship break down (27 years, my only relationship in life), I'm struggling a lot, where I imagine they are too, this isn't a poor me post. It's just waking up in the mornings are so tough, as for the last 3 months or so, I've been having nightmares about the relationship every night. I dream about them every single night and wake up feeling really shit and missing them - this is how I start every single day, it's torture.

 

[cymbele]

So as I've gone on about it in previous posts, I've had a relationship break down (27 years, my only relationship in life), I'm struggling a lot, where I imagine they are too, this isn't a poor me post. It's just waking up in the mornings are so tough, as for the last 3 months or so, I've been having nightmares about the relationship every night. I dream about them every single night and wake up feeling really shit and missing them - this is how I start every single day, it's torture.

I was married for 25 years.I still dream about my x generally after I see him. so i try not to see him. It gets better but it takes time. I didn't believe the adage since it took a long time for me but it's true. It's not easy. I haven't read your previous posts - I should - but I've been afraid of dredging up the memories. Take care.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m feeling fairly good. I felt really tired yesterday. Instead of powering through with more caffeine and sugar, I rested. I went to bed on time and didn’t force myself out of bed. I slept in as long as I wanted, and I really needed it.

I am doing better with self care, especially drinking more water. I think I want more sleep because my body is starting to heal.

 

[Lane]

I spent the day with my adult daughter. Breakfast, pedicures, movie and lunch. Nice day. Then she left to go home to her family. Now the house is super empty and I'm back to being alone. I hate being lonely after a day like this. I know I should be appreciative of the time she spent with me but I have angst being alone and after a happy busy house the feeling is real.

I understand how you feel. Its not a good feeling.

 

[Lane]

Depressed lately. Going through the motions as best as I can, but my heart isn't into anything.

 

[Auri]

Amazed by how far from home I am.

I’ve seen the Himalayas. It can’t be real.

 

[KM76710]

Depressed lately. Going through the motions as best as I can, but my heart isn't into anything.

I hope that things come to you and bring your spirits up.

 

[LumberJack]

Amazed by how far from home I am.

I’ve seen the Himalayas. It can’t be real.

That’s awesome. I’m a Buddhist and there are many (well, basically all) of the sacred sites are in Nepal or India. So I know many people who have been there. I’m not big on pilgrimage myself, but if I had the opportunity to ride along with someone who was able to book the trip, I would definitely take it.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m in so much pain that I can hardly stand myself. It’s like a combination of rage and panic. It’s not both at the same time, but rather I’m oscillating from one extreme to the other over intervals averaging about 45 seconds.

Fuck me, fuck the world, fuck everything. At least I have enough self awareness to know that now is a bad time to make any life decisions. I’m home for the night, which virtually guarantees that I won’t do something stupid, but I’m not one to underestimate my own ability to do things that make perfect sense at the time, and turn out to be regrettable in the morning.

 

[Survivorist]

Floating - sometimes this world seems no longer real to me.....

 

[Windhover]

I'm maybe slightly less anxious than usual. Perhaps I can sleep without nightmares. They've been chronic and I'm so tired of the fear. I'm having to force myself to stay present, otherwise I keep ping-ponging from worry for the future, back into the recent past, and then adding terrible sadness and the lack of control to it, which brings me to a very bad set of thoughts.

 

[Inanimate]

Lonely, though my loneliness is eclipsed by resignation.

 

[one6seven]

Hopeless

 

[puffymilk]

I'm okay

 

[Inastorm]

Struggling today, I'm at work but finding it difficult to focus. My eyes keep on welling up as I'm feeling so sad....im getting so sick of this.

 

[Lane]

I’m in so much pain that I can hardly stand myself. It’s like a combination of rage and panic. It’s not both at the same time, but rather I’m oscillating from one extreme to the other over intervals averaging about 45 seconds.

Fuck me, fuck the world, fuck everything. At least I have enough self awareness to know that now is a bad time to make any life decisions. I’m home for the night, which virtually guarantees that I won’t do something stupid, but I’m not one to underestimate my own ability to do things that make perfect sense at the time, and turn out to be regrettable in the morning.

I hope you can find some peace soon LumberJack. And yes, glad you're home and safe.

 

[Lane]

Struggling today, I'm at work but finding it difficult to focus. My eyes keep on welling up as I'm feeling so sad....im getting so sick of this.

It's so hard when you're upset at work. I hope you feel better and can maybe do something special for yourself.