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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Me too.
I hurt people around me without intending to. It’s usually the people I care about the most, as a cruel irony. I try to apologize, unless it would fan the flames of their wrath. I think everyone does it.
The topic of this site is an extreme example of this irony, at least for me. It would hurt the people I care about, and the people who have hurt me so much that I internalized their abuse, would probably be indifferent or even gloat. Maybe not, but I would bet that they would have no grief over my departure.
Even more difficult is that I would cause the most grief for people close to me, going outward with their grief being proportional to how much I care about them.
I hurt people around me without intending to. It’s usually the people I care about the most, as a cruel irony. I try to apologize, unless it would fan the flames of their wrath. I think everyone does it.
The topic of this site is an extreme example of this irony, at least for me. It would hurt the people I care about, and the people who have hurt me so much that I internalized their abuse, would probably be indifferent or even gloat. Maybe not, but I would bet that they would have no grief over my departure.
Even more difficult is that I would cause the most grief for people close to me, going outward with their grief being proportional to how much I care about them.
Someone with chronic illness should understand but I'm talking about myself that my adrenal insufficiency feels like I'm dealing with "tired all the time but can't relax" paradox, altho I have kpins to help me relax and good quality sleep but it does affect me to not have good quality sleep consistently so its hard not to feel achy every morning yet I know I can't be too inactive either just cus I'm tired all the time. As long as I take control of my productivity, releasing stress is difficult however much I want to train my body cus I'm trying to be aware of how my energy work and how I should deal with my own pace. I can't wait for 11/06 off day for medical apt again.
i duno if it would help or bring back not so nice feelings... however, i would like to suggest that maybe you could paint. Painting used to allow you to let your feelings out. Maybe if you painted, your feelings that you cant pin down might show through your art. Then you could work through them. Just a suggestion... only if it doesn't bring back what you have been working so hard at getting over.
My upstairs neighbors continue to be loud when I want to sleep. When they finally stopped at almost 2 am I played one song a bit loud so they can hear, I hope they get the hint. The floors squeak so much too, even my floor. and it's a fairly new building, I don't get it.
My s.i. joints and back hurt, trying to pick as much off the floor before I have a cleaning lady. I just can't mop or vacuum like I used to, or clean the tub. I'm really tempted to cancel out of embarassment, but a deal is a deal so I might hide some junk behind my bed that's on the floor, turn the mattress up to not see it. nothing ever got spilled there. Its kind of an intimate thing, people see how I live and what I have (not much thank goodness).. she said expect it to be 6 hours, umm, yeah no way it will take them long, it's just a one bedroom apartment. It's worth it to me to feel better in here, it's a one time thing so I'll never see them again.
My s.i. joints and back hurt, trying to pick as much off the floor before I have a cleaning lady. I just can't mop or vacuum like I used to, or clean the tub. I'm really tempted to cancel out of embarassment, but a deal is a deal so I might hide some junk behind my bed that's on the floor, turn the mattress up to not see it. nothing ever got spilled there. Its kind of an intimate thing, people see how I live and what I have (not much thank goodness).. she said expect it to be 6 hours, umm, yeah no way it will take them long, it's just a one bedroom apartment. It's worth it to me to feel better in here, it's a one time thing so I'll never see them again.
That’s amazing that a cleaning person or company would spend 6 hours in a home. At some kind of a reasonable kind of price. Astounding actually since I know most around my area only come for 2 maybe 3 hours in a house. I’m sorry to hear you are in the kind of pain that prevents you from doing some of the cleaning. There’s no need to worry or be embarrassed…I’m glad to hear you are having it done!
Im tending to only be able to expression how im feeling in single words - sad/ lost/ unhappy.
Though this isnt a new thing for me but its really frustrating me. I like your expression that its ran away in the dark and hid.
I think i have Alexithymia because of how i am with emotions.
I hope you find whats hiding from you.
Though this isnt a new thing for me but its really frustrating me. I like your expression that its ran away in the dark and hid.
I think i have Alexithymia because of how i am with emotions.
I hope you find whats hiding from you.
Thanks I hope you are able to find a way to your self too. It is really frustrating I agree. I guess at least I know I'm feeling annoyed. Is Alexithymia a symptom of autism, or do some neurotypical people have it independently of other things?
I have always had trouble with this but it is a direct result of a lack of safety, "be quiet or else," as a child. There was emotional and physical abuse in my family.
I have always had trouble with this but it is a direct result of a lack of safety, "be quiet or else," as a child. There was emotional and physical abuse in my family.
Alexithymia can be linked with autism but doesnt have to be. I have a complicated up bringing, well it seems straight forward and simple but I think there was a lot of shut up or get a smack as a child, but not abuse of any kind. I was bullied all through school and then at 16 broke loose and ended up taking drugs for a few years, becoming a cool kid and then fell into depression when I gave up the drugs, well saying that I think I was having issues since my teens.
I don't know if it's just my up bringing or autism or a personality disorder.
Sorry to hear you have had emotional and physical abuse in your family.
I don't know if it's just my up bringing or autism or a personality disorder.
Sorry to hear you have had emotional and physical abuse in your family.
it is an honor but it should have been an honor to be considered. they should have asked so you wouldn't be in this position to refuse something hard to do and it wastes their time looking for someone else. they should have asked for volunteers then held an election. i think one problem is they think if people are retired they have all day to do things and they don't look at the true health of retired people
mike....
mike....