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Congratsbaby

Mentally/emotionally/physically unstable but tryin
Struggling. I was going to write more, wanting to express myself with the cringy metaphors then reminded myself how often I've been doing that.
I don't find your metaphors cringey. I find them beautifully written , not trying to romanticise trauma but I think I have expressed before that I like how you write.
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
That's nice of you to say, and well put @Congratsbaby.
Sometims, reading a line I've written, I see that while I have compassion for the feelings I'm also very tired of them. . It's like a certain level of anxiety, not the worst level, but that one where it's time to stop feeling jangly, worn, and riled up. I see the metaphor describing all of it, and want to move on past it immediately.
 

Congratsbaby

Mentally/emotionally/physically unstable but tryin
That's nice of you to say, and well put @Congratsbaby.
Sometims, reading a line I've written, I see that while I have compassion for the feelings I'm also very tired of them. . It's like a certain level of anxiety, not the worst level, but that one where it's time to stop feeling jangly, worn, and riled up. I see the metaphor describing all of it, and want to move on past it immediately.
Well , I didn't mean to say you have to heal asap. I meant that , if you're aware , people can romanticise trauma , even think it's cool. Words like " trauma " itself gets used anywhere and whatever.
I meant while I like how you write , I find it beautiful. I am not trying to romanticise trauma or is encouraging it , you didn't deserve your trauma and it should've never happened. Though , as about the healing , that's your own journey and I definitely wasn't trying to push that.
 
Trying to keep calm. Isn’t really working.

Filled out the questionaries from health care when I had support person here. Help keep me balanced. Pretty new guy, so wasn’t sure how he would deal with me showing distress. But worked very well together. Glad I took the chance.

I have a very specific hankering for a meatball sub with beet sallad. I’ll try to go out and get that then binge a series rest if the day.
 

Congratsbaby

Mentally/emotionally/physically unstable but tryin
Trying to keep calm. Isn’t really working.

Filled out the questionaries from health care when I had support person here. Help keep me balanced. Pretty new guy, so wasn’t sure how he would deal with me showing distress. But worked very well together. Glad I took the chance.

I have a very specific hankering for a meatball sub with beet sallad. I’ll try to go out and get that then binge a series rest if the day.
Wish you well.
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
I am not trying to romanticise trauma or is encouraging it , you didn't deserve your trauma and it should've never happened.
I wasn't criticizing you @Congratsbaby.

It's always seemed true to me as good to look at oneself and others in the world with as much care and perspective as possible. I think with any kind of public discussion, including here, of trauma and the struggles with mental health, one needs to be cautious about consuming it, whether it's our own or others', as romantic and inspiring stories which can also give us a few moments of release from bad moods, depression, etc. I was and will keep trying to share as honestly as possible here. It heps me, and it might help someone else which would be a bonus I value.
 

Congratsbaby

Mentally/emotionally/physically unstable but tryin
I wasn't criticizing you @Congratsbaby.

It's always seemed true to me as good to look at oneself and others in the world with as much care and perspective as possible. I think with any kind of public discussion, including here, of trauma and the struggles with mental health, one needs to be cautious about consuming it, whether it's our own or others', as romantic and inspiring stories which can also give us a few moments of release from bad moods, depression, etc. I was and will keep trying to share as honestly as possible here. It heps me, and it might help someone else which would be a bonus I value.
No , I get that. You said you wanted to get rid of it , in your last reply. It seemed more desparate and I thought if that was the message I ended up giving by " not romanticising trauma " , that you should heal from it asap.

I understand. It's good to be honest :)
 
I'm concerned.

I was just writing a message to SF staff asking for a post of mine to be recategorized, then for just a split moment I went into my head, getting angry at myself... and when I looked at the screen again, I'd written something addressed to myself, in the text box; something that would truly be horrifying and unacceptable to send to anyone, let alone the kind souls managing this forum.

Luckily caught it soon enough to backspace it and finish the actual question. Still, I'm scared of the idea of making someone, especially someone who's been fair and kind to me, feel hurt or scared for any reason. I'm scared of damaging my link to my new favorite website. And I'm scared of the prospect that my self-anger can get so bad that, apparently, I can type out something addressed angrily at myself before realizing I've typed it.
 

Congratsbaby

Mentally/emotionally/physically unstable but tryin
I'm concerned.

I was just writing a message to SF staff asking for a post of mine to be recategorized, then for just a split moment I went into my head, getting angry at myself... and when I looked at the screen again, I'd written something addressed to myself, in the text box; something that would truly be horrifying and unacceptable to send to anyone, let alone the kind souls managing this forum.

Luckily caught it soon enough to backspace it and finish the actual question. Still, I'm scared of the idea of making someone, especially someone who's been fair and kind to me, feel hurt or scared for any reason. I'm scared of damaging my link to my new favorite website. And I'm scared of the prospect that my self-anger can get so bad that, apparently, I can type out something addressed angrily at myself before realizing I've typed it.
Hey , it's alright. I wish you good. I think the people here would understand even if it ever happens ( though I know you would try your best to be careful about it )
I once said something out of anger actually directed towards staff members , that was valid though. When I cooled down , I reached out again but they were understanding enough and even accepted their fault.
There's your personal diary ( that's not visible to anyone except staff but they don't stalk lol ) , you can vent there too.
 

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
I'm concerned.

I was just writing a message to SF staff asking for a post of mine to be recategorized, then for just a split moment I went into my head, getting angry at myself... and when I looked at the screen again, I'd written something addressed to myself, in the text box; something that would truly be horrifying and unacceptable to send to anyone, let alone the kind souls managing this forum.

Luckily caught it soon enough to backspace it and finish the actual question. Still, I'm scared of the idea of making someone, especially someone who's been fair and kind to me, feel hurt or scared for any reason. I'm scared of damaging my link to my new favorite website. And I'm scared of the prospect that my self-anger can get so bad that, apparently, I can type out something addressed angrily at myself before realizing I've typed it.
i wouldn't worry about it @I_waste_everything . all staff are kind and have empathy. try to not make bad mistakes but if it happens it can usually be fixed. staff would rather work with someone and keep this site safe but also helpful. you are doing fine so far. when i first started staff had to help me a few times

mike....*hug*shake
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
Trying to keep calm. Isn’t really working.

Filled out the questionaries from health care when I had support person here. Help keep me balanced. Pretty new guy, so wasn’t sure how he would deal with me showing distress. But worked very well together. Glad I took the chance.

I have a very specific hankering for a meatball sub with beet sallad. I’ll try to go out and get that then binge a series rest if the day.
Sounds like a good day. Hope calmness takes over @chiastic_slide
 

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