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Musings, ideas, what are you thinking about?
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As a teenager I was unaware of the malls i’ve been to, not knowing it was a new mall… I was living in a bubble… I was having a hard time processing everything that nothing was sinking in, and I only started to appreciate those experiences 18 years later… informations that are now available and accessible to me but wasn’t available almost 2 decades ago.
Grieving, disgusted, angry, that the Epstein class exist and commit their atrocities preceding and throughout the time I consider 'my' true life.
And that because of the sensitivity of the butterfly effect, and discounting workarounds from sheer luck or intervention from God, the conditions for any entity to exactly come into being again wiþin a closed system must be so exact, if I get my improbable implored after-death outcome, all þe unforgivable will have happened, and be happening, again.
When I beg to live again, in þe world I want to... þen, I feel fear þæt I indirectly am wishing for þæt and all else same evil to be again, too.
And that because of the sensitivity of the butterfly effect, and discounting workarounds from sheer luck or intervention from God, the conditions for any entity to exactly come into being again wiþin a closed system must be so exact, if I get my improbable implored after-death outcome, all þe unforgivable will have happened, and be happening, again.
When I beg to live again, in þe world I want to... þen, I feel fear þæt I indirectly am wishing for þæt and all else same evil to be again, too.
I've found another pathway.
And now i'm booked in for an official assessment for gender dysphoria on the 21st.
It's all pending i can sell the consultant on the legitimacy of my transness, which shouldn't be hard, cos i'm about as serious about all this as it gets.
Then this HRT is gonna happen, and beginning in just a few months at that.
I'm so excited.
And now i'm booked in for an official assessment for gender dysphoria on the 21st.
It's all pending i can sell the consultant on the legitimacy of my transness, which shouldn't be hard, cos i'm about as serious about all this as it gets.
Then this HRT is gonna happen, and beginning in just a few months at that.
I'm so excited.
I just now write having come off of þe step of feeling a little less hurt by a coworker's disdain-to-annoyance at me. Several, soþly.
It still hurts, unfortunately. But atleast, relative to my nearly-always norm, I have it better. I am strengþening, overdue and snail's-pace-ly.
Now, in addition to getting better and better at þis, if only I'll be atleast as unboþer'd by my neighbors' dislike of me. Albeit still w/ capacity to competently respond if any of them instigate anyþing.
It still hurts, unfortunately. But atleast, relative to my nearly-always norm, I have it better. I am strengþening, overdue and snail's-pace-ly.
Now, in addition to getting better and better at þis, if only I'll be atleast as unboþer'd by my neighbors' dislike of me. Albeit still w/ capacity to competently respond if any of them instigate anyþing.
Mostly, I ehold solipsism as idiotic and self-disproving. The world around me is too complex, too functional, and most people whelmingly better than me, for I to possibly be conceiving or guiding.
However, I notice more and more that society, and some people, make such surreal mistakes, are such hypocrites, and/or are just so stupid, that only I could have possibly made such-outcomes.
However, I notice more and more that society, and some people, make such surreal mistakes, are such hypocrites, and/or are just so stupid, that only I could have possibly made such-outcomes.
I've found another pathway.
And now i'm booked in for an official assessment for gender dysphoria on the 21st.
It's all pending i can sell the consultant on the legitimacy of my transness, which shouldn't be hard, cos i'm about as serious about all this as it gets.
Then this HRT is gonna happen, and beginning in just a few months at that.
I'm so excited.
And now i'm booked in for an official assessment for gender dysphoria on the 21st.
It's all pending i can sell the consultant on the legitimacy of my transness, which shouldn't be hard, cos i'm about as serious about all this as it gets.
Then this HRT is gonna happen, and beginning in just a few months at that.
I'm so excited.
Also, the 21st is a British friend’s birthday, I’ll take that as a good omen.
I've found another pathway.
And now i'm booked in for an official assessment for gender dysphoria on the 21st.
It's all pending i can sell the consultant on the legitimacy of my transness, which shouldn't be hard, cos i'm about as serious about all this as it gets.
Then this HRT is gonna happen, and beginning in just a few months at that.
I'm so excited.
And now i'm booked in for an official assessment for gender dysphoria on the 21st.
It's all pending i can sell the consultant on the legitimacy of my transness, which shouldn't be hard, cos i'm about as serious about all this as it gets.
Then this HRT is gonna happen, and beginning in just a few months at that.
I'm so excited.
I am decluttering, I have plenty of spare boxes and packaging.
I wish I could reach out to folks here, on this forum, list what I'm getting rid of, and then just mail items to whoever needs this or that.
But I know that that'd require addresses, which are a big risk on the internet. So, no-go.
Anyone reading this, I'm sorry I can't pass my good-but-unneeded stuff to you. I know it's not the material that all-of-us-who-are-here need; still, wishing you find of what things *would* better your spaces, work, lives, etc.
I wish I could reach out to folks here, on this forum, list what I'm getting rid of, and then just mail items to whoever needs this or that.
But I know that that'd require addresses, which are a big risk on the internet. So, no-go.
Anyone reading this, I'm sorry I can't pass my good-but-unneeded stuff to you. I know it's not the material that all-of-us-who-are-here need; still, wishing you find of what things *would* better your spaces, work, lives, etc.
That's wonderful you are decluttering. Making space for empty area and new energy coming in
And the generosity that is present along with this process for you. We do share addresses here with each other in a way that is not just broadly and "on the internet". It's a one on one kinda thing. Like sharing our addresses for people who like to give and receive Christmas cards for example. I'm not sure how to do it enmass or if it is safe enough. Just letting you know if you make a connection with an individual that that might be possible for other reasons.
I wish I could use your boxes since I might seriously be moving in the near future. I'd love to have them. Thank you for the thought anyway!
You will find somewhere and somehow to donate that needs what you have to offer. It inspires me to meet compassionate and thoughtful people and there is no shortage of them here, you included.
Take good care,
Janis
