I feel so lost right now and like life isn't worth living. I can't stop thinking about all the times I was bullied throughout my life and all of the horrible things that were done and said to me. I constantly rely on drugs to silence these ever intruding thoughts. I have no friends aside from my brother. These voices inside my head are telling me to kill myself because I will always be alone without anyone who will care for me or love me. When I saw my psychiatrist recently she prescribed pills like a fiend and even prescribed me 120 Xanax pills, plus 1 refill even after I told her I have an addictive personality and really didn't need anymore since I still had 50 left of the freaking 60 pills she prescribed me last time. I dropped that psychiatrist after that appointment because it's obvious she's just a pill pusher and really has no interest in helping me or even cares about me for that matter. Sorry this post sounds so dark but I just really need help right now.