I never posted a topic in any forum, but I think, I'm at my limit I HATE MY LIFE.. all of the negative things that you can think may you see on me.. some people deserves honor if they did something good in a community. some people deserves a happy/good life if they are born in a right mentality(no mental defects). and I think .. <mod edit - pro-death> I, myself. I tried to change "me" to get away from my depression.. but I think its doesn't.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ my depression started 5 years ago.. every year I tried to change myself but a day by day.. it is slowly going back.. and after the new year I will try to change.. it repeats it self. I feel tired now.. 6 years ago my life was like heaven.. I have many friends.. (not boasting) my loved one is with me.. (not boasting) In my school, I am on top 3 students... (not boasting) my mentality and thinking is really active.. (not boasting) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Right now.. I'm like a robot.. My thinking is so slow.. And slow response.. my looks like twice at my age.. my mentality is like sh*t. Its really sucks... and I feel tired of my life.. feeling sh*t everyday.. and thats why I posted this quote.. <mod edit - pro death> I may not be lasts in a month.. because in next month my school's enrollment will start. and I don't want my family wastes money on me.. I just want to be gone.. the feeling that before I am not born yet.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm sorry for my english and I'm sorry for those who read my post makes them sad.. I hope you understand what I want to say.. btw thank you for reading my post . have a nice day and have a nice future !