I don't care about anything anymore. It's so hard to fall sleep, and it's even harder to get up. I wish I was fucking dead, there really is no solace for me, with all the chronic pain constantly buzzing and buzzing. There are no bad days or good days for me, just pain, and only pain. And I have to experience it along every other emotion. How can anyone live like this? It's been so long, and I'm supposed to feel like this, for what, the rest of my life? "Rest of my life" is the keyword here.
I don't think I'll kill myself, because I just get filled with rage thinking about all the bullshit that people would say about me, about how much they "knew me", and that "nothing seemed wrong", oh and "if only they asked, we would have helped them". I'm just throwing stuff out there, you know when you feel suicidal, you can say two words without shoehorning your misery mid sentence.
I'll gladly welcome death. Something something something, I wish I could write more here, but I can't, as my limbs are screaming for me to stop. Can't speak too, because my throat would hurt after a couple of minutes. So uhh cool, can't type, can't speak. So much for expressing myself. Check the My Story section or something. I'm really tired.
I don't think I'll kill myself, because I just get filled with rage thinking about all the bullshit that people would say about me, about how much they "knew me", and that "nothing seemed wrong", oh and "if only they asked, we would have helped them". I'm just throwing stuff out there, you know when you feel suicidal, you can say two words without shoehorning your misery mid sentence.
I'll gladly welcome death. Something something something, I wish I could write more here, but I can't, as my limbs are screaming for me to stop. Can't speak too, because my throat would hurt after a couple of minutes. So uhh cool, can't type, can't speak. So much for expressing myself. Check the My Story section or something. I'm really tired.
