I am in a crisis house and I made a friend. I was helping him get through losing his his job, possibly his relationship and many other issues. When I first met him he was suicidal and wasn't allowed out. Had his car taken away from him and all credit cards because of how suicidal he was. Through staff and myself talking to him he got better... But still in crisis liked many of us.
I would go out with him and have deep chats about life and dealing with wife anxiety and depression... Among other things.
You see, I have attempted suicide. I don't want it anymore.. But I have problems dealing with the life... So I could relate to him but help. Every day I would try to go out with him and I would always make it known I was there for him.
The last I talked to him we went out really late for a coffee. He was really stressed and in flight mode. I would talk to him because he didn't trust staff so he was very much alienating himself. We talked for maybe 3 hours. Before we went back into the house we talked and he seemed quite paranoid. It was like his head has changed... But I talked to him and told him him we'd be ok and there is light at the end of the tunnel. We even smiled. I gave him a hug, which he wasn't use to, and walked in. Then we sat at a table and talked more but he was just not able to concentrate and eventually went to bed. I asked him to take my number but he wouldn't... Then he said thank you and went. That was the last time I saw or talked to him.
He was a 51 year old man living with guilt and shame. Not able to deal with the shame of losing everything he built for himself and his family... But now his family have to live with his shame and guilt without him. Now his 2 sons have to live without their dad and deal with the mess he left behind. His wife has to deal with what he did in the past and now raise 2 boys without a dad and the mental trauma this will leave them forever. They will lose their house and possibly everything because of his actions in the past and he can't support them now or help in any way... Just make it harder now because of what he did.
I don't know how to deal with this. I miss him, I regret not doing more, not talking more... Not giving more advice...
But, I'm so angry! How can he be so selfish and destroy his children's lives? I talked to him about this in depth! He agreed with me me and understood... But he did it JUST so he would avoid accountability and the shame of losing his status and for paying for his crimes or actions.
I don't know how to deal with this and I have no idea how his family and friends will deal with this.
I'm in shock and emotionally messed up. So confused and so drained.
I would go out with him and have deep chats about life and dealing with wife anxiety and depression... Among other things.
You see, I have attempted suicide. I don't want it anymore.. But I have problems dealing with the life... So I could relate to him but help. Every day I would try to go out with him and I would always make it known I was there for him.
The last I talked to him we went out really late for a coffee. He was really stressed and in flight mode. I would talk to him because he didn't trust staff so he was very much alienating himself. We talked for maybe 3 hours. Before we went back into the house we talked and he seemed quite paranoid. It was like his head has changed... But I talked to him and told him him we'd be ok and there is light at the end of the tunnel. We even smiled. I gave him a hug, which he wasn't use to, and walked in. Then we sat at a table and talked more but he was just not able to concentrate and eventually went to bed. I asked him to take my number but he wouldn't... Then he said thank you and went. That was the last time I saw or talked to him.
He was a 51 year old man living with guilt and shame. Not able to deal with the shame of losing everything he built for himself and his family... But now his family have to live with his shame and guilt without him. Now his 2 sons have to live without their dad and deal with the mess he left behind. His wife has to deal with what he did in the past and now raise 2 boys without a dad and the mental trauma this will leave them forever. They will lose their house and possibly everything because of his actions in the past and he can't support them now or help in any way... Just make it harder now because of what he did.
I don't know how to deal with this. I miss him, I regret not doing more, not talking more... Not giving more advice...
But, I'm so angry! How can he be so selfish and destroy his children's lives? I talked to him about this in depth! He agreed with me me and understood... But he did it JUST so he would avoid accountability and the shame of losing his status and for paying for his crimes or actions.
I don't know how to deal with this and I have no idea how his family and friends will deal with this.
I'm in shock and emotionally messed up. So confused and so drained.