I’ve been to embarrassed to write about it. But today I decided that it’s time to let it out.
Four years ago when I went to new school I met a guy. I felt in love with him . He wasn’t popular or handsome. Nothing special but I went crazy about him. After a year of being too shy and him liking other girl I met my ex best friend who helped me. She knew him because their mother’s new each other. And after another year I started dating him. We were talking all the time but only bus messages. Because when I saw him I was getting dizzy and I couldn’t say a sentence without any mistake. But I was getting used to this situation and everything got better. But one girl who didn’t like me started talking behind my back. And she told him Sam terrible things about which weren’t true. He broke up with me. I died inside. It was my darkest part of the life. I had no appetite I had no energy to move. I was juz waking up then going to school and later coming back home doing homework. And then I was crying sometime I had no tears. It lasted about a year and I tried to commit suicide three times and started going to psychologist but it didn’t help me. The I decided that maybe if I start dating someone new I’ll forget about my love. So that what I did I’ve been in relationship three months but I couldn’t stand kissing I couldn’t stand hugging or holding hands because it wasn’t (let’s call the guy I was in love Peter) Peter.
So I broke up with that guy. And then suddenly Peter (who was older than me and changed school that year) wrote to my friend that he misses me and he would like to try again and if she can give him my number.she did and we started writing. All nights and all days all the time. We were going to different schools but we could always talk. But the time was passing and he wasn’t even trying to ask me to get back together. And then I ended up in a hospital. I was going mad. I thought I’ll kill myself. And we started messaging and he asked why I have broken up with the guy I was going out with. And I told him that’s because “he wasn’t you”. We decided to go back together. But the next day he said that he doesn’t want to hurt me again and it’s better for us to be friends and that he missed me so much but for now he wants me as his best friend. All the pieces of me that I put back together shattered once again. We were acting like friends for another couple of months and then he took me on a date. But we had an argue and we stopped talking so much stopped messaging and now I’m not in touch with him at all. I’m
Dating another guy about 7 months by now. He knew about Peter . And this new guy really loves me. And I think I also have some feelings for him. But it’s not that strong and sometimes I’m still dreaming about Peter and still crying over him. What should I do to forget ? Or maybe I should fight for him again but loose my current boyfriend.
Just help me please.
Four years ago when I went to new school I met a guy. I felt in love with him . He wasn’t popular or handsome. Nothing special but I went crazy about him. After a year of being too shy and him liking other girl I met my ex best friend who helped me. She knew him because their mother’s new each other. And after another year I started dating him. We were talking all the time but only bus messages. Because when I saw him I was getting dizzy and I couldn’t say a sentence without any mistake. But I was getting used to this situation and everything got better. But one girl who didn’t like me started talking behind my back. And she told him Sam terrible things about which weren’t true. He broke up with me. I died inside. It was my darkest part of the life. I had no appetite I had no energy to move. I was juz waking up then going to school and later coming back home doing homework. And then I was crying sometime I had no tears. It lasted about a year and I tried to commit suicide three times and started going to psychologist but it didn’t help me. The I decided that maybe if I start dating someone new I’ll forget about my love. So that what I did I’ve been in relationship three months but I couldn’t stand kissing I couldn’t stand hugging or holding hands because it wasn’t (let’s call the guy I was in love Peter) Peter.
So I broke up with that guy. And then suddenly Peter (who was older than me and changed school that year) wrote to my friend that he misses me and he would like to try again and if she can give him my number.she did and we started writing. All nights and all days all the time. We were going to different schools but we could always talk. But the time was passing and he wasn’t even trying to ask me to get back together. And then I ended up in a hospital. I was going mad. I thought I’ll kill myself. And we started messaging and he asked why I have broken up with the guy I was going out with. And I told him that’s because “he wasn’t you”. We decided to go back together. But the next day he said that he doesn’t want to hurt me again and it’s better for us to be friends and that he missed me so much but for now he wants me as his best friend. All the pieces of me that I put back together shattered once again. We were acting like friends for another couple of months and then he took me on a date. But we had an argue and we stopped talking so much stopped messaging and now I’m not in touch with him at all. I’m
Dating another guy about 7 months by now. He knew about Peter . And this new guy really loves me. And I think I also have some feelings for him. But it’s not that strong and sometimes I’m still dreaming about Peter and still crying over him. What should I do to forget ? Or maybe I should fight for him again but loose my current boyfriend.
Just help me please.
