How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inastorm]

i went to see my probation officer but i had to see someone else she wasnt there. this person i never met.

i specificed mental health concerns specificially agoraphobia low self esteem and self comparison (but also housing, jobs)
and that i was being harrassed

was i being too open?

Not at all, your probation officer needs to know all these things and will try and help you based on what you say, so yeah, it's good you were open.

 

[Lane]

I'm not feeling well at all. Someone is crying from my eyes (we're DID), & I'm feeling very cold (have chills) because a memory is coming up. Such bad timing. I have to go to work later. I don't know how I'm going to manage everything. I'm still struggling with suicidal thoughts, impulses/urges on top of everything. I just want to hide under a rock right now. God help me...

@mosaic hearts, sorry to hear that youre having a difficult time right now. Please stay safe and i hope you can find some peace very soon.

 

[James198709]

I’m feeling terrible. My mum has terminal cancer and prior to this my wife&I had some problems with my untreated anxiety (self medication) and has now maybe just 2 months ago hit me with I want a divorce you have leave. Married 10 together 17.2 kids. Not always happy as is life up/down but I feel like I have no way out. Recently quit job too. She’s always been the one I relied on for emotional support (bad move) I just feel like she’s so cold and doesn’t how powerful my feelings are. I seriously want to make all of these tears/stress permanently stop.

 

[may71]

I'm sorry you're going through this @James198709

I hope you'll start a thread about this if you'd like to.

Do you feel like there's some chance that the marriage could still be saved or that it's too late for that?

I hope that things can get better somehow.

 

[crowgarden]

I think I'm in love.

 

[AvidFan]

I’m feeling terrible. My mum has terminal cancer and prior to this my wife&I had some problems with my untreated anxiety (self medication) and has now maybe just 2 months ago hit me with I want a divorce you have leave. Married 10 together 17.2 kids. Not always happy as is life up/down but I feel like I have no way out. Recently quit job too. She’s always been the one I relied on for emotional support (bad move) I just feel like she’s so cold and doesn’t how powerful my feelings are. I seriously want to make all of these tears/stress permanently stop.

So sorry to hear what you're going through. I don't know how, but you can get through this, and I really hope you will. You are going through a lot.

 

[AvidFan]

I feel OK. Probably best I've felt in quite a while. Think my nervous system is slowly recalibrating. Had a bonus tonight, it's stormy and wet out but had already done my 10,000 steps today with my run, so get to stay inside 😂

 

[Windhover]

@James198709
Welcome to SF. You're among people who understand, and not alone when you're here.

I'm sad to hear what's going on all at once and seemingly wrong. It's terribly hard to try to get through when life stacks up so much change and trauma.

I hope you are safe. It's a safe community here to write about and get responses to your experiences and feelings.

Please keep posting.

 

[KM76710]

I’m feeling terrible. My mum has terminal cancer and prior to this my wife&I had some problems with my untreated anxiety (self medication) and has now maybe just 2 months ago hit me with I want a divorce you have leave. Married 10 together 17.2 kids. Not always happy as is life up/down but I feel like I have no way out. Recently quit job too. She’s always been the one I relied on for emotional support (bad move) I just feel like she’s so cold and doesn’t how powerful my feelings are. I seriously want to make all of these tears/stress permanently stop.

Sad to hear about the negatives that you have been and are going through, but I am glad you are posting here. I hope that you continue and that you see the support and caring provided here for you and others. This is a welcoming forum.

 

[Lane]

I’m feeling terrible. My mum has terminal cancer and prior to this my wife&I had some problems with my untreated anxiety (self medication) and has now maybe just 2 months ago hit me with I want a divorce you have leave. Married 10 together 17.2 kids. Not always happy as is life up/down but I feel like I have no way out. Recently quit job too. She’s always been the one I relied on for emotional support (bad move) I just feel like she’s so cold and doesn’t how powerful my feelings are. I seriously want to make all of these tears/stress permanently stop.

Welcome to SF @James198709. You're going through so much at once, but glad that you found us here. I really believe that people are stronger than they realize. Im sorry about your mom and troubles in your marriage. Have you both considered marriage counseling or even on your own?

 

[Lane]

Dreams about my ex husband always shake me up and leave me second guessing my decision to leave. But it's 30 years later and ots ridiculous. I do believe that I left in haste and because I was impulsive and naive back then. But as my mother used to say, "there's no use crying over spilt milk".

 

[Lane]

I feel OK. Probably best I've felt in quite a while. Think my nervous system is slowly recalibrating. Had a bonus tonight, it's stormy and wet out but had already done my 10,000 steps today with my run, so get to stay inside 😂

Happy to hear this news Avid. Do you think your running helps with your mental health? I ask because I've been pushing myself to walk 2 miles per day. Even thought about jogging.

 

[Lane]

I think I'm in love.

happy to hear.

 

[AvidFan]

Happy to hear this news Avid. Do you think your running helps with your mental health? I ask because I've been pushing myself to walk 2 miles per day. Even thought about jogging.

Definitely. Movement is medicine. The research suggests exercise is as at least as good for mental health as SSRIs. That's what made it so hard when everything fell apart again at the same time I got my back injury and couldn't run at all for months - the 10,000 steps walking a day really helped me. At first it was difficult to get up to 10,000 steps, but now it feels like part of the routine. I'd just set a doable target whether walking or trying jogging and stick to it - could be 5,000 steps, 2 miles, whatever. 🙂

 

[AvidFan]

Fairly relaxed. Tis my birthday so have taken day off work (as much as possible in a fast moving 24/7 environment, some emails and actions need doing but no draining meetings or contact!).

 

[SillyOldBear]

Fairly relaxed. Tis my birthday so have taken day off work (as much as possible in a fast moving 24/7 environment, some emails and actions need doing but no draining meetings or contact!).

 

[Bergerac]

Fairly relaxed. Tis my birthday so have taken day off work (as much as possible in a fast moving 24/7 environment, some emails and actions need doing but no draining meetings or contact!).

Happy Birthday!!! <3 I hope you've been enjoying your day, so far. x

 

[may71]

Tis my birthday

Wishing you a happy birthday

 

[may71]

I think I'm in love

Hey that's great news! You're welcome to say more about it if you'd like to but it's also ok if you don't feel ready to.

 

[AmberMarie]

Fairly relaxed. Tis my birthday so have taken day off work (as much as possible in a fast moving 24/7 environment, some emails and actions need doing but no draining meetings or contact!).