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How are you today 1-10?
- Thread starter Walker
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An average of an 8 right now. Some absolutly horrible crap... and then a tiny sweet bit that allows me to lower my walls and number... then i get hit by a semi full of crap again. All within a few mins. However... if you take the rollercoaster and found the average... it would be an 8 for today... and for right now.
Im bout a 8. Been self medicating to get by. Dont have much left. I didn't want to get to this point. Self medicating is only thing that gets me through the nights and its only getting harder. Getting blamed for everything and now my son has been hurting more and I cant do anything to help him. She holds them from me. Im so hurt my life is so messed up. Now it just keeps spiraling down living back in my past. Now im alone and using again. I wish it got better and not worse. Got custody papers and divorce papers at the same time. So overwhelming.
I am @ 1 right now,I havent ever been so close before......
I have had a horrible night........ I went to look at some stuff ppl have out by the road that says "FREE" and my fucking glasses fell off and went into the box I was looking in... BUT THEY SEEM TO HAVE VANISHED!!
I searched high and low and went back with a flashlight and stil couldnt find them...... I have been crying all night.......
I dont wanna be here anymore........... I have had enough...
I have had a horrible night........ I went to look at some stuff ppl have out by the road that says "FREE" and my fucking glasses fell off and went into the box I was looking in... BUT THEY SEEM TO HAVE VANISHED!!
I searched high and low and went back with a flashlight and stil couldnt find them...... I have been crying all night.......
I dont wanna be here anymore........... I have had enough...
That's awful, I'm sorry this happened.
I wonder if the people who put out the box, or someone else might be able to help. Or maybe you could put a sign on the box saying you lost your glasses and ask anyone who finds them to hang them on the side of the box.
In any case, I hope you'll find them soon.
I wonder if the people who put out the box, or someone else might be able to help. Or maybe you could put a sign on the box saying you lost your glasses and ask anyone who finds them to hang them on the side of the box.
In any case, I hope you'll find them soon.
Things are going great for me personally. But seeing people on here suffering is saddening. Wish I could push a magic button to make all you guys feel instantly happy and depression free since you are all awesome 
I also feel saddened when I read how badly everyone is doing, but I also know that I need to write about my pain at times (probably most times up to now, lol). There has to be, IMHO, a balance between acknowledging the present situation, while also asserting one's own agency with respect to how we react to those situations. I hope that makes sense. Suddenly my brain is firing all over the place and I feel like I need a nap, but also like I just took a week's worth of coffee thru an IV bag.
