How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[MAC0]

Starting to turn the corner on my flu still not 100% fit but getting better got some concentration back which is great as I can now think and do things

 

[SillyOldBear]

Sorry to hear what you're going through it sounds awful. I did my best to not reach 50 but these stupid human bodies seem like they can take a battering and just keep going with bits falling apart all over the place - like one of those cartoon cars where everything falls off but it still keeps moving forward...

Yeah, life has to torture you for years and years before letting go.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Well I just ordered a blood pressure monitor docs want me to have. Also some more elastic cohesive bandages to hold catheter in place. One thing they didn't tell you is that even with catheter in place you will still feel the urge to urinate. But you have to ignore it. It really sucks.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Well I just ordered a blood pressure monitor docs want me to have. Also some more elastic cohesive bandages to hold catheter in place. One thing they didn't tell you is that even with catheter in place you will still feel the urge to urinate. But you have to ignore it. It really sucks.

It shouldn’t make you feel prolonged urgency. (Usually!)
Do you think the urine draining ok? Possible clog or kinked tubing?

 

[SillyOldBear]

It shouldn’t make you feel prolonged urgency. (Usually!)
Do you think the urine draining ok? Possible clog or kinked tubing?

No urgency is not prolonged.

 

[Windhover]

(h) of the healing and comforting sort to you @SillyOldBear . With what you've been through, I hope today brings some recoup of your energy, and peace. I'm sorry the medical system is so f-ing blasted sucky.

 

[AvidFan]

Up and down. These waves and windows lately are hard to navigate. Yesterday morning, shit and exhausted. Yesterday afternoon - on top of the world, no problem, everything seemed manageable, felt confident I could do anything. Last night and this morning - bloody awful, feeling like I couldn't get through another day. This evening, bouncing around like I'm on something I got off Dr Feelgood. Starting to get a bit tired now, but still didn't get a huge amount of sleep. I think it might be my body cycling back on to the full dose of amitriptyline, can take a while. See what tonight brings.

 

[KM76710]

Chilled and drowsy. Ain't that a great combo? With luck after the doctor visit tomorrow I will know what I have and how much and how long to look forward to.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Chilled and drowsy. Ain't that a great combo? With luck after the doctor visit tomorrow I will know what I have and how much and how long to look forward to.

I hope you get a good report.

 

[LumberJack]

Crappy. I've been spinning on anger and resentments all day and I'm tired from all that energy expenditure. I promise I am trying to accept, and I am starting to be able to from time to time. But when my sleep is low and my stress is high, I have real challenges managing that. Going to a peer support group soon IDK if I will talk about the specific thing, but I can talk about the fact that my resentment feels like a monster that is eating me alive.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Crappy. I've been spinning on anger and resentments all day and I'm tired from all that energy expenditure. I promise I am trying to accept, and I am starting to be able to from time to time. But when my sleep is low and my stress is high, I have real challenges managing that. Going to a peer support group soon IDK if I will talk about the specific thing, but I can talk about the fact that my resentment feels like a monster that is eating me alive.

I hope you can lose the monster at the group. You need a break.

 

[Windhover]

I feel sorted for the moment, for this evening, grateful for this. I have some good work started. It's always such a relief when the flow of it comes around again. I am fortunate he wasn't able to introduce his negatiity and doubt into my work.

 

[Angie]

It is 3:30 am and I have had a shower and done my hair. What to do with the rest of the night?

I'm really trying not to worry about the medical issues I have. I know I need to take one obstacle at a time.

Today's obstacle is an appointment in another town with a cardiologist. I am going to drive myself to this one. It has gotten to where I am afraid to drive in any kind of traffic.

 

[AmberMarie]

i feel like i am always in everyone's way. Too broken... too needy... too damaged... and never enough. Like i can't do anything correctly and everything i touch seems to get ruined. i feel as though i have had all i can take. i can't keep going like this. i am too tired...

 

[Lane]

Chilled and drowsy. Ain't that a great combo? With luck after the doctor visit tomorrow I will know what I have and how much and how long to look forward to.

I hope your doctor visit goes well @KM76710. Wishing you good health and peace.

 

[Lane]

It is 3:30 am and I have had a shower and done my hair. What to do with the rest of the night?

I'm really trying not to worry about the medical issues I have. I know I need to take one obstacle at a time.

Today's obstacle is an appointment in another town with a cardiologist. I am going to drive myself to this one. It has gotten to where I am afraid to drive in any kind of traffic.

I understand the fear in driving, for me it's new places and nighttime.i hope your appointment goes well Angie

 

[Lane]

I was anxious yesterday and I think it's because I was home alone for an extended period. Also thinking alot about the compatibility of me and my fiance and realizing my life as I know it isn't forever. Im torn between being alone, having my independence, I like sleeping by myself...and having someone there with you. Ive mentioned before that my partner has quirks, over talking, bad jokes, ADHD..
I feel like he disrupts my peace

 

[cymbele]

Anxious. As i posted in Petty complaints, my friend has pushed the last remaining family member away from him leaving me as his only human contact. I don't think I can handle the pressure. It took an ativan and ambien to get some sleep last night. No I can't talk to him about this because I feel sorry for him and he has adopted a position of victimhood. But it is heading to a crisis and I don't know how it will end up. he says he thinks of suicide every day. But my life has to go on.

 

[AvidFan]

Surviving somehow. Early start, early meeting today. Feel a bit dazed but relatively clear headed, long meeting then a short one to go, finish at 5 then can do some admin before getting bus home at about 6. Feel really tired but at least a bit calmer than I have been. Hope everyone is having a good day and if not a good one, at least not a shit one. ❤️

 

[LumberJack]

I hate my life and everything I’ve done with it.

I am pointless. Whether or not I decided to exist in some mystical dimension, it was a mistake. Sometimes I hear statements like, “ there are no mistakes in the universe,” but I think that is a cop-out. If there’s anything good in the world, then in the same sense there’s also hell.