List one positive thing you are looking forward to.

[Auri]

My favourite band's new album! I remember the day I got the last one, in 2015 (one day before the release), one of the best days ever, although not during the best times. So I'm dead serious with my excitement here.

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[JMG]

I'm looking forward to getting some things I bought online too, in order of the 3 things I bought in the last week (should really only have bought 1/3 of them but w/e am very excited about the things that are actually for me lol) it goes:

- The Luke Skywalker thing which I won't specify more than that except to say I think it will be my most favorite thing I own once I get it and also that I've ever owned lol
- The cat tarot cards cos they are just way too adorable
- The Untethered Soul book (I own a copy already but this one is for my mom for mother's day next month)

 

[1964dodge]

when i can go to car shows in my 64 dodge

 

[Angel Selene]

dying

 

[1964dodge]

dying

 

[Baywasp]

More live streams of the lead singer of my favorite band. He's doing a whole series of them. I watched one today that was really nice and he played two of my favorite songs.

 

[LonelyHiker]

A few things to look forward to..

Having dinner with a friend and fellow cinephile next Sunday after work..

Taking a a much needed mini-vacation the week after next and spending some extended time with my son..

 

[Champagne]

This awful feeling of anxiety going away.

 

[foreverforgotten]

I want to save money to visit my sister and niece in Florida.
This year... I really want to save that money..

and I really wish for a permanent job. That I can do without freaking out.
This year I hope hope Hope

 

[1964dodge]

This awful feeling of anxiety going away.

hopefully life will return to normal soon and that willl lift anxiety for a lot of people including you and me...mike...

 

[dandelions]

looking forward to watching the twilight zone at midnight tonight.

 

[Gonz]

Yesterday was a very very good day. Just met a very nice old lady through those DNA testing sites who we believe (through process of elimination) is my aunt. She, like me, was adopted as an infant and neither of us knows much about certain branches of our bio-families. We compared notes on growing up in LA at different times, and shared some photos (some of her kids and grandkids bear a very strong resemblance to me, which I always find very exciting). And I’m very much looking forward to talking to her again.

 

[dandelions]

a time in the near future when kindness and compassion and proactivity prevail rather than that something else that’s been tearing us apart....

 

[Auri]

Yesterday was a very very good day. Just met a very nice old lady through those DNA testing sites who we believe (through process of elimination) is my aunt. She, like me, was adopted as an infant and neither of us knows much about certain branches of our bio-families. We compared notes on growing up in LA at different times, and shared some photos (some of her kids and grandkids bear a very strong resemblance to me, which I always find very exciting). And I’m very much looking forward to talking to her again.

That is awesome! It must be so exciting. I'm happy that it makes you so happy.

 

[Gonz]

I used to play the guitar when I was younger. I wasn’t particularly good, unlike a few guys I knew. Mostly I just wanted to be able to give myself some very basic accompaniment when I sang, which was what I was really into (though not amazing at that either, but marginally better than with the guitar).

Anyway, my anxieties got worse as I got older, so I started getting less and less interested in performing (only ever did a few open-mic nights). And I kinda destroyed my voice with cigarettes (don't fucking start smoking kids, for fucking real). And I didn’t really have the passion for it to keep practicing just for the hell of it. But I did really enjoy just getting lost in a fairly simple rhythm for a while, which would actually make me reasonably well-suited for playing the bass. I mean, I'm never gonna be Flea or Bootsy Collins but, with enough practice, I think I could passably cover Geezer Butler's style in a Sabbath tribute band or something like that.

I’d always considered learning that too, but always felt like I had better things to do with my time and money. But now I have tons of free time, and I found out that Ibanez (a guitar company I liked) makes an acoustic bass that can be found for under a hundred bucks on some websites. At that price, all I have to do is cut my weed consumption just a little bit for a few weeks (wouldn’t even have to quit!) and I can easily afford it.

So, sometime next month I’m buying myself a bass. Looking forward to that.

I dunno, I just figure if I'm gonna be around for another 15-20 years or more, then I may as well try going back to some of the things I enjoyed when I was young and dumb enough to think I might make something of myself before I fucked my life up. And I did like making music, even if it was just for myself by myself.

 

[Auri]

I used to play the guitar when I was younger. I wasn’t particularly good, unlike a few guys I knew. Mostly I just wanted to be able to give myself some very basic accompaniment when I sang, which was what I was really into (though not amazing at that either, but marginally better than with the guitar).

Anyway, my anxieties got worse as I got older, so I started getting less and less interested in performing (only ever did a few open-mic nights). And I kinda destroyed my voice with cigarettes (don't fucking start smoking kids, for fucking real). And I didn’t really have the passion for it to keep practicing just for the hell of it. But I did really enjoy just getting lost in a fairly simple rhythm for a while, which would actually make me reasonably well-suited for playing the bass. I mean, I'm never gonna be Flea or Bootsy Collins but, with enough practice, I think I passably cover Geezer Butler's style in a Sabbath tribute band or something like that.

