10 what sucks i cant help nobody. I got no function or will to do anything anymore. I have these worst luck ever. I even have jury duty in August. I really hope I don't make that long. My life is just a big struggle. My kids don't even want to spend time with me. I struggle working im gonna lose my job. I just have no fight left. Im always hurting and thinking of ways to go. I never wanted this but unfortunately it fell in my lap. I really hate who I became and know all this is my fault.