I do not get along with my father. And because I don't like my sister-in-law, the entire family, enticed by my brother, decided to shut me off the family. Things were already bad. Now they banned me from visiting them. Yeah, weird as fuck and the words were spoken by my mother. She used to be my only ally in the family, to be honest, I'm faring much better without them, but it stings, you know? Being rejected by one's own family.
I wish I could send them all to hell and never think of them again, unfortunately it doesn't work like that. Bunch of narcissists. It doesn't help that I'm completely alone. Weekends and holidays by myself are the worst. I devise all sorts of plan and activities to do to keep me busy. But when I put my head on the pillow to sleep, my brain has to remind me a hundred times that I am completely alone and I haven't talked to no one during that day.
If it weren't for the work, I'd be crazy already. As dreadful as work is, at least is some sort of interaction.
But, by far, what bothers me the most is this joke of a family I have.
I wish I could send them all to hell and never think of them again, unfortunately it doesn't work like that. Bunch of narcissists. It doesn't help that I'm completely alone. Weekends and holidays by myself are the worst. I devise all sorts of plan and activities to do to keep me busy. But when I put my head on the pillow to sleep, my brain has to remind me a hundred times that I am completely alone and I haven't talked to no one during that day.
If it weren't for the work, I'd be crazy already. As dreadful as work is, at least is some sort of interaction.
But, by far, what bothers me the most is this joke of a family I have.