I feel bored. I feel the type of boredom you get after hurting for years on end. Your mind gets dull after a while. I'm still in pain, but I don't really care anymore. None of this means anything to me.
I don't care to be happy, I don't care if I suffer, I'm just sick of this bullshit. I want to fucking die and I'm sick of trying to drill the idea of wanting to live into my mind. I hate life.