Musings, ideas, what are you thinking about?

[Nick]

A safe place within yourself?

For a long time I had a 20ft pole I used to keep people away. One person come along and kept poking that stick. They kept at it for a long time, until they reached my 5ft bubble (just a pole isn't enough to keep people out). They stood outside that bubble waiting. After awhile I felt safe enough to let them inside the bubble. It's been a long journey but there are now 2 people allowed inside the bubble. I don't regret, even for a moment, letting them in. Sometimes it's hard for me to have people in my life I trust, people who I REALLY care about. Every relationship has it's bumps, and when these bumps arise I struggle. I become very afraid that they'll leave the bubble and never come back. It's rational, but it's irrational. I panic and I don't know what to do. Maybe with time this will become easier. I know I'm still being kind of vague, it's hard to explain and I'm not sure the details are important.

 

[Kira]

I'm honestly really happy for you @Nick You deserve it.

 

[Kira]

As for me, I like my bubble just the way it is. Bulletproof. Nothing's getting through mine and there's nothing wrong with that either. We all gotta do what we gotta do to survive.

 

[Nick]

As for me, I like my bubble just the way it is. Bulletproof. Nothing's getting through mine and there's nothing wrong with that either. We all gotta do what we gotta do to survive.

I completely understand that, and respect it. I felt that way for a long time.

 

[Kira]

I completely understand that, and respect it. I felt that way for a long time.

Thank you for saying that AND respecting it. I'm sick of people telling me that I need to open up, be vulnerable and let people in. I've done it so many times and it always ends up the same; I get hurt. Really, really hurt and I spiral out of control. I just can't do it to myself anymore.

 

[Walker]

They stood outside that bubble waiting.

The best things in life are with waiting for Nico.
Thanks.

 

[Aurelia]

Anyone else take pictures of themselves a lot just because, or out of boredom? Or am I the only asshat who does this?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Self-destructive tendencies are taking over again. I'm such a stupid asshole.

 

[Petal]

My internet connection is driving me insane.

 

[Inanimate]

I keenly desire death. My blood-sugar is low, and brain zaps abound. I needn’t a response this time. I’ll reiterate in plain terms: don’t actually respond with expectations of a response in return like some people.

 

[Auri]

Anyone else take pictures of themselves a lot just because, or out of boredom? Or am I the only asshat who does this?

I think you're the only one... to admit it.

 

[Ash600]

Anyone else take pictures of themselves a lot just because, or out of boredom? Or am I the only asshat who does this?

I would take photos of myself, but it's more enjoyable to look at yours instead *bleh

 

[Aurelia]

I would take photos of myself, but it's more enjoyable to look at yours instead *bleh

Lol I got like 50 of them at this point.

 

[HappyKitty]

Anyone else take pictures of themselves a lot just because, or out of boredom? Or am I the only asshat who does this?

no you’re not. i hate being taken infront of camera but if you’re really wondering... you’re not the only one, theres tons of peeps would do that on instagram. Lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

This guy gained like 300 pounds in only six weeks. I can't imagine what anyone would need to eat to gain that much weight that fast. I eat like crap a lot of the time, and only gained 3 pounds in the past 6 months. Not that it's good to do that either, but I can't imagine eating that much.

 

[GFS]

This guy gained like 300 pounds in only six weeks. I can't imagine what anyone would need to eat to gain that much weight that fast. I eat like crap a lot of the time, and only gained 3 pounds in the past 6 months. Not that it's good to do that either, but I can't imagine eating that much.

lol
I think probably it's more about metabolism and other issues then just eating, lol.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

For sure, but imagine the massive amount of food you'd actually have to eat to do that. I'd be throwing up way before that. lol

 

[GFS]

For sure, but imagine the massive amount of food you'd actually have to eat to do that. I'd be throwing up way before that. lol

Yeah, better not to try imagining that massive amount of food... or you throwing up lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah like one of those food contests. lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Like, how many hot dogs can you eat in 3 minutes? Um, one? lol