How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[nicktheundoer]

You're not alone in this.

You're among friends who share support and care

Thanks seabird..means a lot..

 

[nicktheundoer]

So sorry you are doing poorly. You are such a kind soul who takes the time to support us in the midst of your own suffering. I hope you find relief soon.

Thanks.....I did find some relief...thank you for the care....

 

[nicktheundoer]

I'm sorry it's like that. You're welcome to say more about it if you'd like to.

Yeah.. it's just that I'm so scared of the future..I'm not doing any work due to my cognitive impairment and I don't know how I would live in the future. For now, i live on my parents money and I did some policies in the bank where you would get money in the future..but still.. I don't know what to do but I know everything will be okay..

 

[Windhover]

I'm gald that you have some support @nicktheundoer . Perhaps in the future, you could do a temporary part time job or even volunteer, just to find out how it goes.

 

[nicktheundoer]

I'm gald that you have some support @nicktheundoer . Perhaps in the future, you could do a temporary part time job or even volunteer, just to find out how it goes.

Thanks seabird..I guess I can try..

 

[Angie]

Its going to be a long night.

 

[nicktheundoer]

A little overwhelmed. Im cleaning out the shed today, with my friends help thank God. Theres just so much crap in there. Hope to get some order and get rid of a bunch of stuff. I hope everyone here has a good weekend.

I hope you have a good weekend as well..😊😊

 

[nicktheundoer]

I am in pain. I cut down my steps yesterday, the plan was a few days of less load then try a small run. My body has other ideas. Whenever I try to sit down or stand up I get sharp, needle like stabbing pains in a very, very sensitive area (iykyk) and as much as AI tells me this is nerve irritation and isn't screaming at me to go to a doctor (unusual for AI!), my mind just can't divorce panic and dread from that kind of pain. Besides the doctors are all shut, the only place open would be the walk in centre where I would have to sit without food or water for 9 hours before maybe seeing some stressed GP who'se been single handedly dealing with walking wounded all day and just prescribes me ibuprofen (I've got that and stronger so will try it soon if I can bear to move from the sofa). I'd had a few days of no serious stabbing pains in the left hip. Then it was pains in the right knee. Now it seems to have moved to the middle/groin area. There's a part of me that would just rather be completely gone than have to deal with this.

I'm sorry about the pain..

 

[AmberMarie]

i have grab bars in the restroom near the camode ro help me up. Tonight i had to get help from my ex to stand up off the toilet... i am absolutely livid!

 

[AmberMarie]

Its going to be a long night.

 

[crowgarden]

sleep deprived. as always. what makes it worse is that I'm almost constantly hallucinating thanks to schizophrenia; which makes it harder to sleep, and that lack of sleep causes me to hallucinate even more.

idk what else to write my brain is fucking mush lol

 

[LumberJack]

Woke up this morning and noticed that I am feeling better. Not good, but at least the fear is less intense. My intrusive thoughts are like a drill sergeant barking orders at me to kill myself interspersed with negative affirmations like, “You are worthless!!! You are a mess!!! You f**k up everything!!!”

For a change, though, I am not as distressed. I am able to just look at that drill sergeant as an overtired toddler who is screaming and yelling because he has feelings he doesn’t know how to express. It’s really tiring to have a whiny toddler in my head, but it’s nothing to fear.

 

[Windhover]

I love the visual aaspect of that metaphor and might turn that into a cartoon to put on my fridge @LumberJack, if you don't mind my aprropriation of it!

 

[AvidFan]

Slightly better physically - managed to get to bed and had weird dreams. The pain is a bit less sharp but obviously worried about what it means for my mobility, work etc. Just treated myself to pizza, I am fortunate I know to be able to do this and trying to be thankful and just be in today, rather than thinking about combinations of dozens of problems all at once....

 

[LumberJack]

@seabird I would be honored. I would make a cartoon about it if I could draw well enough.

 

[AvidFan]

Sad and tired, being worn down by anxiety.

 

[JeiJie]

Dissociative, I think. It feels like I'm watching my body move for me. My thoughts are slow and my head is heavy.

 

[Windhover]

Thank you @LumberJack. I'll depict the drill sargeant screaming at the toddler, oand maybe add a second image with the toddler turning the tables, becoming 8 feet tall and scream until the drill sargeant cowers.

 

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[Baywasp]

I'm nervous. I emailed my advisor about something time-sensitive, but she hasn't gotten back to me.