Sorry to hear things are difficult @total eclipse. I hope it can turn around real soon.
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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Not entirely sure. Eventually went to sleep sometime after 1.30am. Woke up at 3am, and that was pretty much the end of any proper sleep - despite the amitriptyline reinstatement. Watch showed less stress yesterday, and had more rest today but am not out of the woods, my head doesn't seem to be glitching as much, but haven't tried doing anything with high cognitive load just yet. Have shuffled things to give myself an extra day off tomorrow, and make a long weekend of it to rest and see how the medication stabilises - or not, as the case may be. So just have to get through a commute each way and 2 meetings, alongside bits of admin and plate spinning...
Well I feel a bit more relaxed not much but its better than being manic
after my talk with the doctor seems I was on a low dose of my anti depressant they had lowered it over the last years to 15mg he is uping it to 30 and gave me the phone number for therapy program I was in in 2021-22
also had a chat about trying to repair the damage to my face says I should hit my dentist up and see if there is anything going on still if there is get it sorted but either way give it to the new year to settle and they want me to go in for tests but said it would be major surgery and would likely have complications
after my talk with the doctor seems I was on a low dose of my anti depressant they had lowered it over the last years to 15mg he is uping it to 30 and gave me the phone number for therapy program I was in in 2021-22
also had a chat about trying to repair the damage to my face says I should hit my dentist up and see if there is anything going on still if there is get it sorted but either way give it to the new year to settle and they want me to go in for tests but said it would be major surgery and would likely have complications
Head feels squashed. I survived my meetings, couldn't be bothered with bus so jumped in a black cab. That was a weird experience - I always take a £20 note and as soon as the meter gets up to £19-something I tell them to stop and I'll walk the last 2 minutes. This time he stopped on £19.40 and then next minute it said £21.80. Don't know if it was a glitch or he fiddled with it, but I didn't argue and paid the extra. Also discovered my sunglasses had fallen out of my pocket at some point so have lost them. Last night it was the cat treats from the other pocket. Don't care, have a spare pair of shades and replaced the treats already. Now ordered pizza and waiting for the knock at the door. I'm shattered, but it feels the shattered of not sleeping, rather than medication withdrawal shattered. I just hope I can sleep when this medication kicks in properly - might take 48-72 hours to settle in fully. The change to my heart rate and stress level speaks volumes - got in after all that and my heart rate is 68 and watch says I'm at rest - which is at it should be sitting on the sofa! Got 3 days to try to recover. I was firm about not adding any more meetings to a very full week next week, it might not be popular but I've rediscovered the skill of saying no.
F***ing loud-ass ankle biters! Chihuahuas are more common, but they are not the only ones. They are one person dogs, meaning they are delightful to that one person, but horrid to anyone else. Add to that the carelessness some owners exhibit by failing to train their tiny beasts, and you get "small dog syndrome," which is more aptly titled, "my dog is a sh*t because I can't be arsed to train the feral little bastard" syndrome.
Trust me, I live in an apartment complex that has a lot of these. gah. thanks for letting me vent, although I'm guessing that was not your intention, lol
Trust me, I live in an apartment complex that has a lot of these. gah. thanks for letting me vent, although I'm guessing that was not your intention, lol
I'm feeling insane, to put it mildly. I'm struggling with the internal dynamic of I know what I need to do. I have skills, I have understanding, I have experience. So, I should be able to get my act together. At the same time, I'm also only too skilled at deceiving myself. I get upset and then I stop thinking about solutions and instead obsess over past mistakes and grudges, along with fears of future mayhem that are usually worse than what actually happens.
This is an ongoing dilemma for me. I know what to do. I know why I should want to do it. What I need and don't have right now, is the first clue of how to keep myself on track. I'm working on it. Probably going to participate in a group support thing for neuro-spicy individuals. It's about relating to normies - I really need this so I hope I can get in.
This is an ongoing dilemma for me. I know what to do. I know why I should want to do it. What I need and don't have right now, is the first clue of how to keep myself on track. I'm working on it. Probably going to participate in a group support thing for neuro-spicy individuals. It's about relating to normies - I really need this so I hope I can get in.
Being very philosophical today. Cab overcharged me mysteriously, lost sunglasses to the pocket goblins, and my TV finally died the minute I started chomping on my pizza.... Have managed to not flip. Just ordered a new telly. My previous one has lived since 2004, so I am likely getting an upgrade....
The story I've heard is that Chihuahuas won't be mean unless they've been bred unethically/incorrectly. A friend had a Chihuahua (part Chihuahua?) and it was quite sweet. It would go nuts if it thought another dog was invading it's territory, but otherwise it was very sweet. I think it liked me because I learned how to rub his chest and his ears just the way he liked, but in any case we became best buddies.
Apparently, either early today or yesterday, I wrote a note here to @AmberMarie and forgot to press post. So I will post it now. (h) AmberMarie.
