How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[may71]

my uncle has passed away..so praying for him

I'm sorry you lost him. You're welcome to say more about him if you'd like to, but I also understand if that's something you'd rather keep private.

Sending prayers for him if you would like prayers.

 

[notjoaorauta]

Yes sir...Actually good..but my uncle has passed away..so praying for him..

im really sorry.

 

[Congratsbaby]

lacking human connections really hurts. I hope you do better soon

Indeed it does , thankyou! 🙇

 

[KM76710]

Yes sir...Actually good..but my uncle has passed away..so praying for him..

Sad to hear of the loss of your uncle, prayers for the family.

 

[LumberJack]

I feel like my mind is shifting to a less rational state. I did something that exposed me to anxiety related to my intrusive thoughts, and then backed off a little past the edge of my comfort zone. Using something I've learned in yoga classes about 60-70% effort. Meaning, you get to your point of discomfort and push a little further until you back off slightly so that you are putting 60-70% of your maximum effort that you could physically push yourself into without injury. With the anxiety, it means exposing myself to the trigger until I feel the anxiety rising, but back off and walk away before I feel it start to feed on itself in a vicious cycle until I'm in panic or otherwise dissociated.

However, I might have still overdone it because I'm feeling off as of now, 2 hrs later. Off, as in, I'm not sure I could easily handle those questions the paramedics ask to see if you have a head injury (what day is it, who is the POTUS, etc). I mean, I could, but there would be more hesitation than is characteristic.

 

[nicktheundoer]

I'm sorry you lost him. You're welcome to say more about him if you'd like to, but I also understand if that's something you'd rather keep private.

Sending prayers for him if you would like prayers.

Thanks May..

 

[nicktheundoer]

That's good. It's nice that you are , I am sorry for your uncle.. may he rest in peace and may all the people who are grieving him gets space for their grief.

Thank you very much,sir. Means a lot..

 

[nicktheundoer]

im really sorry.

Its okay sir. I hope he has reborn in a good place.

 

[nicktheundoer]

Blissfull

😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

 

[nicktheundoer]

Like bursting into tears.

You're okay. You will be fine..sending strong hugs..🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

exactly me. i did. I am such a mess.
I hope you feel better soon.

😊😊 Thankful that you did.. I hope you're feeling lighter..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Super uncomfortable today. Feels like I've swung back from insomnia to hypersomnia. Last night I could not get out of bed until about 12.5 hours after I went to bed. I had thought I was up after 11 hrs, but I must not have been because the next thing I knew I was back in bed and another 90 minutes had passed. Night before I got 8.5 and felt relatively well rested, but today I am just dragging my carcass through everything and I'm irritable on top of that. Going to try taking a nap.

I might be catching up since prior to this, I had gone a long streak of only 4-6 hrs nightly. I'm also really distressed by the inability to control my own behavior. I'm trying to resist my compulsions, but it's kind of like once it sneaks through I cannot stop it although I see myself doing it. What I've read about so far is that people with OCD perform the compulsive behavior because it soothes the anxiety created by the obsessive thought. I'm not doing that so maybe something different is going on with me. I definitely get the intrusive thoughts, but the obsessive behavior is not directed at preventing the feared outcome from happening.

I just compulsively do it and it feels like I have no control over it. I do feel uncomfortable until I complete something, though. Kind of like being on a rollercoaster. Once it takes off you're not getting out until it completes the circuit around the track. In my case, though, it feels like it has to complete dozens of circuits around the track for hours on end. With ADHD symptoms on top of that, it's a lot of behavior change to manage. Maybe that has a lot to do with my exhaustion as well.

Are you insanely depressed? I mean,like a lot? Whatever it is..I hope you'll be freed from it soon..

 

[nicktheundoer]

There is hope - you can always restart... (No AI - tree West-Africa, Ziguinchor to Cap Skirring, near Brin)
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Awesome..

 

[Congratsbaby]

Thank you very much,sir. Means a lot..

You're welcome. I feel good to hear this.

 

[nicktheundoer]

You're welcome. I feel good to hear this.

😊

 

[Congratsbaby]

😊

 

[LumberJack]

Are you insanely depressed? I mean,like a lot? Whatever it is..I hope you'll be freed from it soon..

I'm quite disturbed by my symptoms lately. I emailed my therapist not too long ago, as in after midnight. I have been hiding this turmoil out of shame, habit, and/or fear that it would invoke consequences that would ultimately be bad for me. I keep switching between different characters, as in my values, beliefs, and priorities are different at different times of day and it's quite confusing. This started in childhood but I've always kept it secret. Now - I'm up against a crisis called likely bankruptcy so it's not like I have anything to lose by now.

 

[nicktheundoer]

I'm quite disturbed by my symptoms lately. I emailed my therapist not too long ago, as in after midnight. I have been hiding this turmoil out of shame, habit, and/or fear that it would invoke consequences that would ultimately be bad for me. I keep switching between different characters, as in my values, beliefs, and priorities are different at different times of day and it's quite confusing. This started in childhood but I've always kept it secret. Now - I'm up against a crisis called likely bankruptcy so it's not like I have anything to lose by now.

I'm sorry, dear friend.. I hope you can be freed from it altogether..Hugs from me🫂🫂🫂🫂

 

[Lane]

Hoping to get along as well as possible with fiance. We're going to Savannah, Georgia then St. Augustine, Florida.

 

[PrincessPure]

I think I feel fairly good, maybe I should study a bit tho.