How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

I’m unwell. I have lost all interest in anything, and I keep wondering when my time in this meat-suit will finally end. I’m not identifying with my body, and I’m not afraid of death. I’m more afraid of staying alive too much longer.

@LumberJack, difficult times can pass. You are such a great guy and I hope that those intrusive thoughts disappear.

 

[Windhover]

I'm feeling hyper, and maybe sort of numb. Not due to an ingested substance, just the way my brain is working lately. I hope this lasts longer than usual. It's the other side of it where misery waits.

 

[Gonz]

I'm feeling hyper, and maybe sort of numb. Not due to an ingested substance, just the way my brain is working lately. I hope this lasts longer than usual. It's the other side of it where misery waits.

That sounds an awful lot like bipolar disorder. I’m not trying to diagnose you, just making an observation.

That’s not necessarily a bad thing, if it’s the case. My own experiences with “hypomanic episodes” have been largely positive.

The comedown is a real killer though, it’s you mentioning that that made me think of it.

 

[AvidFan]

Laughing. Who should call today but the roofer wanting to fix the issue. The power of a well written review that nukes their reputation....

 

[Windhover]

That sounds an awful lot like bipolar disorder. I’m not trying to diagnose you, just making an observation.

That’s not necessarily a bad thing, if it’s the case. My own experiences with “hypomanic episodes” have been largely positive.

The comedown is a real killer though, it’s you mentioning that that made me think of it.

I've not been diagnosed, but I've suspected it, as my little brother had the same traits except even more pronounced to put it mildly. Since I'm an artist and it's common among us creatives, I have as it were two strikes against me. Exercise helps so much; I can't function as well without it.

How are you doing @Gonz. I hope as well as can be.

 

[Lonely dude30]

Happy I got paid today at work

 

[Aurelia]

Was baptized today in the Name of Jesus! ❤️ Feeling good about my new birthday.

 

[1964dodge]

We're glad you're here too @1964dodge . Sending Get-well-soon energy : ) to you.

thank you @seabird
mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Wanting a way out.

 

[1964dodge]

get well soon mike

thank you janis

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Not been here for a while. Thought I’d drop in as I’m struggling to sleep again. Seem to have more nights unable to sleep than ones I can atm. So lying here, head going around in circles. I should be tired, earlier I was feeling exhausted, but it doesn’t seem to matter how hard a day I’ve had or how tired I feel, I come to bed and just lie here. It’s infuriating.
Hope everyone is managing ok. I know life can be tough. Sending ((hugs)) to those who need one.

 

[1964dodge]

Like I don't want to be in this world any more. Longing to use my method. Suppose in actual fact I'll hang on one more day. Then what? I'm sick of my life just being hanging on for another day, all I'm doing is surviving and it's becoming unbearable.

 

[1964dodge]

To be honest, it's not really about that; although I can see why you've interpreted it that way, from the small amount of information I have given.

He has begged for my help, but this man has done some dreadful things, throughout his life, and I am trying to work out if it's correct to get involved with a person like that, and if they really are capable of remorse or whether the Devil will continue to act through them and potentially against me, as I help them. If you see.

in that case i understand you wanting to help. if you decide to help lay groundrules and limits. basically, they start over today the past being the past and the future with them being morally acceptable. you have a great opportunity to help someone be a better person but please proceed with caution if you do help

mike...

 

[Harrow]

I really don't know if to help an acquaintance who is morally bankrupt. I am looking for advice. Is it safe to even get in with them to do this? I'm not sure.

I think it's hard not to help sometime. With the way we are. But sometimes people make their own choices. And in my opinion as hard as it is, it is better to to just walk away and leave them too it.

 

[Harrow]

In just really tired of life and people. I haven't worked, exercised, studied, I've even hardy read in days. I just feel so over life at the moment.

 

[1964dodge]

Happy, the girls decorated my cubicle for my birthday. View attachment 73322

happy belated birthday

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I can't do this anymore, nothing is changing in my life. I've never felt such pain and loneliness before. I'm in a foreign country I moved with my partner in so we could be closer and together but I don't like it here. I don't even want to learn the language. I have no friends no family, I'm misunderstood and not heard by my partner, I don't have his support. I stay home and I feel so isolated. Now we have other problems. Soon we are visiting his family but I don't like being there either, I don't understand them, I don't talk to anyone that much, it's not pleasant there, I told it to him before and he was upset. He's upset I don't want to go but I feel like I have to. I visit my family alone. I never wanted to be this close to my partner's family. He said I'm a terrible person. He said he's only with me because I'm staying with him and he can't kick me out. I really wonder what I did in my previous life to have such a curse on me.

i'm sorry he treats you so poorly. is it possible to move back to your original country ?

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

In just really tired of life and people. I haven't worked, exercised, studied, I've even hardy read in days. I just feel so over life at the moment.

 

[1964dodge]

Laughing. Who should call today but the roofer wanting to fix the issue. The power of a well written review that nukes their reputation....

i hope they do the repair correctly

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

still not great but surviving

mike