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How many attempts have you had?
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I've had 2. Only one was within minutes of being successful after OD'ing <Mod Edit:*music*:Methods>. The first attempt was with 3 Ambien and <Mod Edit:*music*:Methods>. I don't know how I survived but I guess it wasn't strong enough. It's so weird after surviving the attempts, too. It's like you feel like you've been spared for a reason and a few weeks later after life settles back around you, that purposeful feeling goes away. Then it's almost like everything becomes 10x worse!
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I honestly am not sure how many attempts. I did a number of ODs with a number of products (not going to go into specifics)..... I did my research first of what "should" be needed to be successful. I guess that I should have been smarter than to think I would get accurate answers from Google. I suppose I had a about 12-15 attempts, all of which SHOULD have been successful and as twisted as it sounds - part of me is very annoyed that it didnt work.
Reading through this is both touching and amazing. Does anyone else get frustrated and angry when they read of the many 'accidental' overdoses? It drives me nuts that some people escape this life accidentally. NUTS! Especially when so many other people are trying so hard. I work in the health industry (as opposed to the pharmaceutical industry) and see too many people who are dying and desperate to live. Why can't we swap places? The universe is a tricky nasty beastie I reckon.
I lost count...probably 30 or more. I'm trying not to have another one anymore. It's getting old and I'm getting old. I've already suffered a lot physically and mentally from them all and I can't put my body or family or friends through what I did to myself. That's why when I have suicidal feelings, I process them here. It really helps.
I have had 2 since 2009, but both in 2009. It'll happen again in a few months and I will not fail. I have thought about how family will feel, yet it's still not enough to stop me. I seriously do not want any help though, so I wonder why I joined this forum. I guess to find other people like me who are like this.
I feel though, for others who are in a similar situation, but want to get better. Not everyone can be saved or want to be saved.
Sorry to bring everyone down.
I feel though, for others who are in a similar situation, but want to get better. Not everyone can be saved or want to be saved.
Sorry to bring everyone down.
My mind is blown at how many attempts some of you have... You'd think at some point you'd get serious about it...
I've had 1 attempt. Since then I've done an eminence amount of research and gathered enough info to know how I would do it the second time, if there is going to be a second time. The second time won't be a failure.
I've had 1 attempt. Since then I've done an eminence amount of research and gathered enough info to know how I would do it the second time, if there is going to be a second time. The second time won't be a failure.
Hi everybody,
i'm new to this forum. Last may i tried to commit suicide 2 times in 1 week.
And now im living with the after effects. Im 30 years old from the netherlands. about 1,5 year ago i lost my mom. she was only 54 years old when she died of breast cancer. To be more specific, it spreaded to her brains. Thats what killed her. And i not really gave myself the time to grief. Also financial problems. and my troubled past is what got me boiled up, i guess.
Now im talking with a social worker and i think its very good to talk with a complete stranger. That is also why i am here right now. i dont know you people, but we all got 1 or 2 things in common.
Also to tell people my experience with all this, i started my own weblog. Where i will tell all about what i have been through and where i am going from here. Through that way i hope i can help people to put life in another perspective.
I just started my weblog, so excuse me if there is not so much on it yet or it does not look perfect yet. Its al a work in progress, but i hope you will take the time to come read about it and let me know what you think.
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Kind regards,
Big C
i'm new to this forum. Last may i tried to commit suicide 2 times in 1 week.
And now im living with the after effects. Im 30 years old from the netherlands. about 1,5 year ago i lost my mom. she was only 54 years old when she died of breast cancer. To be more specific, it spreaded to her brains. Thats what killed her. And i not really gave myself the time to grief. Also financial problems. and my troubled past is what got me boiled up, i guess.
Now im talking with a social worker and i think its very good to talk with a complete stranger. That is also why i am here right now. i dont know you people, but we all got 1 or 2 things in common.
Also to tell people my experience with all this, i started my own weblog. Where i will tell all about what i have been through and where i am going from here. Through that way i hope i can help people to put life in another perspective.
I just started my weblog, so excuse me if there is not so much on it yet or it does not look perfect yet. Its al a work in progress, but i hope you will take the time to come read about it and let me know what you think.
<Mod Edit, WildCherry: personal info>
Kind regards,
Big C
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