I’d always considered learning that too, but always felt like I had better things to do with my time and money. But now I have tons of free time, and I found out that Ibanez (a guitar company I liked) makes an acoustic bass that can be found for under a hundred bucks on some websites. At that price, all I have to do is cut my weed consumption just a little bit for a few weeks (wouldn’t even have to quit!) and I can easily afford it.

So, sometime next month I’m buying myself a bass. Looking forward to that.

I dunno, I just figure if I'm gonna be around for another 15-20 years or more, then I may as well try going back to some of the things I enjoyed when I was young and dumb enough to think I might make something of myself before I fucked my life up. And I did like making music, even if it was just for myself by myself.

Yessss! Can't wait for you to get it and start playing again! That's the spirit.

 

[Gonz]

That is awesome! It must be so exciting. I'm happy that it makes you so happy.

It is exciting! And super fun to be sharing it with someone who really understands why I'm so enthusiastic about it. Nice to not have to hold back in order to not seem overeager or weird. I mean, for non-adopted people, meeting a long-lost relative is fun and exciting and interesting. But, for us, it's like a lifelong dream and finally getting to scratch the unreachable itch of curiosity combined into one.

And because of the circumstances of my conception and birth, there are some bio-family members I feel like I have to hold back with out of respect for the fact it was not a happy memory, even though they've been nothing but kind towards me. And there are some I have no desire to meet at all for the same reason. But this isn't either of those cases so, for the first time, I can just enjoy it without any sense of guilt.

 

[Auri]

It is exciting! And super fun to be sharing it with someone who really understands why I'm so enthusiastic about it. Nice to not have to hold back in order to not seem overeager or weird. I mean, for non-adopted people, meeting a long-lost relative is fun and exciting and interesting. But, for us, it's like a lifelong dream and finally getting to scratch the unreachable itch of curiosity combined into one.

And because of the circumstances of my conception and birth, there are some bio-family members I feel like I have to hold back with out of respect for the fact it was not a happy memory, even though they've been nothing but kind towards me. And there are some I have no desire to meet at all for the same reason. But this isn't either of those cases so, for the first time, I can just enjoy it without any sense of guilt.

Yes, every family has its good people and its less good ones, and you have nothing to feel guilty for. The good ones are worth everything. She's just as excited to have met you (who wouldn't?), so enjoy these moments to the fullest!

 

[Gonz]

Yes, every family has its good people and its less good ones, and you have nothing to feel guilty for. The good ones are worth everything. She's just as excited to have met you (who wouldn't?), so enjoy these moments to the fullest!

Yeah, I tell myself that, but it's hard to feel 100% good about knowing my bio-mother (even though I do feel good about knowing her) when I also know that I am the very literal living embodiment of the worst thing that ever happened to her.

I mean, I think she owed me the truth about my origins and any relevant family medical history and nothing at all beyond that. And that's without taking into account our particular circumstances; she could have given me all that in a five-minute phone call then told me to get lost, and I'd have been grateful to her just for reliving the memory once more for my sake. So the fact that I can call her an actual friend, even if there are some mixed feelings attached to it, is something I'm extremely grateful for.

Edit: and there's the fact she is a particular type of mother, even if not my "real" mother, which leads me to worry that my mom is going to feel like she's being replaced, no matter how many times she tells me she understands and would want to know her bio-family, in my position. But you can add new aunts without replacing the old ones (even though she's technically the oldest one now, lol)

Basically, it's just nice to have these pleasant feelings and to have them be uncomplicated, for once in my fucking life.

 

[1964dodge]

I used to play the guitar when I was younger. I wasn’t particularly good, unlike a few guys I knew. Mostly I just wanted to be able to give myself some very basic accompaniment when I sang, which was what I was really into (though not amazing at that either, but marginally better than with the guitar).

Anyway, my anxieties got worse as I got older, so I started getting less and less interested in performing (only ever did a few open-mic nights). And I kinda destroyed my voice with cigarettes (don't fucking start smoking kids, for fucking real). And I didn’t really have the passion for it to keep practicing just for the hell of it. But I did really enjoy just getting lost in a fairly simple rhythm for a while, which would actually make me reasonably well-suited for playing the bass. I mean, I'm never gonna be Flea or Bootsy Collins but, with enough practice, I think I could passably cover Geezer Butler's style in a Sabbath tribute band or something like that.

I’d always considered learning that too, but always felt like I had better things to do with my time and money. But now I have tons of free time, and I found out that Ibanez (a guitar company I liked) makes an acoustic bass that can be found for under a hundred bucks on some websites. At that price, all I have to do is cut my weed consumption just a little bit for a few weeks (wouldn’t even have to quit!) and I can easily afford it.

So, sometime next month I’m buying myself a bass. Looking forward to that.

I dunno, I just figure if I'm gonna be around for another 15-20 years or more, then I may as well try going back to some of the things I enjoyed when I was young and dumb enough to think I might make something of myself before I fucked my life up. And I did like making music, even if it was just for myself by myself.

if you have a passion for something it can bring you great joy. and that joy helps us get through the hard times.i hope you have a great time learning and hopefully performing...mike...