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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I’m a little embarrassed because I’m going to have to tell my psychiatrist again that I still haven’t found a therapist, which is mostly due to my lack of motivation. Most don’t match my criteria or don’t take my insurance. The few who do are either unavailable or virtual only. I understand the necessity of virtual appointments on occasion, but seriously fuck virtual appointments.
Bemused. Yesterday I went to bed almost feeling my rib injury was healed. Woke with it as bad as the day before, subsided a bit with painkillers but now I occasionally feel this crunching/shifting sensation when I change posture. It's not even painful and the rub is solid to the touch, I expect it's just the damaged muscle in between settling but it's quite disconcerting. Also have this sensation when I walk that something's sloshing around inside. But if the rib was broken or torn away from the muscle, I'd likely be in agony and approaching a serious crisis by now. But it's kind of meh! Annoying but not something I want to spend my day worrying about. I'm sure I had this when I did my ribs on the other side - for 2 months it felt like the ribs kept popping. Suppose I'll just keep taking the tablets, the garden needs doing but I am not handling shears right now, I might just go and get some weedkiller for the patio bit.
Im staying out in my van again tonight. Im getting a tattoo done tomorrow and its a long way from mine. Im looking forward to getting it done. But... im feeling so crap and alone from my missing person. Im trying to hold back writing another email to try and reach out to them. I will write another, but its just painfull not getting anything back or should i say i suppose not getting what i want. I dont think its much through after 27 years to have a conversation. Maybe i am asking too much, i dont know - its crazy though, its like they have been kidnapped and i not even getting a note.
Its just all the thoughts i having about the situation all the time, i cant even get away from it at night, as for the last 4 months ive been having dreams and nightmares about them every single night. I then wake up feeling really teerible.
Its just all the thoughts i having about the situation all the time, i cant even get away from it at night, as for the last 4 months ive been having dreams and nightmares about them every single night. I then wake up feeling really teerible.
LOL. I rang them once and they sent me to A&E for a graze. Doctor there was very bemused. I know someone who got toothache and they sent an ambulance out for them. I generally don't bother with things like that as my medical knowledge usually far exceeds whoever I'd speak to. I could have told them I didn't have concussion from a stumble. When I went to the doctor with actual smashed ribs (complete agony) he sent me up to A&E as well saying my lung wasn't working properly and they said WTF is he talking about we can't find anything wrong 😂 My trust in medical professionals is not usually very high based on a lot of personal experiences 😂
Not quite as bad as yesterday. Car seems to be driving okay even with the broken bolt which means at least for the moment fixing that can wait.
Work seems to be going well today. I figured out how to future proof and course correct on some mistakes I made.
I don't quite feel like death warmed over but I'm definitely feeling pretty whipped emotionally.
Work seems to be going well today. I figured out how to future proof and course correct on some mistakes I made.
I don't quite feel like death warmed over but I'm definitely feeling pretty whipped emotionally.
I know exactly how this is bc it's the same for me; feels like he's haunting me though I don't think he's dead. At least, afaik. Though, when I'm asleep with no dreams it's a great relief from the anxiety of it all. I hope you can get some closure Inastorm. I doubt I ever will and have been re-thinking how to go from here, meaning going forward (not to suicide).
I hope your tattoo goes well.
I hope your tattoo goes well.