How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[ClassicsFan]

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[1964dodge]

The way I always feel at the start of another useless, unwanted day. I want it all to be over.

 

[1964dodge]

Sending a wave, and a hug, and hope you are doing alright Mike.

thank you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Extremely terrible, I made a post about it

i hope you feel better soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Hope it's ok to add, from me too Mike @1964dodge , I've been thinking of you, and I'm also sending you good thoughts, that I hope you're as ok as can be, and a hug.

thank you @Reality

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I'm not doing so well. I've been self isolating. The relationship that seemed to be going so well completely fell apart last night in an embarrassing way (we were on Facetime after spending the whole day talking when her best friend walked in her room and kissed her full on the mouth...so...yeah). I feel mortified I liked her and trusted that she liked me too. On top of that I got some upsetting medical news this week and I just feel like I don't understand what the point of trying is anymore when life just feels like non-stop pain.

 

[1964dodge]

starting to feel better and more like myself

mike

 

[KM76710]

starting to feel better and more like myself

mike

That is a good update, glad you are doing better. I hope that it continues that direction for you.

 

[1964dodge]

Sorry to hear this. And hope that things will improve very soon.

thank you @Lane

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I had a nice talk with a neigbor. He was the friendly from the start, was listening every time I went out. This time I think I did a better job at listening to him too. It's better than me going on and on, he had some suggestions and advice that I like. We didn't get rain for a long time, it was so hot. Now it's cooling off and I don't need the a/c tonight. I feel pretty good considering I used up my opiods the day before yesterday.

I'm wondering if anyone has heard from @1964dodge . Getting concerned. I hope you're ok as can be Mike.

I've had to cut my son off from support, I tried helping but he got out of hand, even the lady at the store stopped and talked to me and said she felt for me, understanding herself, he own son hasn't talked to her in years she said. He was shouting in the store that I'm a fn ******I can't give him money, he threatened to buy Fentanyl and I won't give him the opportunity. He was showered, so he still has support from the community in town here, albeit it's not much.

thank you for your concern @Reality , i've been going through a tough time but i'm healing and i'm back and a bit better

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

That is a good update, glad you are doing better. I hope that it continues that direction for you.

thank you @KM76710 it means a lot to me

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

Same as Reality, I've been wondering about Mike, @1964dodge too, as well as @Gard . I hope they're both alright.

@Reality I may have have mentioned it once or twice; I support you in that extremely difficult decision. I hope you know it's so: you're held in high esteem here.

 

[chiastic_slide]

Been a bit better. temperature might actually be going down.

Found my forest yesterday. Totally forgot we have one. And that it was the sanctuary this whole time. So dense trees, the sun can’t get in.

 

[Lane]

Been a bit better. temperature might actually be going down.

Found my forest yesterday. Totally forgot we have one. And that it was the sanctuary this whole time. So dense trees, the sun can’t get in.

Sounds nice n cool. I luv walking through a forest.

 

[SillyOldBear]

starting to feel better and more like myself

mike

Good to hear Mike.

 

[Gabby girl]

weird. like all over the place. excited but sad. angry yet exicted for the future. sad to have to do it but excited for how much stress ill not have to deal with. (im autistic, i overstim very easily)

 

[AvidFan]

starting to feel better and more like myself

mike

Glad to hear this and sorry you have been having such a rough time by the sounds of it.

 

[AvidFan]

Tired. I got some sleep last night, and just pottered around today. I usually do a few hours light work on a Saturday but I might just skip it today, unless I find the mojo later. I think my brain is exhausted and needs to stop for a while.

 

[LumberJack]

I went to bed early (for me) last night so that I could wake up early and get my errands done before it’s too hot out. Yes, I have a/c in my car, but it’s got a lot of work to do when it’s 90+ outside and 120 f inside the car because covered parking is just not a thing here.

I got out of bed and thought I would have a relaxing morning and make my to-do list as per my usual routine. I was enjoying listening to music and having the screen door open with a fan bringing in fresh air from outside.

Then, out of nowhere, I went from feeling ok, maybe even content, to my entire world going dark. That’s not the right word visually, but that’s exactly how it felt inside. Just…. The sun is gone, and nothing will ever get better or even slow down the pace at which it is getting worse. I don’t want to be alive and wish I had never been born. I’m going to take it as a sign that I need to have a slower pace today. I’m going to treat myself like someone who needs my attention. It’s almost entirely loneliness, although there’s plenty more to be upset about. I’m thinking of who I might call. It would be nice to chat with a relative for no particular reason, but I’m afraid that I might stress them out if they ask how I am doing, and I answer honestly.

I feel like I don’t belong. Not as in location, but rather as in belonging anywhere is an attribute entirely unavailable to me because of the essence of the thing I call myself. It hurts.

 

[1964dodge]

Glad to hear this and sorry you have been having such a rough time by the sounds of it.

thank you @AvidFan

mike....