Hey everyone. I haven’t had negative feelings this intense since November-December 2019, which is amazing, but...today it finally hit me again full force.
I feel like I’m going to fail at everything I do. Even though I try my best in school, I feel like I’ll fail — and my grades aren’t even that bad! They’re above average. But I STILL feel like I’ll fail. I also feel like I can’t accomplish anything in life.
I feel as though I need to be a perfect person or else I’ll be a heavy weight on my friends and family. I already barely tell them about my feelings, but a couple nights ago I accidentally let the door to my feelings open to my best friend (who is also my childhood friend) during a call when we were playing Minecraft. I started to insult myself out loud and I could tell she was sad after that. I felt so so guilty. I even apologized to her, and I apologized a lot after, and even after she said it was okay and that she’s happy that I’m opening up to her I still feel like I did something horrible. And now I can’t even talk to my friends right now because I feel like I’ll breakdown no matter who I talk to, not just her, so I said that I will be taking a break from talking to nearly everyone.
I just....I feel so horrible. I haven’t felt like this in a long time. (Also, even though this is an empathy thread, I’m still okay if you offer advice. I just need support a lot because I feel like everything is crashing down on me.) thank you for taking the time out of your day for reading all of that, sorry that it’s long
I feel like I’m going to fail at everything I do. Even though I try my best in school, I feel like I’ll fail — and my grades aren’t even that bad! They’re above average. But I STILL feel like I’ll fail. I also feel like I can’t accomplish anything in life.
I feel as though I need to be a perfect person or else I’ll be a heavy weight on my friends and family. I already barely tell them about my feelings, but a couple nights ago I accidentally let the door to my feelings open to my best friend (who is also my childhood friend) during a call when we were playing Minecraft. I started to insult myself out loud and I could tell she was sad after that. I felt so so guilty. I even apologized to her, and I apologized a lot after, and even after she said it was okay and that she’s happy that I’m opening up to her I still feel like I did something horrible. And now I can’t even talk to my friends right now because I feel like I’ll breakdown no matter who I talk to, not just her, so I said that I will be taking a break from talking to nearly everyone.
I just....I feel so horrible. I haven’t felt like this in a long time. (Also, even though this is an empathy thread, I’m still okay if you offer advice. I just need support a lot because I feel like everything is crashing down on me.) thank you for taking the time out of your day for reading all of that, sorry that it’s long