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KM76710

Kangaroo Manager
SF Pro
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I feel so upset. Long story short, I may have endometrial cancer, and I need a biopsy to confirm. The biopsy, under anesthesia will cost about $400 and require someone to drive me to another town. I could do the biopsy in the gynecologist's office but that would be without anesthesia. I don't know what to do.

Anybody with experience with endometrial biopsies?
You have my thoughts with you for no cancer at all, or benign if any. Cancer is a dread disease that is scary and I hope you are free of it...
 

Mid Night

Well-Known Member
My friend who has cancer is struggling through her first week of chemo. I have been to the drug store twice today and once earlier in the week for her medicine. This is when the rubber hits the road. I would want to die if I had her chemo regimen - she's struggling through. Makes me realize how lucky i am. Other years I would want to take her cancer and die but now I want to live.

But it's dragging me down watching her struggle.

Sending you and your friend my own kind of prayers cymbele. *shake
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
I'm agitated. IDK what to do - my emotions are raw af and everything that is slightly emotional feels like I'm going to break entirely. Minor inconveniences feel like freakin fires in a fertilizer factory. It does not seem like a coincidence that this begins just as I am starting to turn around and face this pain that I've been hiding from in compulsive avoidance. It's not like I was running away for no reason.

I know what everyone else should do and i get irritable about their failure to recognize what they are doing to sabotage themselves. To my credit, I am refraining from telling them what I think they should do or that I know (oh so much more about) how to handle their lives. I believe it has a LOT to do with my frustration over my own poor judgement. I could write the textbook on how to learn to do something and then be completely useless at actually doing the thing in question.

I am getting more than a few intrusive thoughts. It's not too early to start getting ready for bed, though.
 

AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
SF Supporter
I feel so upset. Long story short, I may have endometrial cancer, and I need a biopsy to confirm. The biopsy, under anesthesia will cost about $400 and require someone to drive me to another town. I could do the biopsy in the gynecologist's office but that would be without anesthesia. I don't know what to do.

Anybody with experience with endometrial biopsies?
No experience but sending you ❤️❤️❤️
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
I feel so upset. Long story short, I may have endometrial cancer, and I need a biopsy to confirm. The biopsy, under anesthesia will cost about $400 and require someone to drive me to another town. I could do the biopsy in the gynecologist's office but that would be without anesthesia. I don't know what to do.

Anybody with experience with endometrial biopsies?
Wishing you only good health Angie. *console
 
I feel so upset. Long story short, I may have endometrial cancer, and I need a biopsy to confirm. The biopsy, under anesthesia will cost about $400 and require someone to drive me to another town. I could do the biopsy in the gynecologist's office but that would be without anesthesia. I don't know what to do.

Anybody with experience with endometrial biopsies?
No help here but sending warm wishes
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
Feeling optimistic. My niece hasn't drank in 3 days and seems to be doing well. I only have a 3 day work week this week then going on 4 day vaca with fiancé. We're meeting in Atlanta then flying to Bahamas. I hope I can be patient and kind.
The first 3 days are the hardest. That’s about how long it takes for all the effects of a night of drinking to wear off. The next week or so will be no picnic, though, depending on how much and for how long she had been drinking, plus the other variables too numerous to know. 🩷
 

3nufk1n.sheepies

autistic apoxian eastern european toker
I feel way too much like a square and not a circle and thst makes me really dysphoric

Squares is being dramatic. making a big deal. being kinda formal. writing or talking like AI. having an outdated mentality.
Circled is relaxed, nonchalant. Fun loving but in a more muted, introverted way. Soft. Independent, individualistic. Is themselves, is never performative or people pleasing. Calm, but far from robotic, tone of voice.

Think apples vs bananas, 90s vs 2000s, researching stuff for pleasure vs watching cartoons and doing art.

on another note i hate how much my voice changes when i am really distressed. normally it sounds ok but when i am upset the pitch is higher, it sounds louder and more tense, nd my accent goes ugly.
 

3nufk1n.sheepies

autistic apoxian eastern european toker
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I feel way too much like a square and not a circle and thst makes me really dysphoric

Squares is being dramatic. making a big deal. being kinda formal. writing or talking like AI. having an outdated mentality.
Circled is relaxed, nonchalant. Fun loving but in a more muted, introverted way. Soft. Independent, individualistic. Is themselves, is never performative or people pleasing. Calm, but far from robotic, tone of voice.

Think apples vs bananas, 90s vs 2000s, researching stuff for pleasure vs watching cartoons and doing art.

on another note i hate how much my voice changes when i am really distressed. normally it sounds ok but when i am upset the pitch is higher, it sounds louder and more tense, nd my accent goes ugly.
long story short i just feel like i am way too uncool and it reslly bothers me i hate it
 
I feel way too much like a square and not a circle and thst makes me really dysphoric

Squares is being dramatic. making a big deal. being kinda formal. writing or talking like AI. having an outdated mentality.
Circled is relaxed, nonchalant. Fun loving but in a more muted, introverted way. Soft. Independent, individualistic. Is themselves, is never performative or people pleasing. Calm, but far from robotic, tone of voice.

Think apples vs bananas, 90s vs 2000s, researching stuff for pleasure vs watching cartoons and doing art.
I love the way you have written this.
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
My life is shit, people I love keep dying or leaving, the world is going to hell, and aside from not hurting what’s left of my family, I don’t see any real reason to keep going. I’m tired, I’m running on fumes and I don’t know how much farther I can go.
Life can be so hard and sometimes it's not fair, the hand we're dealt. I admire your strength Gonz. There are many here that care about you. *console
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
To say it bothers me does not describe adequately the feeling for when I read how much pain and tiredmess many of us here are experiencing.

I'm sort of alright but not really. I don't know for sure. It could be progress if I've found and am practicing a kind of mindfulness that's helping, or it might be an approaching 'bridge out' sign if all I've done is built a defensive structure under which the distress over losing home and relationship is stufffed.
 

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