Me

[Champagne]

we all go through those hard times. and lately it's even worse. but like most of us it goes in cycles, you will be ok again. try to hold on and when things get better in the world you will start to feel better. until then you have a lot of friends here that care about you...mike...

Seconding this! We're here for you.

 

[RCee]

Pain has been such a trigger for me . It is very hard to just type the hurt. I never know what exactly, I am expecting when I talk I just know that what I say at the time just needs to come out. :/
Don’t like tonight much , my thoughts keep running away

 

[RCee]

we all go through those hard times. and lately it's even worse. but like most of us it goes in cycles, you will be ok again. try to hold on and when things get better in the world you will start to feel better. until then you have a lot of friends here that care about you...mike...

You have been a stronghold of encouragement and not just for me, thank you

 

[RCee]

Seconding this! We're here for you. [/QUOTE

🤗 🤗 🤗

 

[1964dodge]

Pain has been such a trigger for me . It is very hard to just type the hurt. I never know what exactly, I am expecting when I talk I just know that what I say at the time just needs to come out. :/
Don’t like tonight much , my thoughts keep running away

i'm sorry to ask is most of your issues physical or emtional pain usually...mike...

 

[1964dodge]

You have been a stronghold of encouragement and not just for me, thank you

you're welcome. but around here we help each other, that's why it works so well. i have had times that i was huting and starting to give up and you helped me, like friends should do...mike...

 

[RCee]

So much...I dunno I forgot what I was gonna say .

 

[1964dodge]

So much...I dunno I forgot what I was gonna say .

 

[RCee]

My thoughts are being consumed in a spiral of fucked upends. Can’t stop thinking of when I was in hospital. Can’t stop thinking of what could been. I feel like I’m slowly hurting myself I’m slipping back to that place

These feelings I can’t keep pushing back yet I don’t want to face my actions I did either

 

[RCee]

Cannot hold the capacity of these emotions it’s like slowly killing me rotting inside of me , I can’t face anything right now :/

 

[RCee]

I’m a broken record and It’s starting to now even annoy me

 

[may71]

Hey, I don't think anyone here is annoyed with you.

For a lot of people, there's just experiences that are hard to get past. It's ok to talk about those things as much as you want.

Hugs

 

[may71]

Pain has been such a trigger for me

Are you talking about physical pain?

 

[RCee]

Are you talking about physical pain?

Yes. Some old underlying health issues have been sporadically resurfacing. I know it’s because I have gone off my routine . I just in a way starting not to care

 

[RCee]

I want to care.

 

[may71]

Changes in routine have been rough on a lot of people. I've kind of struggled with feeling apathetic lately too.

 

[RCee]

Ever get confused of where you are? Not in the sense of “oh I forgot “ more so wrapped up in brain and as I’m moving around room picking things up Rossi g things out I become slightly aware of my surroundings and for a second I’m thinking “where am I in life” “what part of my life am I in now” and than a head shake and bam I’m im 37 living in California this is my street , . This is where I am at .....ok I guess I shAll accept this ! Or does that sound crazy talk

 

[may71]

There have been a few times when I've woken up in the morning and been surprised at where I was. I can't really remember something like that hitting me in the daytime though.

Is it more like wishing you were someplace else, or actual surprise that you are there?

 

[RCee]

Surprise that I’m still here surprise what’s gone I’m surprised as in just life happened and what more do I want out of it? Do I?

 

[RCee]

Question after question to the point I feel like I’m done