I think I'm going to die.

[alice202]

A few weeks ago my dog nipped one of the maintenance people who works for my landlord. At the time the guy said "its not a big deal". Apparently he reported it to the landlord and they sent me a letter saying that my dog had to be rehomed by today. I never received the letter, although they claim it was sent by certified mail. This morning I received an email from the landlord reminding me that the deadline for rehoming my dog is today at noon. I am extremely upset. I called the office and basically got told that I have to obey their rule. Zero compassion. I called a suicide hotline. Basically they want me to reassure them that I won't commit suicide today.

I lost my job a year ago. I gave up looking for a new one. I am totally broke and cannot afford to move or pay someone to take my dog. I am not even sure how I am going to pay the rent. Now I am supposed to get rid of my dog or be evicted. I don't have any answers. To keep my dog I need a new place to live. I really don't want to live without him.

I consider myself a resourceful person but right now I do not have the resources I need to deal with this. My life is basically over.

Alice

 

[may71]

That's awful. I hope there's a way things will work out.

Sending hugs

 

[alice202]

I am really really stressed out. I am afraid of losing my dog and afraid of losing my apartment. The landlords are not changing their minds about the dog. Yesterday one of the landlords said that they are not going to evict me. Today another one di something whic made me think they are still going to. Apparently they are not on the same page. Its hard to live with everything up in the air. Its exhausting.

 

[alice202]

I'm starting to really feel like I can't cope. Like I just need to stop everything and lie down on the ground outside.
I called the suicide hotline yesterday. The person who answered just sat there hardly saying anything. So I hung up. She was useless.

 

[anona123]

I'm starting to really feel like I can't cope. Like I just need to stop everything and lie down on the ground outside.
I called the suicide hotline yesterday. The person who answered just sat there hardly saying anything. So I hung up. She was useless.

They don’t always work. And what can they say? I’m so sorry for your situation. I feel hopeless too. It’s cruel. I don’t know why this can happen to people. Some so happy. Others in pure despair. I don’t see the point.

 

[seabird]

@alice202 Could you call around for some free legal advice? There might be someone to help you based on the fact that you are a senior (I think?) and low income. I'd even try calling a local news station, the senior center, any all renter's rights groups, and any people that you kknow. You and your dog deserve a place to live in peace.

 

[Ariiii]

I know that the operators on many suicide hotlines are not allowed to give personal opinions, for example, the operators on 988. However, there are still many helpful resources for you if you want advice. I suggest you to look for them to help you to work this difficulty out. Please don't commit suicide

 

[alice202]

Wow, I can't believe how much time has gone by. I've been in limbo with my landlord continually threatening to kick me out if I don't get rid of my dog. Well, today they ended my tendency because of another complaint about my dog. My landlord NEVER wants to hear both sides, so I didn't stand a chance. Now I have 28 days to find another place to live. I guess its for the best- I was starting to really hate it here. I told my sad story to a couple of neighbors. Then I called the suicide hotline. The person on the other end was helpful until she started asking me about my support system. I don't have one and don't even feel like I deserve one. I feel worthless.

Maybe I can find a house to rent so I don't have to deal with encountering other people so close to home. I realize I am sacrificing a lot for this dog but that is where my heart is. I can't abandon him.

Alice

 

[Gard]

Usually, changes are for the better, even if they don't seem that way at first glance.

 

[may71]

I hope you'll be able to find a new home soon.

Sending hugs

 

[alice202]

I'm fighting.
Thank you mr may

 

[alice202]

I am applying to apartments that give a discount to senior citizens. There are waiting lists. But all I can do is hope and pray and keep trying.

 

[alice202]

I'm exhausted and anxious. Life is just one battle after another. Then you die.

 

[Gard]

I'm exhausted and anxious. Life is just one battle after another. Then you die.

Take a break and relax I hope nothing's stopping you from doing that.

 

[Lane]

Wow, I can't believe how much time has gone by. I've been in limbo with my landlord continually threatening to kick me out if I don't get rid of my dog. Well, today they ended my tendency because of another complaint about my dog. My landlord NEVER wants to hear both sides, so I didn't stand a chance. Now I have 28 days to find another place to live. I guess its for the best- I was starting to really hate it here. I told my sad story to a couple of neighbors. Then I called the suicide hotline. The person on the other end was helpful until she started asking me about my support system. I don't have one and don't even feel like I deserve one. I feel worthless.

Maybe I can find a house to rent so I don't have to deal with encountering other people so close to home. I realize I am sacrificing a lot for this dog but that is where my heart is. I can't abandon him.

Alice

I think you're an amazing person for not getting rid of your dog. Best of luck with your house hunting. Please keep us posted.

 

[alice202]

Take a break and relax I hope nothing's stopping you from doing that.

I'm trying to pack up my apartment. But I really need to take a long nap.

 

[alice202]

I think you're an amazing person for not getting rid of your dog. Best of luck with your house hunting. Please keep us posted.

I had a dream last night that I euthanized my dog. Afterwards I was totally devastated- in my dream and when I woke up. I was so glad it wasn't true. Whatever happens he and I will be together, even if we're living in a cheap motel.

 

[seabird]

I was thinking about you, about your situation last night @alice202 . Sending strength to you with the best of my hopes for your success in finding a good safe place to live with your dog. (h) if you want

 

[alice202]

I was thinking about you, about your situation last night @alice202 . Sending strength to you with the best of my hopes for your success in finding a good safe place to live with your dog. (h) if you want

Thank you seabird. I have been thinking through the worst of the worst- if I have to leave and have nowhere to go... even a cheap motel would be too expensive... I could camp out or live in my car and go to a motel every few days. I have to find something. My anxiety is high. But I will find something and keep my dog.

 

[alice202]

Well, things are moving along. Yesterday I was told I had been approved at one apartment complex. I was excited and happy. This morning the approval was taken back. I filed for bankruptcy in May, and they said they cannot approve the application until the bankruptcy is discharged. That could be 2-4 months away. I suspect that this will be the case no matter where I go. I wrote to the court to see if they could expedite it. If they can't, then I need to deal with the current landlord and tell them I can't move out when they want me to. I dread having to deal with them. But I have to live here until I have somewhere else to go.