How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[LumberJack]

That sound horrible, does anything help the pain? Hope your feeling a bit better soon.

I’m still in pain, physically. I’m sure it’s psychosomatic though. I think it’s a combination of a normal case of the blues (emotion) and my genetic depression (mood). Having both at the same time amplifies the intensity and frequency of oscillation within my subjective experience. Which means that I can’t just go numb and get used to it. I have to feel every minute.

Doing something that occupies my mind with a productive, or even mindless, task is generally what helps. I can’t keep myself busy for too long before I need a nap.

 

[puffymilk]

What you feeling anxious about?

I'm not sure, just anxious in general I guess. But I woke up feeling a bit better

 

[Reia]

This topic is simple. Post how you are right now. It could be what your thinking, doing, listening to, writing...whatever! Because you know what they say:

"Get out of the past, stop dreading the future, and worry about now!"

Right now, I'm so-so, not happy, not sad, but less stressed because it's Saturday.

Nothing's helping, I need a reason

 

[Lane]

Feel like I'm being punished. I've heard but don't necessarily prescribe to the idea that karma comes back around to get you. But if it does, I feel like I'm getting it back right now and it hurts. Can't shake it.

 

[Inastorm]

Feel like I'm being punished. I've heard but don't necessarily prescribe to the idea that karma comes back around to get you. But if it does, I feel like I'm getting it back right now and it hurts. Can't shake it.

Sorry you feel like that. While I do believe in karma, I think the 'bad' element that comes round is subjective in the sense we can feel guilt of something we think we have done bad, but its not necessarily something bad. I have had my feelings really hurt in the past by other people but in reflection it was probably the way I took the comments rather than the other people being 'bad'.

 

[KM76710]

Nothing's helping, I need a reason

Welcome and good to have you here with us, this is a good supportive forum with caring members and I hope that we can learn more about you and possibly have good advice and reasons for you.

 

[Angie]

I had a difficult appointment with my therapist, sometimes she can be controlling and she has some opinions about stuffs. Normally this would not bother me, as she is a great support otherwise, but this time it did.

I have a summer cold and continuing gastric problems. My GP has ordered lab tests to see if I have food allergies of some kind.

So I woke up sick physically and I have lots of college work to get through by Monday - urg.

 

[Inastorm]

Im starting to get anixous about the up coming break. Im off good friday and the weekend, so 3 days. Ive been getting really depressed and then suicidal at the weekends, so im not looking forward to it. Im still having bad dreams and nightmares every night, so im not getting a good lye in to look forward. Positive side, i got a free audio book 'the courage to be disliked' which is really interesting, so ill listen to that over the weekend.

 

[Pebble mouse]

Really exhausted. I had a long day and am looking forward to having a good sleep.

 

[billiejean]

i'm a worthless piece of shit

 

[Pebble mouse]

i'm a worthless piece of shit

I'm saddened you feel that way. We all have intrinsic value as human beings. (((hugs))) to you.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m avoiding the news right now. If I get everything done today, I’ll watch a recording of a call with the activist group that is behind the April 5 protests.

This is not about politics. It’s about the constitution of the USA and the transgressions of a rogue executive branch. I did NOT learn respect for the flag, constitution, and bill of rights to sit back and watch this happen.

 

[AmberMarie]

Very "off" today. Physically...
Mentally the same wishy washy BS
Physically... something doesn't feel right. i'm going to try n sleep part of the day. See if that helps.

 

[may71]

i'm a worthless piece of shit

You're not that. Feeling like shit and being treated like shit is doesn't make you shit.

You have inherent worth as a human being. You're also a much better person than you realize. Please be gentle with yourself.

 

[Survivorist]

Like.... No words necessary....

 

[Inanimate]

Relieved. I found out my insurance fully covers the treatment that I’m seeking for treatment-resistant depression, Spravato (esketamine), with my provider’s approval. My confidence in this isn’t very high, but I’m excited to finally move forward in my recovery process after a decade of just tolerating my suffering.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Had some abnormal results about a test and have to get tested again. I really hope it's not something bad.

 

[LumberJack]

Relieved. I found out my insurance fully covers the treatment that I’m seeking for treatment-resistant depression, Spravato (esketamine), with my provider’s approval. My confidence in this isn’t very high, but I’m excited to finally move forward in my recovery process after a decade of just tolerating my suffering.

I was recommended to see a ketamine clinician for my TRD. It was a whole protocol where you go in once a week for a few weeks, and then ramp down from there. The eskatamine is FDA approved for TRD, but regular ketamine is not, so I had to pay out of pocket. I know everyone is different, so I don’t know how it will work out for you, but it helped me at a time when nothing else seemed to work, including exercise, diet, hydration, etc.

 

[LumberJack]

Had some abnormal results about a test and have to get tested again. I really hope it's not something bad.

Sorry to hear that. I know that feeling of anxiety, and it’s one of the worst. Statistically, though, the likelihood of a false positive (abnormal) result is higher than a true positive, depending on how rare a true positive is. The more rare, the more likely that it is a false positive. (See Bayesian Probability if you want to be bored to sleep, lol).

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Sorry to hear that. I know that feeling of anxiety, and it’s one of the worst. Statistically, though, the likelihood of a false positive (abnormal) result is higher than a true positive, depending on how rare a true positive is. The more rare, the more likely that it is a false positive. (See Bayesian Probability if you want to be bored to sleep, lol).

You're right, so I shouldn't get too anxious about it until I have further results.