How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[may71]

i just dont know if i can carry on

I hope you'll be able to find a way through.

 

[Inastorm]

I hope you'll be able to find a way through.

Im struggling so much with the radio silence.

 

[may71]

Do you know what folks here can do to help?

 

[1964dodge]

This is great to read Mike!

thank you, i told my pcp yesterday and i'm still doing pretty good except for a few nightmares because i stopped the mirtazepine which i'm sure is temporary

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Having a really hard time today. Just want to give up thinking about all the pain I've caused.

 

[1964dodge]

Self loathing and disgust has been quite overpowering for me lately.... more than usual. Isolation as well. i am tired of trying to continue on right now.

 

[Inastorm]

Do you know what folks here can do to help?

Hi @may71, is this aimed at me?, I'm not sure what you mean by your question?

 

[Inastorm]

Im struggling so much with the radio silence.

This radio silence is the radio silence from my previous relationship, as I have reached out to them often with no reply. Not radio silence from any people on the forum - is this how you took this @may71?

 

[1964dodge]

My grandson and daughter (30) share a birthday on June 1st. Its coming up to a year and I still haven't met him yet. This bewilders and hurts me. I question why she hasn't forgiven me or doesn't want me to meet her baby. I never beat her or talked down to her. I just wish that after all this time things were different.

I'm going to get him some books and outfits for his birthday and give it to my son to give to her. I was hoping that my SF friends here could say a prayer or send good thoughts that this situation improves. Thank you.

i did say a prayer just now that your daughter will do the right thing. not letting you see your grandchild is just cruel

mike....

 

[puffymilk]

Oh. Mood is a bit down now

 

[1964dodge]

feeling pretty good. been off antidepresents for a week or two now and doing pretty good. the weight clinic wanted me off mirtazepine because it causes weight gain but i have been on it for over 20 years and it helped keep me even. duloxetine is not good because of the side effects. my pcp wanted to know the side effects and it's kind of embarrasing but i told him, i also remembered it happened years ago when they tried it.

i tried to get a copy of my old registration for my 64 dodge where i used to live but they said they can't do it because it expired more than 30 days ago. well i called the city hall where i live now and they said i should have gotten it and not to worry. well after a little info they checked with the state and within an hour they called back and said i could register her anytime everything is done. we are finally starting to get the itch after seeing an antique car today, 3 months late but better than never lol

mike

 

[Inastorm]

feeling pretty good. been off antidepresents for a week or two now and doing pretty good. the weight clinic wanted me off mirtazepine because it causes weight gain but i have been on it for over 20 years and it helped keep me even. duloxetine is not good because of the side effects. my pcp wanted to know the side effects and it's kind of embarrasing but i told him, i also remembered it happened years ago when they tried it.

i tried to get a copy of my old registration for my 64 dodge where i used to live but they said they can't do it because it expired more than 30 days ago. well i called the city hall where i live now and they said i should have gotten it and not to worry. well after a little info they checked with the state and within an hour they called back and said i could register her anytime everything is done. we are finally starting to get the itch after seeing an antique car today, 3 months late but better than never lol

mike

That's really good that you have been off the mirtazepine. Ive been taking it for about 8 years. But it did cause me to gain a lot of weight too.

 

[Windhover]

@Inastorm

It has been weirdly familiar, and I'm sorry, the stuff you've been writing and some of what I am feeling and experiencing. It makes me wonder about the nature of the human brain, as in why do I and you it seems, feel so tightly bonded to our partners, while other people can walk away without taking on such damage.

I have no advice, but wish you well.

 

[1964dodge]

That's really good that you have been off the mirtazepine. Ive been taking it for about 8 years. But it did cause me to gain a lot of weight too.

i miss it because of positive side effects, positive dreams and on occasion when i get a bad dream it's like watching a movie so no fear. so i'm trying to go with no antidepressant for now. with the exception of a few nightmares i'm doing ok off it. good news is i have lorazepam if nightmares are bad.

mike....

 

[TragicReality]

The p doc I saw yesterday got me refills. Asked a while ago why I didn't get my meds. ''he's supposed to be very specific about the refill" I'm baffled. I'm tired. Another night with no sleep. I'll be hanging around here. I wish we all could get better, I wish this world wasn't so hard to live in.

 

[TragicReality]

i miss it because of positive side effects, positive dreams and on occasion when i get a bad dream it's like watching a movie so no fear. so i'm trying to go with no antidepressant for now. with the exception of a few nightmares i'm doing ok off it. good news is i have lorazepam if nightmares are bad.

mike....

I'm just saying what I'm thinking. Why take you off suddenly? There are withdrawals from antidepressants and that doesn't seem right. My mom was on that one near the end of her life. And she did calm down and slept much more. Hugs to you Mike, I hope you get a sleep that's good, and yes lorazepam will help you if those nightmares get bad. hug*

 

[1964dodge]

I'm just saying what I'm thinking. Why take you off suddenly? There are withdrawals from antidepressants and that doesn't seem right. My mom was on that one near the end of her life. And she did calm down and slept much more. Hugs to you Mike, I hope you get a sleep that's good, and yes lorazepam will help you if those nightmares get bad. hug*

i took myself off both antidepressants myself. mirtazepine first because of the weight doctor and the duloxetine because of personal side effects. i told my pcp a week after stopping the duloxetine, at least i told him lol

mike...

 

[Windhover]

@Reality I'm at a lostt for any helpful things to say right now. I wanted to tell you the kindness in your posts help very much for me to feel calmer and less alone.

 

[may71]

is this how you took this @may71?

No, I assumed you were talking about your previous relationship. I'm just wondering what ways folks here can best support you.

 

[FieryL]

Probably suppressed, because you can't continue feel like that for too long time, but really panicking about my future.